my one n Only one.

finally Os level is finished on 22 nOvember. have nOt been bloggin the past few weeks or nearly months i guessed. wateva~ at least i m backed nOw.
seldom have time to sUrf net nowadays, as gOt tO gO trainin from this tUe onwards, perhaps i should say frOm last sAt. i m wOrkin nOw tOo =). afterall it's ok, as i m used to tis type of life rather then slaCkin myself into a fat pig at hOme =P.
anyway, shall pray hard for my results.
now Os level have ended, it also mark an end to my 5 yrs of secondary life. guessed i will surely missed my friends, vOlleyball, teachers.. this 5 yrs in sMb have leave me a memorable memOries which i will wan to hOld on fOreva. be it goOd Or bad, its part n parcel of life. n i have gone throught. =) hopefully true friends never grow apart. my viOlents gals n sMb team mates!!
btw, wanted to thanks her for the supports she given throughtout this whOle yr~ a wonderful fOrm teacher for out small class 5a3. she is sUrely nOthing but the best. w/o her, 5a3 will nOt be tat fUn n "hardworkin". thanks for the encOuragement u given to me in my studies esp-chem. i hoped i wont disappoint u~ =) ya, i forgotten to mention her name. -Mrs Lau- hereby, hoped wishes u all the best =D
guessed tats all i want to say?
nOpe!! another BIG THANKS to CHEW CHON WEE. =) thanks for toleratin with my On-Off temper. thanks for the understandin all this while. thanks for givin my great memOries all alOng. thanks for being there when i need u n last but not least thanks for holdin on n never lettin gO. u r my One n only One =D lOve. wO zhen de heng xiang qU zhen xi ni. wO ying ding hUi.
-Jing`

have i dOne wrong?

bein true. goOd or bad? hais, mess.
dUnno whether wat i have dOne is right or wrOng bUt i tink i walked the cOrrect step. at least i m true to myself. the rest i will leave it to fate. bUt my mind is jUs in a big mess.
recently really hard to get into the moOd for study. i got no much time le. tired of repeatin tis phrase bUt have yet to spend pooductive time in my studies. tis cant goes on fOr sure. shall see how. i would repeat this again, if sO i can jus go knock my head against the wall. better still.
i wan back the cheerfull self. stress-free please!
-Jing

hAiyo..

wat am i dOin? hAis, i hOpe i gOt the mOtivatiOn to study hard. i m tRyin~ have been stayin hOme fOr tis fEw dAys, weirdO. cAnt get into the study mOoD, HELP!~ wateva, mUs spent this hOliday wisely. memOrize all those chapters intO my heAd. mUst! enOught of studies. bOred. i have nOt touch vOlleyball one week le. guessed i wOnt play toO mUch of it fOr this periOd le. =(
btw, recOmmend this sOng to all [zhu wO shen ri kuai le] by lAndy. nice sOng *thumb uP!~ =)
anywAy ytd is chinhOng's birthdAy. -HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY- *i dOubt he cAn see this. but at least i wish him in my blOg. =P
yi lu shun feng to him. nice trip ba~
-Jing

back-ed. had not been bloggin for quite some time.
open cup had ended le, we gOt 3rd. guessed i had gain alot of experience in it, be it good or bad it is beneficial to me. the memOries will surely remain, afterall the team mates are all great~! not like what we "image", we surely enjOy ourselves in e teAm to our fullest =).
talked bout my studies. nOw my prelims is startin in two weeks times, pray i will work hard n memOrize those nOtes inside my brain. mUst! if nOt it will definately demoralise me if my results. . my greatest enemy is Chemistry~ -_-" but science is important i noe. argh~ will do my best. k enough of studies.
now wOnderin to strive for Jc or jus go fOr a pOly. frankly, i m mOre interested in pOly. wateva~ i will wOrk for my resUlts towArds Jc so that i cAn get into a goOd poly course, if nOt nyjc. okok, i will strive *yAwn. stress-ed.
tats about all i gotta sAy. lucks for all o level students. take care. btw..
Happy techer's dAy!! =P

tired. tired.tired.

basically today have been a lOng n tiring for me. tired =(. have been studyin till 4 plus 5 for two days. -_-" n i slept early ytd, indeed early man. my obaka 0.0, hais. nvm, slowly but surely i mus get used to tis type of lifestyle. the chinese result once again boost my studyin engine, to go all i can. anyway i m nOt retakin, be it a B3. i m mOre worried with my sCience, Once i failed tat i gOt no other alternative. if there is, ITE. i jus dUn wan to waste my one mOre yr. sO i shouldnt let it happen, hOpe sO ba. lets talked bout todAy, e course was damn lOng for me to have full concentratiOn throught out. n i find it bOrin n useless in sOme way. wateva, jus hOped i apply wat i learn. english is fUn afterall la. =P tats about all. gOt to get ready. match today with Rz. lUcks to us. i need energy. -_-" tC all.
many a times, i asked myself wat i wAn bUt till nOw i still cant see e answer.
thankss all my friend for tat encOuragement =).

chinese results.

come across this photo. phs n sMb alumni. bits n pieces of my memOries.

-_-" confused. troubled. whether to retake or not to. the D is e one tat make me hesitate. sian TOTAL. simply diappointed by my grades. mayb tats e results of high expectation. i got to moved on. with or without regrets.
sorry to wang lao shi. wat he say really make me tink. i m cOnfident tat i deserve a better grade. chinese is one of my strong subject. wat should i dO? =( sian! anyway i gOt a b3 n distinctiOn for oral. argh~ tinkin bout my science nOw. damn. all e best to me ba. lUcks..

lOng time nO blog. bACk-ed.
tOday is definately nOt a goOd dAy fOr me. trOubled n bUrned. went to sentOsa ytd. ok i shall sAy sths abOut the trip. indeed its wOn-der-fUl.
yTd went to sEntosA right after the celebratiOn at schOol. we gOt 3rd fOr the best well-drEss class. luckily we gOt, if nOt our efforts is gOne. sprayin of hairs, wearin white n red, etc. since its e last yr so celebrate fOr the last time. =P sO congrats tO 5a3. in fAct, i tink we truely deserve it.
the sentosA trip is wOn-der-fUl. played beaCh vOlleyball fOr the whole dAy, cOme to nOe tat its was a fUn game. think i m kinda addicted. lOls, as usual e resUlt of gOin sentosA is [sUn-bUrned]. already sO black le nOw bUrned. bUt i reAlly enJoy myself. tink e others toO. =)loOkin forwad to tis type Of grOup Outin again. was overall a tired n good day fOr me.
bad news_`
have nOt been studyin for the past fOur dAy includin todAY, simply too tired n laZy to teach those boOks. really wOnderin will i passed O. i hOpe i woNt regret when its over sO gOt to get bAck to study traCk asap. i mUs~ tml will be a half study dAy fOr me. lOls, finally after 4 days Of slackin n rOttin. anywAy, cOmpetitiOn have starts lets wishes goOd lucks fOr us. it will definately be a goOd learnin experienCe fOr me. JiayOu. cUrrently everythings is smooths.
tO u_`
thankss fOr everything. i appreciate. hOpefully u will bring me e cOnfident. =) tC all.

its time to give up.

sOrt out my thoughts. i m nOt gOin to affect my priority. i have my stAnd. =D relieved. i choose to face e reality thought harsh. i will get over it.
fRiday always seen like a weekeNd, lessons are short n times passes real fast. =) i Love weekend. one shall learn hOw to relax. jUs like me, bUt i m nOt slackin =X.
bUt~ homeweek for this week is oMg. i did better rUsh finish them asap. we missed two poa lesson this week. kinda worried for this. i want to score in this sUbject. k, enOught of studies. i m gOin to play bball later. i jUs want exercise actually. i missed vOlleyball. hopefully my touch is there.
-sUperstAr-
diAo. guessed wat. weicOng is out. dAMn unbelieveable, he is sUrely better than jAsOn in anyway. haha, jOjO nearly cried last night. silly gal!~ jUs cant figUre out y jAson kept enterin rOund by rOund when i think he shall lOng been out. argh~ its wasted. saw Hagen ytd at tV. n magazine-i weekly have them too. haha, hAgen n silver. unexpected. wateva~ jUs hOped kelly, derrick, candyce n jUn yang will be e last two finalist. JiayOu all e way. i lOve kelly's vOice. *thumb uP.
enjOy bits n pieces of my life. tC all. finally i get over it. mayb wat violents gals sAy is right. one mUs learn to let gO at times. i have learnt tis.

things have changed.

things have changed.
Tinkin of alots recently, yet i have nOt figure ouT anythings. in facT, nths cOme out from my mind. And One thing fOr sure-i hate gUessin, its definately nOt my gAme.
always tellin myself i will jUs wan to fOcus in vOlleyball n studies. bUt sOme hOw i m bein distracted. jUs by myself. i cAnt stand myself at times. n i have a hard time expressin myself in certain wAy. =( wat is this craps!~ argh. this is nOt e way i wAn. deep within i have alOads Of words tO sAy. aLoads!
went to trainin ytd n was real tired. my homeworks~ -_-" i hate to be a O-level student. stress n Jus stress. bUt i will get over it sOon. study programme have started. english, cHem, maths etc. hopefully it helps. i dUn wan my effort to be gOne dOwn e drain. never.
have been very crazy recently in scHool. but tat will only be reCess or rather those free preriOd. Other than tat, i m On the study tracks fOr suRe. play sOccer at class today, n its fUn. bUt~ its definately nOt suitable fOr gals. i knOcked my head on e table edge n a bUm wAs there nOw, nOt obviOus bUt its pAin~ sIan diao.
things have changed bUt i m still e sAme. i wAn to be happy always. a smile will help. i hOped u r dOin well. tC loads everyone. bEst of lUcks.
i m never good at wORds.

HAGEN~

shuai!~ the wordin somehow destroy e picture. bUt nvm the face is still clear. lOve it. thankss to chel. sponser of pic. argh~ rOx!

figure out finally.

jus another sAt. a bOrin sAturdAy.
nO trainins today n nO one gOin back to smb. nO lifE~ wateva mayb its nOt suitable to be playin now.
cOnfused. hope to figure it out asap. but i sOme sOrt tink i have figure it oUt. dO i? wateva~ i dUn wan to bother wit it. let things be e wAy it will be. i m mOvin on like i used to. my pAce.
talked bout ytd. have been enjOyin myself cause i m bUrnin away my fats by playin basketball. exercise~ great! cause nO ppl wan to becOme fat. hopefully i will grow taller toO. =P see i m walkin hard towards my goAls.
missed my vOlleyball. tats my dAy, bOrin n lifeless dAy. gotta dO my work later. all e way~

jUe dUi superstAr.

sOng deleted. =( i wAnted to change soNgs bUt actually fOrget hOw to. wAnted to changed tO Lin Jun Jie-dOu jiAo yOu tiAo. nIce sOng. if nOt jiu shi wO-lin Jun Jie sOng also la. but~ its actually sOng Hagen sing dUrin cOmpetitiOn lA. oOps~
ok, shAll sAy sOmething tAt i m gOin craZy over yTd. hAgen!!~ dAmn shuai, yet aloads keep insultin him, sAYin tat he loOk like gAy?! definately disagree!~ as nO gay loOk so shuAi, stylish etc. he jUs dance better tats y. lOls, admit tat i wAs kinda crazy over him. jUs find him excellent. bUt his perfOrmance yTd was so sAd. i mean he lOok sAd. wateva it is, he tried his best sO lets pRayed fOr him to gO into e sEmis. really hOpe so. if nOt derrick. JiayoU n prAy hard fOr them =D. all e wAy. but i prefer HAGEN of cause. =P
tOday gOt to wAtch e gAls rOund. =) vOte fOr kelly n chanel. i tink i m gOin crazy over sUperstAr. bUt i really like to see them perfOrmin. i lOve music~
shall end here. will fix back my sOng asap. all e best to HAGEN!!
tc all my friend. *smiles!~

new blOg

nEw blOg skin agAin. uPside dOwn mE, kindA nice n simple. n e sOng-EveryTime i add myself, lOve it.
have been qUite sOme time sInce i blOg. gOt nO moOd fOr blOggin, bUt still i like to change to nIce n meaninfUl blOgskin. in fACt i m lAzy tO online nOwadays. sO bored.
chinese O`level have finAlly ended, -_-" bUt~ i tink i wOnt Get wat i expected. hAis, nOw cAn jUs prAyed fOr a B3. i dUn wAn to retAke. nV pls! sinCe its Over nO use sAyin sO all e best to Me bA. =) its only a fEw months mOre to o level, shALL reAlly mUg haRd. i will tRy nO matter wAt. *stRivin hArd. nOt mUch to sAy le, hereby all e bEst to all my fRiends. enJoys e remainin tImes together esp-viOlents gALs.
anYway, i missed vOlleybAll. tink my tOuch is kindA decreasin le. cOach sAy need to uSe some speciAl trAinin to get bAck. lOls, bUt its understAndable to deprOve with e lAck of trainin. (><,) nevertheless, nv will we give uP. =) tATs all, seein cOach todAy. =D yeAP!~ tC all.

phOto.uS.

JingTing_*JingfEn_*

xUe xUe b`dAy celebrATion. cheers~

=)a sPeciAl n meaningfUl dAy tOday. cauSe its rAre tAt all viOlents gAls gather tOgether excEpt sUling. wE celebrated Our belOved xUe xUe b`dAy. sUling hAve to wOrk, nO chOice. hAha, bUt understAndin de wO men wOnt blAme her. =D afterall, as lOng as xUe xUe enJoyed. oUr effOrt is wOrth it. i m sUre she is dAmn tOuch dUe to this unexpeCted sUrprise bY us.
[Our prefect pLan] lOls.
[aSked gEraldine tO asked her oUt with a certAin exCuse. *a cOnvincin One of cAuse]
[after which, we teNd to aCt in e shOppin mall that it's sO cOncidence tAt wE met eAch other.]
[cArry the present in My hand n jUs Act as if its miNe~ lOls, my Actin is gd~ nO dOubt k.]
[didnt bOther mUch bOut her n jUs sAy "bYe" tO her.]
[fOllow whiCh, we wEnt tO Jack plaCe n cAlled her tO jOin us aS geraldine wAn gO bUgis le.]
[relUctantly, she have nO chOice bUt to jOin us.]
[after which we jUs pretended nths hAppened n jUs Order Our meAl.]
[*climax. sUddenly rAchel cAme n dedicAte a sOng *happy birthdAy n a cAke appeared right infrOnt of xUe xue. haha, SURPRISE.]
[n we give xUe xUe our presEnt, fUll of thoughts n blessin.]
wAt a prefeCt plan right. (nn')lala~
actually xUe xUe thought we have fOrgotten bOut her bUt wRong~ despite being in different sChool, u r always one of uS!~ this will remain as fOreva. =D
we wEnt to admiralty gARden afterwArd tO continue e eNdless fUn. bbAll, vOlleybAll, playgrOund etc. Obviously, all of us enJoyed ourselves tO e fUllest.
the bbAll part. Omg(><,). rOugh play. sUay. i sUffer.
lOls. lOve the wAy we r. cRazy Us. =) bUt tats Our yOu diAn.
tat's my dAy. last Of all.
HAPPY B`DaY XuE XuE. bEst wishes in everything u dO. nv will we fOrget u. tis i prOmise. sO mUs u =). tC n stay hAppy always k.

stRivin tOwards my gOals.

have been dAys since i bLog. here to UpdATe.
eh, nOt mUch actually. Other then sTudy jiu shi vOlleybAll. find Online sO bOred nOw, haha i rAther dO my Tys. anY sUbject will dO exCept cHemistRy, reAlly have a hard time handling tis sUbJect. always de-mOralise me, uNlike my physiCs. it have always been physIcs tat helps me get at leAst a pAss fOr my cOm sCience. sO u see, i simply nOe nUts bOut cHemistrY. bUt still i will dO my bEst, afterall mRs lAu is great. blAme on my poOr fOundatiOn, nO bAsic at all. argh-_-"!
qUite intO studies reCently. hOpefully this moOd lAst. k, enOught of sTudies.
anywAy, oUr class mIssed 2 PE lessOn liao(><,). nO life.
missed vOlleybAll. e pAssiOn still remAin.
tats abOut all i have to sAy. the bLog sOund is nice. lOve it. windstrUck sOng. =D
best wishes to everyOne.

my b`dAy 2005.

my dAy. went to trainins as usual. enjOy myself to e fUllest tis time. so fAr, tis is e mOst tirin trainins i have been. =) at least we benefit from it so its ok to be tired. i like e 18 sets stuffs, bUt we lOse all e three 18 sets. we jUs need to get 6 sets jiU win le bUt we eNd up with 5 sets fOr two times. bU gan yan man~ bUt i really enjOy it~ =). wEnt to sMb trainins right after tat. finAlly~ get to see cOach le. n finally sMb gals havin trainin le, great to see all my jUniors. they r still wOrkin hard so its goOd. passion fOr volleyball shall nv ends. *JiayOu sMb b`gAls 2006. trainins was quite alright bUt kinda sian cAuse all my ex team mates nv cOme except sAb. anyway, its was a great dAy ba.
i have given up. hate e way it is.
jUs want to fOcus on *studies n *vOlleyball. i wAn to dO well. *strivin.
cOme back to re-edit this pOst.
=)Jus wAnt tO thankss to thOse whO remembered my b`dAy n wishes me. truly appreciate it. thAnks. it was a greAt dAy, as least i m nOt alone. tC all. =D
finally i m 17yrs oLd.

cancel?!

trainings cAncel(><,).

sMb alumni. nOt all bUt we r still e best. fOreva we remAin.

setters of 3 generatiOn. lOls.

last bUt not least. -257- =D

finally sMb trainins

yeap~ finAlly sMb gAls volleyball havin trainins once again. can u image for the whole of jUne hOliday there is nO trainin. nOt at all. bUt wateva, it's e past. hOpefully tMl will be a fUn trainins, all ex-b gAls gOin back i tink. we missed cOach. n of cause sMb vOlleyball. all da memOries was still there.
badminton session with viOlent gAls this fRi. haha, first time gO play badmintOn with v.gAls. it will be fUn.
haha, abOve all is my "jian fei" plan. cause i cant cOntrol my diet. so anOther alternative is tO exercise, exercise n exercise!!! i lOve sport anyway.
after cUttin short my hair. ppl start to cOme up with new nicks. lOls, it's alright. jUs tat dUn say i loOk like sEc one is goOd enOught.
afterall i tink we, those gOin to take O level tis yr, is still kindA slack. bUt afterall i dOubt we jUs not like e feelin of stress. will start bUckin uP. JiayOu!

i really missed those times.

never returnin.
initial D was a well-known movie fOr now. dAmn many ppl went to watch. me? perhaps tis week or next week bA. shall see hOw.
argh~
dUnno wat to say. hOw am i gOin to express myself in the most proper way. nO one understand.
*scream~

start Of terM 3..

finally!~ schoOl stArted. qUIte bOrin as it was the firSt dAy. wasted a lOt of time in those spOt-cheCk, singin Of natiOnal anthem eTc. moOdy-mOnday. anyway, i grew shOrter when everyOne say i seen tO grow taller. =( sAdistic. increased 0.5kg, arGh~ fAT me! i wish i cAn cOntrOl my diet better. bUt nevertheless, sweets is a mUst.
0.0 aNyway i cUt my hAir, reAl short this time. nOt really niCe i tink. nVm, cOnsole myself bY sayin it will grOw baCk. it will need a lOng times tO grOw bY then. i dUnno y i gOt e cOurage tO cUt until so shOrt. a tOtal difFerent lOok, i gUessed sO. let it be, wAt dOne cAnt be undOne. cOme to think of it, my first time shOrt hair lOok in sEc life. lOls, dUnno hOw to react.
lOokin fOrward to e rest of schOol dAys. mUggin n muggin~ i wan to be cOnstant. bUt still i m lAck of sleep. -_-" tC all.
i wished u r there.

Yeap!~

finally sChool reoPen tml~ shall start stUdyin hArd. all the wAy! haha, i wish i cAn be cOnstant. wAs qUite a bOrin hOlidAy Esp the lAst twO weeks. bOred till death. bUt it wAs a memOrable hOlidAy, mAny stUffs happened. be it sAd oR happy one, its all unfOrgOtable. as mentiOn earlier [12062005] will be remembered always. dUnno wAt else tO say. yep, my lOads of hw is finishin. bUt~ my chEm -_-". tMl will be a new schOol term n its ten mOre week to e prelims. teachers have been mentiOnin befOre the hOlidAy. nO mUch times to be wasted.
i missed the times.

..wat a hOliday..

have been quite sometimes since i blOg. ok, nths interestin happened recently. jUs sOme happy n unhappy ones i gUessed. hOliday is gOin to be over. finally~ i m loOkin forward to schoOl reopen rather then slaCkin myself away. my hOliday assignment is half-dOne. hopefully it will be finish bY friday sO i cAn enjOy the last weekeNd befOre stressin myself in studies agAin. i have been sufferin frOm "insomnia" tis whole week, n it results in eye bags 0.0. hate it~ haha, a new wOrd learnt-insomnia. =P my english simply cAnt make it.
nths mUch to write. yep, i have changed blOgskin again. jUs tat i wan a simple yet nIce one. i will settled fOr tis, nOt changin anymOre unless necessary. bTw, i m jUs changin it bAck to wat it wAs. i used this skin befOre. remained as my best chOice =D.
things will nv be e sAme again.
all e best. stay happy is e best.

[quOte]

[as lOng as there is memOries, yesterday remAin.]
[as lOng as we hOld on, tOmorrow is there.]
wat a nIce bUt meaningless qUote.
i Once believed in it. nOt anymOre.

ended

ended. u19 ended within 2 week, i guessed it's really fast enOught. =) happy we gOt the champ. was a tough fight with pHs alumni. lUcky we did shOwed our sMb spirits, the never sAY die attitUde. didnt reAlly played well buT played my beSt le. tink afTer dOin my foot work it helps better, mUch better. the fifth sEt will alwAys be remember, oR i shAll sAy i will remember tis mAtch always. a memOrable mAtch indeed, first time sMb emerge as chAmp. everyOne is overjOyed, thus i tink everyOne enjoyed the togethernEss n spirits thrOughout tis cOmpetitiOn. this will add on to my preciOus memOries =D thAnkss to them.
k, bAck to nOw. i tink prOblems is sUrfacin again. hAis. wat to dO? i jUs hOped we remAin tis wAy. wAteva~
tink i gOt to stArt revisin schoOl work next week le. i dUn wan to deprOve mUs be cOnstant if nOt better. tats all bA.

new blOg.

.. gOt no chOice bUt to change a new blOg. siAn TOTAL. i sOrt of like e previOus one lOads. bUt all the piCture n sOng in it cAnt be seen n hEar, arGh nvm. the new one is qUite alright. hOpefUlly it will be better after my "zhen li". bUt i cAnt edit the prOfile stUffs. heLp~
todAy is e sEmi rOunds le. hOpefUlly we cAn win todAy n reach our aims "finAl". playin against ReaCtive zOne. mUs JiayOu bA, fRom wat everyOne cAn see they r imprOvin as mATches gO by. -_-"hOw cOme? bUt we Jus gOt to play our best n i think things will be fine. smb!!
hAve been playin vOlleybAll fOr the past week in cOnstant. be its be matches or trAinin, physicAlly tiRed le. bUt i lOves vOlleybAll, sO i dUn mind =D. i wAn to imprOve. determinAtion n perservAnce is all i need bA. =X i seen to fOrget everyThings bOut studies. perhAps after the U19, i will then be bAck into my studies trAck.
ahbU, shAn they all r gOin to mAlaysia next week le. siAnzatiOn. cOme bAck faster =(. shall miss them lOads, bUt not ahbU =P. tAts all bA. gOt to prepARe tO go out le, if nOt late agAin. -_-" tC all. miss yA lOads.
hOpe things R mUch better nOw. mUs be jian ci pLs. i will.

sAd.

will not be blOggin e next few dAys. *speeChless.

2nd rOund.

the lOt for 2nd rOund is out. is wAt me n ahBu wAnted. haha, gUessed we jUs have sOme lUcks?
..our grOupin X..
sEmbawAng
siNgapOre cOmbined
pHs.blAck
hUaYi.alumni
..grOupin Y..
phs.alumni
nAnyAng pOly
temAsek pOly
Reactive zOne.
hopefUlly we can dO well. JiayOu~

dunno.

enterin 2nd rOund le. hopefully tonight's draw will be a goOd one. lets wait n see ba. wAteva, i jUs nOe i will be missin qUite a few lessOn tis week dUe to mAtch. siAn~ mrs lAu gOt to stArt nAggin liAo~ =X
i m really wOnderin, tinkin. gettin afraid i tink. wateva jus hOpe thing remained in tis wAy. really hOpe sO~
wat i have said is tRue n i m adicited on phOne wit ya. sOrry, bUt i ought to be mOre understandin. i will! hOped [tRust] will keep us gOin. i m hAppy enOught. =) rEally.
dO tC, n cheer uP hOr. no matter wAt u did ur bEst, have nO regrets. =)always be there. a smile will hELp~ =D

..

when everything seen alright. things started to change. i doubt i really understand, nv will i.
things is nOt goin my wAy n i m speechless bOut it. shall let it be wat it is. i cant dO mUch, helpless.
shall start mUggin for all my stUffs. be it vOlleyball or studies. i will give my best no more slaCkin.
[teAm sEmbAwang..fOreva we remAin as One]
02`ahbU 03`lishAn 05`Jing 07`lichiNg 10`JiaYi 11`kAini 12`HuiJun 15`sAb 18`hweEcheE
amazingly today doesnt seen to be sUnday, y? bUt i love weEkend even if it is hOliday nOw. tmL match should nOt be laTe. its dAmn early mAn, hate tat~ wateva, cOntinue e hard wOrk is e best sOlutiOn.

.mOtivation.

hais. bored. bored. bored. n i m hungry, lOls.
ytd match against Rz, finally played as sUb-set.(><,)i si wU 3 balls in a rOw. sadistic. hais, make my overall perfOrmance drOpped. i will bUcked up. other then tat i tink everyone played quite wEll esp 2nd mAtch. *clAps! hOpefully will able to reach our [aims]. sMb all e wAy =). next mAtch will be on sUn 10.30am, mUs wake up on time! haha, scAre~
*find my mOtivation. hopefully it will keep me gOin!~*

finAlly u19 started~

finAlly O's chinese have ended. should i be happy Or sAd? =( i have quite a few wOrd nO time to fill in fOr pAper 1. regreted! as fOr paper 2 is quite alright. out of 5 wOrd i nOe how to wRite 4. goOd enought i sUpposed. hopefully i cAn get a A2, is kinda hArd but~ i dUn wan retAke. will dO my best fOr pAper 3, mUs be mOre fOcus dun wAnna fAil listenin agAin. jUs hOpe pAper 3 cAn pull uP the overall. k, enought of stUdy sinCe it's holidAy nOw, yeAp! the twO week study cAmp seen to be uSeless, i jUs feel sO. it is also U19 cOmpetition nOw =D reunite of sMb. 3 generatiOn combined together, happy tAt we r baCk as a team nOw. hAve the fiRst match yTd with JurOng alumni, was aCtually qUite nerviOus fOr the mAtch as the opponent is qUite strOng bUt eventually cAlm myself dOwn. the resUlt turn OUt well, tAt's goOd. hUiJun played reAl well, as fOr the others 5 was nOt reAlly wen as nOw not mUch trainin le. i missed sMb trainin n cOach. bUt fOr the whOle of June hOlidAy, nO trainin. wAt e hell, it's all rAja's decisiOn -_-" hate hEr. tOday played agAinst aMk.B wAs qUite alright, at least i nOt playin sEtter. honestly, i hate bein setter as it is stress n i like to defEnd mOre =P. tOday finAlly sAw Liching le, its like rEally finAlly. miss her lOads. hweecHee sEttin is still as goOd =) claps. wAteva jUst hOpe we cAn reAch our aIms together as a team, i believe we cAN! sMb all e wAy.
*i need mOtivatiOn in vbAll, my "qiao bO" seen to be mUch slower than it uSe to bE =(. lIke seldom pO di le. dislike e wAy it is. i will sUrely find bAck e old me. tis i promise myself.*
i finAlly sOrt out my feelin~ =)

trainins

ok, decided to go trainins today. hais, didnt played well today. the feelin for the touch seen to be lose. i dun wan~ i wan it back, n i need it desperately! anyway our formation for jss match is out.. will be playin setter, but i m still lack of e confident. hope the touch be back asap. n everything goes well fOr e u19, lUcks for sMb'-'. noe i shouldnt be slackin anymore, will start studyin for the remainin hours. obviously i only left wit tat little time. but still, i m saddened by my performance. argh~ i jus need more more practice. my stamina is droppin like shit. i hate the way things are now, all not goin well. hais, WHY?! i jus hate it. pissed off~

cOmin Os.

finally blog le. guess i have slAck quite alot, this should not continue. hopefully i can study real hard tis few days. monday is e o level chinese le, guess i need to buck up. bUt.. i guessed i m gOin trainin tml, i need to exercise abit n tue is e stARt of e u19 yOuth cUp le. hope we can get e results we wAn ya. cant wait to play wit my team mates once again, not forgetin hweechee, huijUn n mei mei. miss mei mei alOt, come to think of it we are really close tat time [257]. i will nv fOrget =). get back repOrt bK today le, eh quite alright. but i hope i can be tis cOnstant all e way. if nOt mid-yR is jus e start, wats matter more is Os. wish everyone lUcks ba. cOme to tink of it from tUe all e way to fRi, we r havin intensive chinese to do a last rushin up on chinese. kEpt writin lOads of cOmpo n dOin diff sCh papers. argh~ i hope its reAlly help. gOt another last lessOn tml, actually its optional bUt mOst of us will be gOin to dO e last revisiOn. prAy our hard wOrk dUn gO down e dRain if nOt sAdistic. nOw my main wOrries is my pAper 1 the cOmpo part, i scAre i cant score n fOr sure to reach A1 i mUs scOre there. gUess i jus to dO my best. k, shall eNd here. if i cOntinue to slack i will be retAkin fOr sure. i dUn wan! tC all. n beSt od lUcks to all my fRiend.
i lOve the sOng of my blOg nOw~ actUally it wAs chi xin jue dUi at e beginnin, eventually i change it to tis One. [si xing bU gAi]. haha, new skin new sOund. =) simply lOve it.

finAlly back~

lOls, i m finally back to blOg. have been a few week since i blOg n i have change my hP number. hOpefully i have infOrm all my fRiends bOut tat =). ok back to me recent life. bOred~ gOt back all my papers. did average bUt jus feel tat i cAn dO better fOr my chinese n hUm. tis twO is a mUs scOre sUbject fOr me if i wAn to pull my overall. gUess i gOt to bUck up rAther then saddened here. as fOr my sCience n english i shOuld wOrk extra since i m weAk at tat.
my resUlts overall L1R4 16 R5 22.
eNglish 52/100
sCience 52/100
mAths 71/100
pOa 76.5/100
chinese 68/100
cOm. hUm 64/100
nOw its less than 10 mOre dAys or sO to my O level chinese, i mUs work hard althOught i m qUite relUctant tO see all thOse stacks oF chinese wOrd papers. argh! will gEt over tis soOn.
the 2nd selectiOn was qUite alright, jus tat its nOt yet cOnfirm whether we are in yet as nOw gOt 15 pPl. sO continue tO work hard ba. lets prAy =). bUt afterall i m happy cause i nOe quite a nUmber of new fRiends. they r niCe, nOt like wA we initially expected. =P tat's great i tink~
tats my dAy, jus need to be mOtivited to study harder. i have start revisin~ hOpe i last till e eNd. tC all.

argh~

today paper not very well dOne.. maths paper 2 is qUite tough, hAis.. it's over no use saddened over tat, hopefully i did did my best.. fOr physics the paper is quite ok, slightly easy.. bUt blurr my mess up the density fOrmula, i gOt tat very firSt question wrOng =(.. nAhz, nOt goin to say anymore abOut the paper since its over.. i reAlly need mOre determination on studies.. tml is e mOst . . . dAy, its my weakest sUbject-chemistry paper.. i will still do all i can, but its obviOus i will fAil.. jus hOpe i dUn fail "badly".. after the chemistry remedial jUs now, i dOubt i have e energy to cOntinue.. i m tired~ cause of those midnight-oil, studies etc.. i miss vOlleyball, i wan my touch back.. rEcently unable to have a gd rest, both mentally n physically tired yet i cant get to slp.. i will think n think for hours befOre i fall asleep.. y? i dUn even nOe, my miNd Jus cant stop thinkin.. it's result in eye-bags 0.0.. tired nOw, gOin to take a nAp.. tC all, tml can gO play le.. finally~ lOokin forwaRd to tis week eNd.. =D i will hang On~ hOpe thing cAn be bAck in nOrmal.. 0.0.. lOls~

. . .

=)) early release~ have histOry today Only, hOpefully can get e results i wAn.. *pRay.. the sOurce-bAsed is kindA difficUlt, i tink sOme of my mArks fly away le.. eSp on Qb i cAnnot figure oUt, when i finAlly understand the time is Up.. i did wRite my sOme answer, lets hOpe i dUn get a big rOund egg fOr tat qUestion.. fOr the structuRe is mUch easier fRom wAt i expected, its all straight fOrward qUestion.. hOpe i'll be able to scOre there tO pUll up my overall bA.. finAlly e cOm. hUm paper is all finish!! yeAp~ bUt anOther one cOmin, n tats is sCience.. tml havin mAths paper 2 n physics le.. lUcks to everyOne =D.. i will be hAppy if tis "mid-yR" eNd asap, sO i can wOrk fOr my chinese.. i mUs scOre in tAt, i need sOme confidEnce bA~ a intensive chinese will helps! tAt's my dAy. i cAnt be bOther anymOre.. todAy is e a-divisiOn final, boTh nyJc gALs n bOy gOt into finAL.. happy fOr them, mAyb gOin wAtch the mAtch later.. mUs be a nIce mATch, pray fOr their dOuble-chAmp! =) stAy happy everyOne~

weEkend rOx..

ytd have our u19 grOupin out.. relieved, at least the result is quite ok.. nOt easy bUt nOt hard too =).. shAll wOrk hard fOr tat n pray everything tUrns out well.. haha, we didnt put sMb alumni n mAyb people Out there may think we Are Jus sEmbawAng b`gAl bUt nO! we r mOstly thOse step dOwn de plus those pe yE de.. hOpefUlly we cAn perfOrm well dUrin u19 mAtch, its cOnsist Of 3 generatiOn of sMb.. *prAy fOr us~ wOnderin who is e rZ in Our group? ok, we R in grOup D-Oss, Amk-B, hUayi, Jss-alumni n Rz.. after which wEnt to train at NyJc, its wasnt reAlly as enjOyable as lAst week.. hAis, my tOuch fOr vball is lOsin bits by bits.. i cAn feel tat, n i desperately wAnted it bAck.. hOpe it will be bAck by then!! please~ i need to overcOme the stress when i play bU hao.. tis is a mUs!! i tink i will jUs go fOr a tRy n Jus dO my best.. haha, bUt i m prepared nOt to be selected.. obviOusly the three of uS is lAck of cOnfidence -_-".. Jus JiayOu bA~ went all the wAy to fAr eAst after tat, bLurr uS fOrget to get dOwn at tOa payOh.. =P went to eat at lOng John n have sOme tAlks.. tat stupid ahBu gOt me into trOuble mAn!! she Jus sAy nO Jiu can le.. mAKe me kana sUan~ lOls, okok i m xin fU lO(><,).. wEnt to wAtch [hOuse Of wAx] after tAt.. was a nIce hOrror mOvie bA, strongly recOmmended~

tat's my YTD~ wAt a dAy man, i enjOy bein wit my team maTes.. they r simply great!! ok nOt to fOrget pAnda =P, thankss u r goOd tOo.. tC~

gOt to cOme back to tOday.. hAis, havin maths n english tml.. gOt to gO back to study trAck.. i m gettin fatter mAn, i wan to exercise mOre.. nOw startin tO worry fOr chemistry n physics.. gOt to wOrk extra hard fOr Tat.. tat's all, goOd lUck fOr all my peers..

exAms startin. . .

-_-" have english oral, haha kinda scare cause e teacher seen to ask loAds of question.. anyway, it's over n mid-year startin tml.. (><,)shall wOrk hard then bUt sort of half-hearted as o level chinese is approachin.. tat's all nths special, hOpin i can really concentrate n dO my very bEst~ mark e start of burnin midnight oil, jiayOu!

i m sUre i can get over tis as well.. i dUn wan to be bOther~ tis is me! =(

wat a dAy..

gOt to finish all my maths stuffs todAy.. alOts mAn~ thankss gODd, i endUre all e wAy and study fOr three hOurs.. =P But~ i have yet tOuch chemistry n pHysics.. -_-" tis thursdAy mid-yR le.. bLess me wit lUcks(nn')..

sOmetimes things dUn turn out e wAy we wAnted,
sOmetimes we jUs gOt to accept fAte..

[a greAt lOve?]
it's when u shed tears and still care fOr him.
it's when he ignOres u and u still lOng fOr him.
it's when he begin to lOve another n yEt u still smile n sAy:
[i'm hAppy fOr u]..

haha, bOred dAy~

njyc trainin..

sAt again~ waKe up early in e mOrnin fOr e maths remediAl, it last two hours 7.30-9.30am.. afterall it was a important lesson as we actually finish all the stuffs bout vectors, quite a interestin lesson.. went to talk wit vOn, huitin n rAchel after tat.. haha, we talk fOr a few hours befOre headin back home.. they tell me alots of stuffs bout BGR, i did sAid some too.. cannOt really judge a boOk by its loOk ba, nOw i really understand its meanin.. thankss cHel!~ n vOn, cheer up since its all e past rite =).. we mUs get over all our pAst tense n loOk fOrward our fUture tense? after reachin hOme, have a bath n went straight out to meet ahbU le.. gOin to nyjC to trAin, got to nOe tat they gOt into e finals =D happy fOr them.. prAys for them for their champ, all the wAy~ i enjoy todAy trainin! it was quite bOrin at first bUt the lAst set we played is a enjOyable one.. haha, i played attacker today.. once in a blue moOn~ as i always played setter.. went hOme around 11 plus after the "gatherin".. lOls, it became a habit tat we always went to talk after out trainin till late.. we can actually talk boUt anything under e sUn.. i lOve the wAy it is =).. bUt qUarrel wit bRother tOday, -_-" it wAs e first time he shOw sUch a attitude.. siAn half, or should i sAy i m sAd? fOrget it bA, i jus nOe i dislike e feelin it is.. over le..

. . .

. . . nths to sAy today.. wat e hell m i tinkin? trOubled~ tml is spOrts dAy le, gOod lUcks fOr all e 5a3rians.. tC all, shortest blOg ever..

early dismiss~

sAd~ first time fail a listenin? -_-" i myself also dUnno wat happen.. i mUs really see e answer, didnt expect to fAil.. even my teacher is feelin weiRd y my listenin so weAk.. hAis, can only an wei myself tis is not o level.. i mUs really bUck up! bUt i really dUnno how cOme i fAiled.. sAdistic me~ hais, gOt to get over sOon.. siAn hAlf.. once in a blUe mOon, todAy early dismissal-12.30pm.. but i dUn feel hAppy, quite sAd over my resUlts.. tat's my day, prOmised tO wOrk hArd~

lOng dAy~ bOred!

gOtta be a lOng dAy as expected.. sian hAlf~ free periOd for pE n english, teacher absent plus fOr pe we have already cleAr e 2.4km rUn.. slAck~ bUt i m feelin sick, perhaps after e sEntosa trip.. flu n cOugh, my vOice obviOusly changed.. bUt next week is e mid-yEar exams le.. -_-"fOllow by chinese o level-30th mAy, i mUs get well soOn.. need alOts of energy fOr bUrnin midnight oil.. after recess start to feel even tirin cause of e flu, bUt still playin around.. haha, tat's me.. gOt listenin todAy, n a chinese test tml.. told us today n expected us to learn so mAny woRds, -_-"pEngz aR.. should try hard then~ went to the tAlk bout chinese examinations tips, damn borin.. nOt mUch is listenin after some times, get away easily.. tAt's my dAy bA, get well soOn mAn~

sUndAy!

wAKe up at eleven todAy to meet zY.. i m tired cAuse ytd was a tirin dAy, plUs four am then slp.. my weekend is gOne~ nvm, i will be lOokin fOrward to next weekend =P.. will be able to slack n sleep.. hOpe zy is mUch better ba~ he sOund sAd ytd night or should i sAy tis mOrnin 3am when he sms me.. bUt tink he is mUch better le bA, cheer up =)~ we wAlk all the to cAusewAy fRom admiralty mRt, sO hOt sOme more n "near".. at least, i dUn feel weird le.. cAuse first time talk to him in reAl persOn kinda scare n bU gAn.. lucky he is qUite talkative, after tat when to sUn plaza plannin to find wee hOng.. haha, it was a waste tRip.. lOls, he keep sAyin he can pUll the bAsketbALL ring.. tRue mA, or u tink tOo mUch? sO prOud! haha, went to talk at my hOuse de vOid dEck.. i give him a ultraman stickers, cUte lO.. afterall, i jUs hOpe he wOnt be in depression anymOre.. if nOt jian an sUffer, plus all ur friend so wOrry for u.. pei him to mRt after tAt.. my bOdy is still bUrnin, mY face~ tats my dAy ba~ tC all..

sEntosA~

todAy was a tirin dAy.. lOls, went to sentosa wit kOkping, edwin they all plUs gals gOt sAbrina n ahbU.. fUn afterall, dRank alot of sea wAter.. eyes dAmn pain, n sO fUll-_-".. haha, whO called me dUnno how to swim.. other than tat we still play vOlleybAll, sAw fUkang there.. its fUn, the tOuch of e bAll is different frOm the nOrmal vOlleybAll we have been playin.. mAyb one is indOor anOther is sAnd ba, liked to see thOse li hAi de ppl plAy.. we are all sUn-bUrned(><,), dAmn chao tA now.. i m already so black n even blacker, lOls.. whole face plus shoulder n baCk pAin, sO is ahbu n sAb.. mOst important we did enjOy =D.. wEnt to sUling's birthdAy straight after tAt, qUite bOred cAuse dUn feel like dOin anything too tired le.. oOps, lucky sUling dUn have my blOg~ nv eAt the bBq, Jus drink wAter lO.. tAke sOme photos wit viOlents gAls n a little gAl.. dAmn ke ai e little gAl, she like to liaten to my mp3.. yEp, talk to "Uncle pAnda" at night.. enjOy e chAt, my new fRiend.. he like to sAy "fine fine fine" n sOund sO fUnny, plUs cOpy me act china.. bUt i tink i hAi him sLp sO late.. sOrry~ Uncle pAnda.. tat's my dAy.. hOpe everyOne is hAppy always..

yeap~ fRidAy! !

yeap, its fRidAy again~ i lOves fridAy, the study hOurs is shOrt n its weekeNd once again.. todAy haVe twO test-cHemistry n mAths.. hOpefUlly i cAn pAss my chemistry, i will be happy enOugh.. fOr my mAths, aRgh~ i m cAReless i nv see e "nO replacement".. gOt to lOss a few mArks on tat, afterall it's ok lo.. Jus need to reAlly bUck up fOr chemistry-wEakest sUb of all.. fOr mAth, cARefUl! haha, todAy we sAbo the birthdAy gAl-Denise.. -_-"gUess wAt we bUy fOr her, haha.. 17 pAds, so fUnny n disgUstin mAn we write on e pAds.. nOt only e gALs, the bOys write too =P.. haha, we becOme sO united.. wEnt to fUll all e bOttles we hAve, nOe wAt we gOin to dO~ lOls, the study prOgramme is cAncel todAy so right after school e "bAttle" begin.. we all pOurs e wAter at Denise, even nUraini, sUfina n shelia plAyed.. i like e teAm work we have, grEat~ i tink all of us enjOys, esp dEnise gOt so wEt.. i m e unfortuanate one kAna hUg by her.. lOls, so is hUiting.. lAugh at me la, obee!! tink she gOin to kill me if she see tis cAuse i stand there lAughin at her when she gOt cAugh(nn').. wEnt hOme straight after tat tO rest, abit tired n dUn feel like gOin oUt.. k lA, overall a fUn n relaxin dAy.. enjOys every single one of them.. cheerss~

coOl~  

ultraman agAin~ =P 

shOrt put..

Omg(><,) wake up with a terrible gastric pain todAy.. the same feelin is bAck, the sAme pain.. i hate tat.. sms mrs lAu i will be late, in case she thought i nOt comin to school.. was sufferin from e pain till 8 plus then went to school.. -_-"pOa teacher absent, i m worried for tis subJect.. the pain cOme back dUrin reCess, dAmn sufferin.. nOt damn eat hOt n spicy stUffs le.. yep, i tink i m becomin to like chemistry? nO, i shOuld sAy i like to dO e experiment.. hAha, find e cAtion n aniOns stUffs.. fUn~ weNt to shOrt pUt heats afTer schOol, sO many peOple-30plUs ba.. hesitate tO jOin 100m or tat, cAuse i m clOse in gettin e individUal bEst.. eNd up choose shOrt pUt, wan to tRy new things ma.. afterall, i find it some thing nEw n enjOy it =).. kAini wAs the cHamp, she is gOod.. fOllow bY ahbU, Haha all vOlleybAll players leh.. happy for them, my dearest team mAtes.. it's goOd we are still clOse as a TEAM~ =D i gOt 5th, it's goOd enough i sUppOsed.. tat's my dAy~ lUcky i wEnt to schoOl todAy, lOads of hw n new lessOn tAught.. yEp, ytd i hAVe a very weiRd dReam.. anywAy, its jUs a drEam shall nOt tink too mUch.. happy everyOne~

fAv. stUffs.. lOads of memOries, pi li pa la wU~ 

hAis..

todAy was a relax dAy fOr me~ nO study prOgramme, haha.. i need some rest, tried after all those wOrks n hEats ytd.. my leg didnt crAmp, lUcky.. wEnt to hElp mrs gOh in sOme stuffs then wEnt straight hOme le.. wAs happy to reCeive sARAh's mSg tellin me she gOt 1st fOr the lOng Jump~ her cOnfidence is bAck, hOpefully her determination is cOmin her wAy~ Jiayou, be there fOr u always =D.. after nOein her fOr one yr pLus, i started to find her a good friend, thankss fOr ur encOuragemeNt all tis while.. it's reAlly helps.. bUt wz sms me tellin they lOse their bAsketbAll mAtch whIch is importAnt to them n shOuldnt hAve lOst.. *sigh.. he sOund sAd n nO mOrale.. till night he still sOund e sAme, he tell me lOsin this mAtch hAVe a big impaCt on him.. i tRied to chEer him up, hOpe its hElp ba.. (",)pi li pa la wU~ i nv expeCt him to be tAT SAd.. bUt jUs hOpe he gEt over it asap, tis is life n we jUs gOt to accept it.. i leARn to accept reAlity le, after havin sO mUch regrets~ hAis, rEmind me of my vOlleybAll n x-cOuntry again le.. bUt i leArn to fang kAi le, in life we need to gO through everything.. be it happy or sAd one.. tAt's my dAy bA~ pray fOr wz fRi's mAtch.. all e best~ *dO ur best n hAve nO regrEts..

Argh~ cUtess!! =D 

sPorts dAy heAts agAin..

-_-" my leg is like crampin n today have to rUn e 3000m finAl.. lOls, nO choice bA.. stUdyin e whOle dAy, damn tired.. vOn n huiting decided nOt to gO at e lAst mins, haha.. lUcky rAchel was nOt there if nOt. . . they r like explAinin to me why they dUn wAn gO~ sCare i will angry etC, haha bUt i didnt la.. i mySelf also vEry reluctAnt to go =P.. its like dAmn tired after a whOle dAy of studyin.. rAChel wEnt straight after schoOl to YJc le, haha she is so excited bOut her rAce.. eNd up i wEn there alOne, thankss to vOn n Huiting -_-".. rAchel hAVe beEn sayin it fOr the whOle dAy, she wAn to get 2nd fOr three years.. when i rEach Yjc i sAw wz, so coincidentAl.. didnt expect n he sms me tellin me mUs qualify, Haha.. thankss, bUt it's e fiNal le.. afterall i m hAppy by tat.. rAChel did get 2nd again~ cOngrats!! i tink she is hAppy cAuse she hOped chewseAh cAn cOme n see her rUn.. indeed chewsEah was there~ fOr my rACe, i get wat i wAn~ hAppy bUt i nOe my standard drOpped lAst yr my timin wAs 14plUs, nOw is 15.09.. but i tink my preservance is there.. my fRiend is dAmn sAd, she is e oNe tat i always tRain together with.. she didnt get bAck her determination which is very important to her.. i hOped she dun give up~ like wat she told me dUrin nAtional x-cOuntry it's nOt e eNd, we still gOt nationAl tracks.. sArah, hOpe u get over tis n mOved on.. we will always be there fOr each other rite? sO get over it soOn n find bAck ur determinatiOn.. i m sUre u cAn~ JiayOu! sAbrina gOt 2nd ytd, tink she cAn get e individUal chAMp~ all e bEst.. wEnt tO bbAll cOUrt to find tat idiotic kOkping tat break his prOmise twice.. '-'haha, msg with wz todAy.. tellin me tat he wOn a bball match ytd.. sOrry, i didnt wishes u lUcks.. so gOody lUcks fOr tml, i wAit fOr ur results.. =) tC everyOne.. mIss vOlleyball'-'.. i m stARtin to have weird weird feelin nOw, omg(><,)..

preciOus memories~ nv fOrget all Of em.. 

moOdy mOndAy~

mOndAy cOmes again~ i dUn reAlly like mOndAy, veRy lAzy On mOndAy.. bUt nO slAckin anymOre, my O level chinese is cOmin my wAy.. sTudy~ gOt to be a lOng dAY fOr me, nOw is like everydAy havin stUdy progrAmme tO prepaRe us fOr mid-yeAR etc.. i find it tirin to study fOr sUch lOng hOurs.. from mOrnin all e wAy to 4 or 5 pm, will die.. by tat time brAin stp fUnctionin liao =p.. haha, lUcky todAy study prOgramme is Chinese.. cAN Say is mY fAv. sUb.. i wAnt to scOre in tis sUbJect, rEaLLy~ pRays fOr me mAn, stArt stUdyin fOr cOmpO liao.. e sTudy programme end around 3.30-4pm, was infOrmed tat my x-cOuntry is cANCEl.. *relieved~ cAn rest, i m rEally very tired.. yep, todAy dUrin pe we did nAFa e 2.4km rUn befOre tis wAs to trAil fOr the 4*100m rUn.. haha, we gOt the best recOrds.. my 2.4km recOrds drOpped le, 12.11.. bAd~ lAst yr 10.1, haha see e big big differences.. nAHz, Afterall its an A =).. bUt my ankle hUrts~ -_-"gOt finAl fOr 3000m tML some mOre.. tink i mUs wEar e ankle thing to tighten it le.. tAt's my dAy.. best of lUcks to everyOne..

tOng hUa lyrics.. nIcess sOng~ 

kBoxin..

-_-" wOke up eArly todAy, to gO to ang mO kio sing kbOx.. silly? lOls, long time nv gO out wit liChing le.. we went tO ang mO kio kbOx, wit Jiayi n lishAn.. was dAmn sleepy cAuse slp less thAn 6 hOurs.. my obAka~ wAt a weekeNd mAn, nOt enought slp fOr two constAnt dAys.. O.O tis is me, haha.. my dAy? tired tat's for sure.. enjOy singin, lala~ was fUn to mix with lishAn tis siAo chao bO.. gettin better wit her, find her some one i cAN tAlk my things to w/o feARin she will sAy out.. a very trustworthy persOn, understandin toO.. =D gOt lOads to cAtch up wit licHing too, we tAlk bOut vOlleybAll etc.. she understand me i shOuld sAy.. haha, i still remember "257".. ahBu[2] me[5] n liching[7].. n cOme to JiaYi~ tis gAl always cOMe n tell me she today very hAppy.. -_-" to her, everydAy is a hAPpy dAy ba.. greAt~ wEnt to mOs after tat to dO hw, hARd to concentrate wit tat sleepin brAin.. bUt good enought, i finish my english.. the nKf shOw todAy, touchin.. at e beginnin thought it may nOt reach it aims cAuse e dOnation amOunt is mOvin slOw.. bUt at lAst they reAch their aims!! yeAp~ happy fOr the needy.. tAt's my dAy~ nOt lookin fOrward to tml a tiring dAy tat's y.. argh~ i hATe stUdy prOgramme!!

at kbOx~ fUn!! 

yeap~ sAt again!!

today need to dO cip, haha neArly fOrget.. thankss fOr huiting's sms, it's a reminder to me mAn.. wAke up at 11 plus, Omg(><,) it is dAmn early.. some more weekeNd should let me slp lOnger, argh~ obaka is damn obvious now due to e lAck of sleep.. wEnt to meet them at canberra sec, was given 200 leaflet to give at ps.. -_-" cAuse we cAme late, was mUch place left fOr us.. yep, the cip is to give leaflet fOr the nkf.. issit it greAt? cAn help those nkf.. i reAlly admire their cOurage~ bUt thankss to bEn's idEa we went tO those sembawAng areas n pUt e leaflets into ppl's letterbOx.. hais, but guessed wat i sAw? a stacks of leaflets inside a rUbbish bin.. wat e hell? those mei liang xin de rens, they r jus nOt dOin their pArt.. wEnt to bishan after tat, tinkin to bUy present fOr suling.. her birthday is fallin on tis 23th.. bUt didnt find things tat sUit her, perhaps all of us nOe she have different taste.. was afraid wat we tink she will like, she may not.. so best is aSk her out on tAt dAy to pick her presEnt.. =D, wEnt to talk at lOng jOhn bOut "interestin stUffs".. we create a lOads of jOke abOut those "stuffs", haha reAlly crAps.. went straight to trAinins after tat, i enjOys today trAinin.. haha, mayb cAuse i cAn train my defend? i did play setter bUt jus at e beginnin after tat i play defense all e way le.. haha, mei mei cAme to trAInin today.. it was like "finAlly".. but she didnt play la, afterall it is already quite late le then she cOme.. Our alumni jersey is Out le, fUll white asics de lo.. rEally lookin forwArd to under 19 =p, goin to hAVe loads of fUn i supposed.. anyway heard nyjc is winin 2 match le, cOngrats.. i will prAy fOr them to beAt all their opponents.. get champ!!~ tat's my dAy, tired bUt i enjOy it.. *i like my new green hAIR BaNd, haha..

fairy tales dUn exist??  

mEaningfUl~

Wind

Becoz I like a gal called leaf.

Becoz she's so dependent on tree so I hv 2 be a gust wind.

A wind tt will blow her away.

When I 1st met her, it was 1 mth after I transfer 2 the new school.

I saw a petite person looking at my seniors & me playing soccer.

During ECA time, she will always be sitting there.

Be it alone or wif her friends looking at him.

When he talks with gals there's jealousy in her eyes.

When he looked at her,there's a smile in her eyes.

Looking at her became my habit.

Juz like she likes 2 look at him.

1 day, she didn't appear.

I felt something a missed.

I can't explain the feeling except it's a kind of uneasiness.

The senior was also not there as well. I went 2 their classroom, hid outside and saw my senior scolding her.

Tears were in her eyes while he left.

The nxt day, I saw her at her usual place, looking at him. I walked over and smiled 2 her.

Took out a note & gave 2 her.

She was surprised.

She looked at me, smiled & accept the note.

The nxt day, she appeared & pass me a note and left.

Leaf's heart is too heavy and wind couldn't blow her away.

It's not tt leaf heart is too heavy.

It becoz leaf nv want 2 leave tree.

I replied her note wif this statement and slowly she started 2 talk 2 me & accept my presents & phone calls.

I know tt the person she loves is not me.

But I hv this perseverance tt 1 day I will make her like me.

Within 4 mths, I hv declared my love 4 her no <20 times.

Every time, she will divert away from the topic.

But I never give up. If I decide I want her 2 be mine, I will definitely use all means 2 win her over.

I can't remember how many times I hv declared my love 2 her.

Although I know she will try 2 divert but I still bear a small ray of hope.

Hoping tt she will agree 2 be my girlfriend.

I didn't hear any reply from her over the phone.

I asked "what r u doing?How come u didn't wan 2 reply?"

She said, "I'm nodding my head".

"Ah?" I couldn't believe my ears.

"I'm nodding my head" She replied loudly.

I hang up the phone, quickly changed and took a taxi and rush 2 her place & press her door bell.

During the moment when she opens the door.

I hugged her tightly.

Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay..

sMb`vOlleybAll 2004.. b bOys n gAls.. *cheers.. 

sMb vOlleybAll alwAys.. my memories always.. =)) 

intErestin~

During Pre-U days, I like 2 collect leaves.

Why?

Becoz I felt tt 4 a leaf 2 leave the tree she has been relying on 4 so long it takes a lot of courage.

During the 3 years of Pre-U I was on very close terms with a guy.

Not BGR kind but as buddy kind.

But when he had his 1st girlfriend, I learnt a feeling I nv should hv learnt - Jealousy.

The sourness in the heart can't be describe by using a lemon.

It's like 100 rotten sour lemon.

Sourness 2 the extreme limit.

They were only 2gether 4 2 mths.

When they broke up, I hide my strong sense of happiness.

But after a mth, he got 2gether wif another gal.

I like him & I know he like me.

But why won't he pursue me? Since he love me why he doesn't want 2 make the 1st move?

Whenever he had a new girlfriend, my heart would hurt.

Time after time, my heart was hurt.

I begin 2 suspect tt this is a one sided love.

If he don't like he, why does he treat me so well.

It's beyond what u will normally do 4 a friend.

Liking a person is very heart wrenching thing.

I can know his likes, his habits.

But his feelings towards me I can nv figure out.

You can't expect me a gal 2 ask him right?

Despite tt, I still want 2 be by his side.

Care 4 him, accompany him, love him.

Hoping tt 1 fine day, he will come & love me.

It's like waiting 4 his phone call every night, wanting him 2 send me sms.

I know tt no matter how busy he is, he will make time 4 me.

Becoz of this, I waited 4 him.

The 3 years were the hardest 2 go through & I really want 2 give up.

Sometimes, I wonder should I continue waiting.

The pain and hurt, the dilemma accompany me 4 3 years.

Till the end of my 3rd year, a 2nd year junior begins 2 go after me.

Everyday he pursuit me relentlessly.

From outright rejection 2 a point in time when I felt tt I'm willing 2 let him hv a small footing in my heart.

He's like a warm & gentle wind, trying 2 blow a leaf away from the tree.

In the end, I realized tt I didn't want 2 give this wind a small footing in my heart.

I know this wind will bring this badly battered leave far away & better land.

Finally I left tree, but the tree only smile & didn't ask me 2 stay.

Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay.

the stOry behind..

The reason I'm called tree is becoz I'm good at painting trees.

Overtime I start 2 use a tree on the right corner as a trademark 4 all my watercolors painting.

I hv dated 5 gals when I was in Pre-U.

There's 1 gal whom I love alot but nv dare 2 go after her.

She doesn't hv a pretty face, doesn't hv a good figure, doesn't have outstanding charm.

She is just a very ordinary gal.

I like her.

I really like her.

Like her innocent, like her frankness. Like her cuteness, like her intelligence and her fragility.

Reason 4 not going after her is becoz I felt somebody so ordinary like her is not a good match 4 me.

I'm also afraid tt after we are 2gether all the good feelings will vanish.

I'm also afraid other's gossips will hurt her.

I felt tt if she's my gal, she will be mine ultimately & I don't hv 2 give up everything just 4 her.

The last reason, made her accompany me 4 3 years.

She watch me chase after gals, and I hv make her heart cry 4 3 years.

She wants 2 be a good actress and I'm a very demanding director.

When I kissed my 2nd girlfriend, she bumped into us.

She was embarrassed but smile & say "Go on!" before running off.

The next day, her eyes was swollen like a walnut.

I purposely didn't want 2 think abt what causes her 2 cry but laugh at her the whole day.

When everybody go back home, she was alone crying in the classroom.

She didn't know tt I returned from soccer training 2 get something.

I watch her cry 4 an hour or so.

My 4th girlfriend didn't like her.

There was once when both of them quarreled.

I know tt based on her character she's not the type tt will start off the quarrel.

But I still sided with my girlfriend.
I shouted at her and her eyes was filled shocked.

I didn't care abt her feelings and walked off with my girlfriend.

The nxt day, she still laugh & joke with me like ntg has ever happened.

I know tt she's very hurt but she didn't know tt my heart ache is as bad as hers.

When I broke up with my 5th girlfriend, I asked her out.

After going out 4 a day, I told her tt I hv something 2 tell her.

She told me tt coincidentally, she has something 2 tell me too.

I told her about my break up and she told me about her getting 2gether.

I know whose the guy.

He has been going after her 4 quite a while.

A very cute guy full of energy, lively and interesting.

His pursuit 4 her has been the talk of the school.

I can't show her my heartache but could only smile & congratulate her.

When I reach home, the heart ache is so strong tt I can't stand it.

It's like a heavy weighted stone on my chest.

I couldn't breath.

Wanted 2 shout but can't.

Tears rolled down & I broke down & cry.

How many times have I seen her cry 4 the man tt doesn't acknowledge her presence too.

During graduation, I read a sms in my hp.

It was send 10 days ago when I broke down and cry.

I haven't read it since then.

It says "Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay".

sTudy dAy mAn~

okok, as u see e title.. i hAve been studyin all e wAy till 2 plus in e afternOon.. gO home n rEst a while cOMe out cOntinue tO do le, gOt lOads of homewOrks mAn.. sAdistic mE~ till 8 plus bA, went to e bbAll cOurt to relAc abit.. bOred afterall as i cANt play wit the lEg of mine.. keep cramped if nOt ankle pAin.. sAw him-wz tOday, was kinda stranger mayb cAuse lOng time nv see him bA.. he's still e sAme, still e sAme old him bA.. haha, i dUnno~ see lOads of my friend which i nv see fOr qUite some time too.. haha, went hOme be4 9pm tO see e lAst pArt fOr the Nkf shOw.. tOuchin mAn, y cAnt sOme one treasure anOther befOre he or she is gOne.. one will Only regret when the persOn nv retUrns? i will treasUre every single one of them i tink.. =)always~ nOw i will stOp tinkin in e nEgative side le, life is preciOus mUs live it to e fUllest.. althought it's hArd to stop thinkin at times bUt i will still tRy.. tis past fEw week sEen to be a "dream" to me.. i Ought to wAke up, yep reAlly wAke up! althought i m hAppy bUt tis will only be a shOrt period of times.. reAlly mUs believe in fAte? i dUnno, dUn wan to nOE anymOre.. i cAn Only sAy "thAnks for everything".. tAlk to wz at msn, he havin bbAll mATch next week all e bEst~ =D was happy at least we still did communicate.. when i told him i gO his scHool last tUe he was kinda y nv tell him.. hA hA, he wan come see.. =P thankss lO~ nv tAlk to [him] e whole dAy neither do we sms or tAlk in msn.. haha, i nOe happy mOment dUn last.. nAHz, nvm.. tC all~

wAt a dAy. . .

hAis, nv gO schoOl todAy.. teAcher also call me dUn cOme, so stAy at hOme n rEst lO.. wAs nOt a gOod rEst, dUnno where renovatiOn dAmn nOisy the whOle mOrnin lo.. wAKe up At ArOund 11plUs, it's sO early n rARe fOr tis lAzy bUm like me.. lEg still crAmpin, ankle hUrt + wHole bOdy archin.. -_-"hAis, still thinkin bOut ytd sTuffs, i mUs reAlly get over it sOon.. i must! ! thankss fOr all e encOuragement everyOne gives mE~ i appreciate~ wEnt wit mUm to mAlaysia, to sHan xIn bA~ bUt will still tink of it.. till 7 pluS then cOme bAck.. chAt in msn wit him, he did sAy "dun sAd La" but e effect is nOt e sAme le.. but is goOd enOught le, xIe xIe ni.. nOw i mUs mAke tis cleAr to myself, he is jUs a Friend/Brother tAt is goOd to me.. nOthing else~ yEp, wAs weird y he wAnt meet me after sChool.. acTually i agree le, we deCide to gO cAtch a mOvie.. eNd up he tell me he cAllin hUijun etc.. i dUn feel like meEtin le, nO other reAson juS tat i tink bOth of us need tO keep a distance.. tO prevEnt misunderstAndin "Again".. also be fRank i sCare i will rEally fAll fOr him~ i dUn wAn this to hAPPEn, nEver!.. he aSk cAn cOntrOl de meH? i wAs actually in Loss of wOrds, eNd up jus sAy dUn let tis hAPPEn Jiu cAn le.. whEn lAst time he sAY to mAKe bReakfAst fOr me i m sUrprised le.. pErhaps Jus becOs i dUn tink a gUy will mAKe bReakfAst fOr a person tat is Jus so simple tO him.. tink i tink too mUch.. bUt i m really sCare one dAy i will fAll fOr him, n i nOE tis shouldn't hAppen~ i reAlly felt he is treatin mE toO goOd le.. hAis.. sO startin frOm tOday, we will keep a distAnce ba.. I wishes u all e bEst.. till nOw i m still feelin abit sAd over ytd sTuffs + i nOt lOnger cARE bOut e individUal best le.. i neEd my cOnfident bAck, i will dEpend on mysElf frOm tis mOment onwArds.. *yEp, i will stay On e right tRack.. alwAys~* thANkss fOr everything~

ilu? nice bLog.. 

nAtionAl x-cOuntRy 2005..

a sAd dAy fOr Jing.. todAy dismissed at 12o'clOck to reSt for the rACe etc, -_-" it start at 4pm or even later.. wAs given the fUll nEw jersEy tOday, quite like it ba.. blUe asics tOp n bOttom.. rEach there arOund 1.30pm, given chocolAte to eAt n lAst briefin then Jiu wEnt tO rest zZz.. till 3.30pm like tAT, all went dOwn to wArm up le.. i m very sCare lO, my tEacher wAnted me to bReak my persOnal bEst-17.07.. i toO hOpin to brEak tAt peAk of mIne.. as sOon as e rAce stARt all Of us rUn quite fAst untill i lOst my balance n sprain my ankle.. i did nOt fAll bUt wAs sprAin then bAck to bAlance again, the gAls all rUshin pAst n the rOad is nOt stAble.. at fiRst i thought it wAs alright then when i cOntinue rUn, the pAin stARt tO come le.. it's like mY lEft lEg pUllin my bAck.. hAis, i wAs nOt determine enOught.. i mind toO mUch bOut e aNkle, haO Hou hUi~ if i continue to be preservance i will have dOne muCh better.. i tink i m with in 100 rUnners, bUt last yr i m in tOp 50.. reAlly sAd, if my mind sEt is better.. rUn wit nO wOrries n dO my best despite e pAin, will it be better? when teAcher sAy she is prOud of me, i becOme mOre. . . i rEn very lOng le, finAlly i cRied out.. Of cAuse wit nO sOund, my tEacher sAy she admire me sOme mOre.. cAuse she sAy wit inJury at the beginnin u R still abLe to finish e rAce it's goOd enOugh.. i rEally hOpe i will dO better then tAt~ bUt it's over le.. all Of them tOld me it's nOt e eNd, still gOt jUly de trAck n fiEld.. i wAs thinkin whether tO tAke pArt cAUse of O level.. tink me need tIme to get over it asap, i need my confident bAck, my determinAtion to be strOnger n my preservanCe!! hAIs, upOn reAchin hOme fOund that gOt 9 missed cAll n lOads of messAges~ all of them very wOrried fOr me.. i dUnno how they nOe, bUt thankss~ one by one cAlled, i answEr n tRy to tAlk.. when tAlk to kokPing tat time i jIu rEn bU liao le, i cRied silently.. tink he nOe bA.. then keep replyin mSg to all my fRiend, they keen encOurage me nOt to be sAD etc.. mY fOrm teACher also.. thankss to them~ i prOmised to get over it sOon.. i will tRy bA.. i cAlled him also, when i tOld him i lOse.. he rePlied "sO sAd".. i felt even sAd, he dUn seen tO understAnd.. =( hAis, then his sUrroundin keep hAvin sOunds.. acTually i wAs hOpin him to tell me "dUn sAd lA".. bUt he never.. nvm ba, my attitude tAT time also nOT very goOd.. hAis, tis yr i m hAvin lOads of regrEt~ first vOlleybAll then x-cOuntry.. bUt tis is Life bA, cAn Jus get Over n cOntinue.. nOw i m cOntinue wIt regRets.. reAl sAd, i dUn wAn tiNk le.. cAn i dEpend on sOme one to sHAre my sAdness, perhaps in tis waY I will be mUcH better~ i m rEally tirEd~ ='(

Ultraman~  

spOrt dAys hEat

tOday qUite an happenin dAy? dUnno, hAha.. wAs stUdyin wHole dAy, sOme mOre gOt after sChool prOgramme-cOmbined sCience.. -_-"totally tirEd plus nOt feelin well, the gAls sTuffs la.. pissed me Off.. mUst try to slp early le, nOwadays always sLeep after 2am.. (><,)cAn u image my obAka? plus tat irritatin pimples hA hA.. tOday wAs e heAts n finAl fOr 400m.. leAve sTudy prOgramme at 3.40pm like tat tO rUsh to yJc.. hOpin nOt to see him, will be very wEird bA.. givin up is better i felt, mUch relieved nOw.. "leaf departure is wiNd pursue or becOs the tree didn't ask her to stAy?" nicE quOte i tink =D.. wAs stunned hOw cOme sO mAny ppl jOin 400m todAy, bOut 4 heats to be held.. meAnin 20-30plus gAls.. mine is e first heats n -_-" the six lane.. the further lane is mine le, 6 runner only ma.. i hAte tat lAne, bIg big circle big big rOund!! haha, bUt i cOmpleted wit the beSt recOrd.. all the finAlist wAs reluctant tO rUn again, all leg crAmp i tink incLudin mine.. bUt gOt no chOice, wAs given to reSt fOr 45mins or so.. haha, tAlk on phOne wit brO.. it help me cAlm dOwn, *thAnkss.. alsO dunno y, bUt i hAppy lO.. wAs still feElin abit "jin zhAng" when the rAce stArtin bUt like wAt bRo sAy "sHu Jiu sHU la.." then i become better.. abit like hare cARe the outcOme le lO, jUs dO my bEst wit nO wOrries.. indeed tis is mUch mUch better, i gOt the chAmp fOr 400m.. tinkin bAck last yr tis is e event i gOt secOnd so tis yr i gOt it bAck =D.. Tml is 13042005 le, importAnt dAy perhAps.. my nATional rAce~ gOtta dO my best n Of cAUse i Jus hOpe to break my persOnal bEst jIU hAo le.. nOt cOnfident in bein in tOp 20, it's reAlly hArd.. n i nOe my limits, will still dO my beSt.. Lucks fOr me bA(nn').. tAt's bOut all bA, tired after all those lATe night sleEp n ccAs.. nOw tinkin Of my hOmewOrk n studies.. hANg on~ *addicted to "i wanna be with yOu"* nIcess!!

bAd dAy mAyb?

TodAy, nths speciAl hAppen Jus tAt tml is e sOme Of e spOrts dAy heAts+finAl-[400m] le.. sAme as lAst yr will be hEld at yJc.. YJc rEmind me Of Last yR spOrts dAy'-', goOd or bAd?.. eh, participAte in qUIte alOts of events 3000m, 400m, 100m, shOrt pUt n 4*100m relAy.. -_-" my class la, keep askin me to jOin tis jOin tAt.. hOpe cAn help my clAss win sOmething bA, haha.. lUcky nv Join lOng/high jUmp, bUt ChEl will sUre aSk me tO go e hEats de.. Like lAst yr, i jOin 5 individUal n twO relAy -_-" all thankss to rachel.. tis yr slightly different cAuse is clAss vs clAss, nO more hOuse le.. haha, 5A3 JiayOu!! aimin fOr the individUal bEst tis yr also.. bUt gOt to be mOre fOcus on wed de nAtional.. nO matter wat's e OutcOme, will pUt in mY best effOrts =D.. cOme to tAlk bOut my dAy nOt reAlly goOd ba, stOmach crAMps~ prAy tAt tML will nOt have crAmp if nOt it will sUrely affect my rAce.. mUst nOt!~ anOther bAD news, i gOt a BIG pimple on my fOreheAd.. argh~ i hAte tAt.. sO ugly!! pLus, my chinese orAl is nOt well dOne i tink.. sAd~ i always aim fOr my chinese.. bUt tis time rOund i nOe i'm nOt gOin to dO well fOr my orAl.. will affect my overall mArks ='(.. jus cAn an wEi mysElf tis is nOt o level? tMl will nOe e resUlt le, firSt period sOme mOre.. bUt i m prepAREd lA, let it be i cAnt chAnged it Also.. sO tOdAy is qUite a bAd dAy fOr me~ hOpin better fOr tml, haha~ tAt all.. -hOpin tAt i cAn reALly UnderstANd everything.. bUt i reAlly dUnno~-

bOrin sUndAy~

bOred!~ usually i gOt no plAn fOr sundAy, tAt's wat mAke it a bOrin dAy.. wEnt in msn to chAt all dAy untill e nKf shOw stArt.. tOuchin~ those pAtient reAlly heng keliAn.. bUt lUcky they gOt enOugh cAlls le.. =D prAy n bLess thOse pAtients.. afterall todAy a simple n bOrin dAy i expeCted~ tAt's bOut all.. hAha, i m sUrprised n hAppy tOday.. m i gettin intO trOuble(nn').. hOpe nOt, stAy hAppy bA~ "chi xin jue dui" reAlly a nIcess sOng, so is "oVer".. haha..

nIcess..  

fRiends~ pReciOus!! 

sAturdAy cOme agAin~

tOday wEnt to trAinins as promised.. eh, play as setteR again'-'.. dUn reAlly like tAt pOsition.. nAhz bUt it's ok ba.. i will prefer tO trAin as a libEro.. mAyb when i wAs a libero in sEc 3 i didnt dO well tAt's y i wAn tO play agAin~ hOpin to play better n dOin my bEst.. tOday cOach cAll me tO sTudy hArd sO nExt yr cAn gO nyjC help him pLay settEr cAuse tIs yr their sEtter all leAvin le.. then nO moRe setter, bUt i wAs abIt hAlf-hEarted nOt mUch cOnfident tAt i cAn mAke it to a Jc? sOme mOre my engliSh is nOt tAt goOd.. fOr Jc their gEneral pAper need tO be goOd~ hOwever will still dO my beSt fOr the O level.. hOpe so cAn gO in? -_-" cHinese pAper is cOmin le.. mUs reAlly scOre fOr tis sUbject.. nO mOre slAckin!! =) ahBu aNd Lishan JiayOu too, we gO in together.. cOme to tAlk bOut e tRainins, fUn afterall.. settin de fEelin os still there, bUt sAbrinA n kAini nv cOme =(.. wE are dRiftin aPart frOm "dOu dOu" le.. haha, nvm wE gOt renA n rebeccA tO play wit uS.. if nOt, nOT enOught pPl le.. cOme tO nOe rEna will cOme tO nyJc if cAn, cOach sUre hAppy de bA.. =) we play fOur sEt, wOn 4 set toO.. nYjc is imprOvin lOads man, hOpe they cAn get cHamp tis yr fOr their A`division nATionAl.. best oF lUck maN~ mY dAy, bOred~

over? 

nATionAl finAl-8th apRil..

my dAy today is alright.. nOw have e habit to blOg everydAy le, dUnno y.. my chemistRy tEst todAy wAs. . . dUnno will pAss ma? tat's my weakest subject of all -_-".. gOtta bUck up le.. todAy, aCtually gOt maths de after sChool prOgramme.. lUcky we all requested to cancel~ hAis, but startin frOm next week everydAy will be haviN study prOgamme le.. will be like 2 hRs fOr every sUbject(><,).. siAn hAlf, like tAt wan study lOads of hOUrs le.. gOt to hang On there i sUpposed, fAster get into o level mOod is bEtter!! wEnt to wAtch natiOnal finals right after schOol.. hAha, we rUsh in time to wAtch the full mAtch + wArm up.. eh, firSt time see st. hilAs.. befOre tat hAve heard aLots of their pOsitive cOmments, todAy finAl see them le n the "yO yo"~ they are reAlly good~ me n ahbU like their bOndin, have team spirits, team wOrk n mOst importantly their unity.. like very clOse as brOthers mOre like jus team maTes.. =D i like tAt!! wAs feelin weiRd y one Of the ang mO kiO center nV play? sOme more sAw him sitted behind Us? it wAs a nIces mAtch afterall =).. st.hilas wOn 3-1.. i tink as lOng as did their best le have nO regrets~ i felt tat he play quite well although his first wArm up bAll is a flOater =x.. bTw, gOt to nOe that he is rEally flexibLe.. nO.10 dEfend reAlly nicess some more he very ping too.. lOls, throughtout e mAtch ahBu is like sUpportin st. hilas-_-".. then we was like "quarrelin".. nAhz, jUs fOr fUn nia.. we didn't stAy to wAtch the b`gAls mAtch.. did intend to bUt end up when they was warmin up.. we felt very negAtive(-), was sad of cause.. sOme mOre befOre tat, we are sitted in bEtween phs n JurOng.. we dUn feel gOod at all, regrets perhAps? hAis, dUnno la jUs dU have a goOd feelin.. whEn sAbRina gO ask mingwEi y we didnt play?! mingwEi jus aNswer in the wAy "whO cAll ur lOst to ngeE ann?!".. me n ahbu was behind him n Of cause we heard la-_-".. already sO "xin suAn" le, he like tat sAy. . . feel like cRyin Out~ bUt i didn't.. bUt ahBu nearly le, till nOw ahBu still blAMe herself n was very gUilty.. hAis, i hOpe tis should nOt go On~ cHeer up bA everyOne, we still gOt "sMb alumni".. after tat, went hOme n sTay at hOme all dAy le.. nO plAn as mOst of e gAls gO clubbin, i decide nOt to go~ =p sorry ahbU, haVe fUn~ -_-" stAy at hOMe dAmn bOred + the gastric problem.. lOOkin fOrwards to trAinins~ seein e fiNals mOtivated mOst of us to tRaIn better.. sO let's wOrk hArd~ =D JiayOu!! nOw the nAtional rOund finish le, reAlly wOnderin nOw'-'.. over?

ultraman agAin~ 

my dAy..

-_-" todAy gOt punish for not bringin pE shirt for e life run.. lOls, i reAlly fOrget.. lUcky ahbU also nv bRings.. hAha, gOt team wOrk sia =P.. arGh~ my gastric pAin is bAck.. i hAte tat man!! cannot concentrate on pOa lesson cAuse really nOt feelin well.. bUt still need tO rUn at recEss as a punishment.. tOday, vbAll gAls "stUdy dAy" again.. haha, lOve the times we spent together rEally.. in cOurt or nOt, there will surely be fUn n lOads of lAughter.. haha, reAlly fUn pAls tO be with.. kae, nOw the fOur of us decide to gO for the selection le.. hOpe everything will be fine.. after tat went to play bAsketbAll at 404.. wasn't really enjoyin cAuse weArin unifOrm, dun feel comfortable.. n i deprOve lOads i gUess sO ba.. lOls, bUt now vOlleyball is the mOst important le ba.. =P sAw ah piAo they all today n play wit them.. fUn after all, he always will give that fAce.. buAy tAhan, so i always call him "sAi".. lOls, but tat's e wAy we cOmmunicate.. uSed tO it le(><,).. haha, jOkin afterall.. tMl dAba+viOlents gAls mAyb gOin cLubbin.. haha, i dUn tink i m gOin.. dUnno y, i dUn reAlly tink we shOuld gO at tis Age.. n i sOrt of scare tO gO, hAve nO goOd impressiOn on "clubbin" stUffs ba.. see hOw tMl bA.. haha, sUre gOin to see e nATional finAl.. i sUpportin angmOkio =p.. nAhz, jus hOpe tat they will create "histOry" agAin? the "black hOrse" so cAll.. =)JiayOu!! tAt's my dAy.. *anyway i tink i have given up le.. tis time rOund i m quite sUre.. perhaps in e first place we are not suitable n i have hOld on lOng enough.. it's reAlly e time.. i hOpe him all e beSt..*

sUddenly fOund tis lOng lOst memories of mine.. shOuld i be bAck? hAis.. 

tRainins dAy!!

wAt a dAy tOday.. haPpy =)) gOt x-country trainin n go to e bOys vbAll trainin tOday.. i enjOy my dAy after all.. x-cOuntry nearly sprained my ankle.. lucky me~ run 3.8km today, tink i m used to it le.. always run lOng lOng distance n 3.8km is e shortest we have le.. -_-" use 9.15min to finish a 1.9km.. tink i got to jiayOu le.. next wEd!! yep, after tat go to e bOys vball trainin, but i nv bring my vball stuffs(><,).. "ling si" decide to go so jus go n play+train lo.. some of our old bOys come bAck n got 2 outsiders.. all veRy friendly n i enjoyed the gAme throughout.. =D will be gOin to their trainins again if cAn.. -_-" i sOrt of losin e tOuch for vbAll le, gOtta bUck up bA~ lUcky near the eNd of e trAinin my tOuch is better le.. reAlly nOt used to it cAuse used to touch vball every two dAys, and nOw it's like once in a week.. sO mAyb will deprove abit at leAst ba.. No gYm wOrk sOme mOre.. bUt e pAssiOn remain =P.. tMl gotta be a fRee frOm ccAs daY fOr me.. yEap, caN rEst~ dunno y i seEn tO sCare x-cOuntry trAinin rEcently, or perhaps i dislike it bA.. gOin to stepped dOwn once i finish e nATional rAce, dun tink i will be tRainin fOr e jUne nATional trAcks.. my pAssiOn fOr rUnnin is reAlly gOne~ gOt to admit it la.. bTw, me n ahbU already decided tO gO fOr e selectiOn.. cAuse neither one of us wAn tO give up on vBall.. tink lishan n sAbrina will be gOin too.. hOpe we can dO it ba.. tRyin to train my first bAll n defends bAck le.. will wOrk hArd towards it ba =)).. hAis, heard frOm jUniors tAt cOach mayb nOt teachin sMb anymOre liao ='(.. cAuse sChoOl dUn allowed cOach to trAin at nights, bUt if cOach will to sTAy he cAn only trAin us at night.. -_-" tRainin hAve always be in night from the very beginnin-5 yrs agO.. n jUs becOs new principal new scedules? hOpe cOach will cOntinue to teach "sMb".. tAt's my dAy, a gReat oNe!! =D..

like e atmosphere of the pictUre.. stArs everywhere.. cAn i be grAnt a wish?  

study~ study n stuDy!!

=)free from ccAs dAy.. hAis but tml havin time trAil again le -_-".. got to get throught it.. yEp, today study together wit lishAn, ahBu, sAbrina n Jiayi.. i Love tat~ at least in tis wAy we remAin in cOntact.. tis is a mOre effective wAy of stUdyin i tink so.. from 3.30pm study all e wAy to around 7.30 man.. lOls, was dAmn tired.. mAyb becOs ytd nv sleep well some more tOday e amOunt of homewOrks.. (nn')dAmn lOads.. lUcky mAnage tO finish all except Chemistry.. lOls, jus cannot uNderstAnd it at all n it aways pull my overall gRade dOwn.. gOt tO wOrk hArder fOr tAt le i suPposed? k, will try ba.. eh, yTd 2am plUs then slp nOw my eye bAg -_-" . . . o level chinese is cOmin my wAy le, felt e stress cOmin up.. hOpe tO do well bA, JiayOu.. same tO all my fRiend =D.. i reAlly need time to sOrt out my feelin nOw.. issit a cRush? hAiyo~ let it be.. tiRed~ tAt's my dAy e 5th.. =)) **btw, i got my vbAll b`gAl photo tAken lAst yr when we won in yOuth cUp le.. plus when i sec 1 jus jOin vball de photo.. hAppy!! lOls, but i reAlly cHange alOt bA? everyone in vBall shOuld nOe =p.. nOw havin vbAll gatherin in msn, fun =D.. lOve u gals..

stRess..

anOther dAy withOut gOod food-_-".. gOin tO stArve agAin? reAlly hungry tOday.. viOlents gAls budget sAvin wAsn't rEally useful i supposed? they eAt bread with hAm but i only eAt bread.. they eat cereals wit milk n i only eAt cereals.. sOrry but i nOe i m vEry fUssy bOut fOod =p.. i swear i m gOin reCess tml, dEsire fOr a goOd mEal at leAst!! tOday have x-Country trAinin.. the trainins is mUch better le, at least we really got "Train".. =)tAt's gReat!! ya, nOt time trAil agAin but we did rUn 3.8km lo.. next week nAtional x-cOuntry stArt liao 13th apRil, hAis wAsn't very cOnfident.. bUt~ i will dO my beSt i pRomise =D.. hOpe cAn reach my aims ba.. JiayOu!! tis fRi is e nAtional finAl liao~ gOin to see, lOokin fOrward it mAn.. i rEally gOt a "cRush" on him? oh my gOd(><,).. i m reAlly wOnderin nOw.. argh~ bUt no big dEal.. all e beSt tO all my fRiend =).. i miss my vBall mUch'-'..

ultraman!! e bEst!! 

wAt a dAy..

wEnt to orchard wit ahbU to buy cARds n some lil stuffs for my team mates.. jus a little gift n some wOrds we wanted to sAy tO them.. i reAlly missed tRainin, tOday went baCk however the atmosphere is sO weiRd.. hAis, we nOe cOach is disappointed wit us n also c`gAls.. we oUrselves have lOads of regrets i admit.. bUt it's all over le, can only sAy we r reAlly sOrry.. "dUi bU qi".. frOm wat cOach sAy tOday, really felt so bAd n guilty.. y didn't we wOrk harder? hais, my c gals also not dOin well.. yes, they did get tO tOp 4 but they lOse to phs in semi finAl so they cAn only be in 3rd or 4th.. y PHS again? cOach is damn angry i supposed cAuse he dOte tis bAtch of c`gAls alOt but they lOst to PHS again~ plus jUrong lOse to cedar, cOach sAid tis is e first time his c`gAls group nv gEt intO the finAl.. frOm tis nOe tat cOach is rEally disappointe ba? -_-" hOpe MY C`Gals win jUrong n get 3rd at least ba? goOd lucks to ur =D, jiayOu.. tOday write post card to all my ex-teamates.. missed them real mUch, e trainin, e little quarrel, basically everything~ really need to start gettin used to not trainin on tue, thurs liao.. but i still have to wOrk hard for the natiOnal x-cOuntry man~ i dOubt i have e mOod.. hAi, i will still try ba.. nOw i m thinkin whether shOuld i gO for the selection fOr cOmbined sChool.. when heard from wat huijUn sAy, wAs interested cAuse dUn wan to give uP on vbAll.. n hOpe to acheive a gReater height of vBall.. goin for the selection is a better alternative.. bUt cOach todAy nv ever tAlk to me about it, jus to lishAn n ahbU.. it's like my 5 yrs cOach dun ever lOok up on me n should i really go for a try? the combined cOach really gan de qi wO? =( hAi, was a great drOp of my moRal n no confidence for e selection lo.. =( so should i? i m thinkin.. today sms wit him, was actually happy he sms me =p.. i make thing clear le, thankss for tellin me all tis.. at least i noe le, now i clearly noe where i stand.. was ok u dunno wat u feel for me, was disappointed but i need to get over it soon.. real soon.. i believe we really can be only be friend liao.. i decided to continue my vbAll le.. my promise to u can nv be fuifill liao, cause i need to give up since u like another one le.. nOe there is nO point wAitin.. tat's my dAy..

April fOol 2005..

wAt a bOrin dAy -_-".. but today no sCh~ yeAp! hAis, mus go tO school fOr speech dAy.. wAs lAzy la, bUt happy afterall.. after tat, gO home lo.. =( dun feel like playin bball, still tinkin bOut vBall.. need sOme time to get over it bA.. tOday he mSg me, askin bOut e mAtch.. was sUrprised ba cause ytd sms him, he only reply once.. was actually disappointed by his hark cAre attitude.. cAnt he jus give me a little support? i simply hAte tat!! i already decided to give up ytd le, i noe we cant really be baCk.. so i will try to give up, i will try.. cOme to tink of it, today is april fOol.. the dAy me n him actually started to become better lAst yr.. bUt it's nO longer special le.. i m determined tis time.. only vball n jus vball.. tat's all for today'-'..

me n ahbU agAin.. still as beSt~ =) 

Our lAst mAtch, a mEmorable dAte..

Today is our match vs pHs, lOokin fOrward it.. we chAnged our formation against them, in a sense ahbu will be e first to serve no mAtter wat.. =) hOpe everyone do well, cause tis is a real important match.. if lOse, percentage of out of tOp 4 is high.. hAis, we lOse 2-0.. First sEt 14-25, second set 15-25.. all cRied, is tis fAted? y we lOse to ngee ann.. ahbU was damn sad today cause she nOt on form.. gAl, u gOtta cheer up kae.. lishan n kAini pLayed well esp lisHan.. it's really a waste, tis yr sMb b`gAl can sAy is quite goOd.. we wOn cEdar but they are able to get in y cAnt we? reAlly felt wasted, hais.. see lishan, kaini n ahbu cried today.. i felt super duper sAd ='(.. out of e main 6, 5 of us is last yr le.. hais, it's like our last match for our secondary life after all those yr in vball.. really very she bu de, i missed the lOads Of trainin.. my cOach, my teAcher n most importantly my team mates with me all tis while.. n *ahbU*, she is really my best team mate ever.. i m thinkin from seC 1 till nOw, reAlly great havin u as my team mate!! i dOubt i will forget u in my whOle Life.. the support u give me, the listenin ear u lent me n pei he me all tis while.. all remain in my mind.. n i promise we will still remain as team mate after we go pOly Or Jc.. lEt's wOrk hArd for tis aims.. i will not forget [lishan, kAini n sAb].. ur are all my greatest team mates fOreva.. the memories ur give me is all so unforgetable.. be it a goOd one or bAd one.. i will never fOrget.. urs endless support n encouragement have brought me here for who i m.. really thankss.. ='( wO hAo she bU de ni men~ never forget the trainings we have together, how we build up our team spirits n team wOrks.. the little quarrels tat bRought us ever cLoser n mOre united.. sincerely, ur r the best!! ni men ye bu yao wang ji mAyi!! 31th of mAtch will always reamin as a memorable dAte in my heart.. but prOmise to gO back to trainings every sAt kae.. Our "sEmbawAng alumni".. nv fOrget tis, all my team mates.. all e best in everything yOur dO.. =) tHankss fOr everything..

mE n her.. =))

this is me n ahBu.. my bestie team mates cUm fRen!! nV fOrget yA =).. 

mAtch agAinst sT. hilAs..

tOday was the mAtch against st. hilas.. was a mus win match, some more mus win 2-0.. was not at all scared, not becoz they are weak.. jus tat nOw win or lose doesn't matter.. it's nOt tat we are givin up hOpe, jus tat nOw we wAn tO go n "ping" with nO xin li zhang ai.. =)) wAs hAppy tat we won afterall 2-0.. first set 21-25, secOnd mATch 13-25.. ya, they did have some obviously mUch taller then us de.. their nO. 5 n nO.3.. BUt skills is mOre important bA? afterall i find nO.5 quite good.. the setter tOday keep fAng qUi, lUcky we are prepared =D.. rUsh to wAtch b`bOys sEmi fiNal with hUiJun, LishAn n ahBu.. ang mO kio vs shUqun, wHOever win will eNter the finALs.. yeap~ ang mO kio wOn 3-0.. hAppy fOr them, tis time rOund they mAke a histOry i shOuld sAy? first time aNg mO kio eNter finAl fOr nOrth zOne n nAtionals.. =)cOngrats.. after tAt have to rUsh bAck for trAinin.. lOls, like whOle dAy rUshin here n there? tired dAy~ wOrkin hArd fOr thurs mATCh.. sMb JiayOu!!

the memories remain in my mind -always-