Saturday, July 31, 2010

I am gotta miss you my friend!

I think I am not ready yet, it's not enough, give me more will & courage.

I read what he wrote and I actually feel sad.
this time round, he didn't wrote anything bad.
he just make me feel what he feel, and I don't know if I am right about how he is feeling.

I am tired of guessing what he feel.

can't believe a tone like that make me relates so much, or am I just thinking too much?

enough of that,
wait till I have enough courage and all.
I won't even talk to him in msn, not to say SMS cause I have deleted his no.
& no, I don't remember his no.

shall be back to my happy weekend,
the only days that I could rest.

it's esther's farewell today,
another netballer leaving :( yes, another friend that I can talk to left.

farewell is never easy but I am sure we will be in contact :)
all the beat LI ZHEN!
thanks for adding so much fun into my mundane working days ! yes so gotta MISS YOU! :)

that's about all for now,
hopefully my bus reaches marina soon!

Memory is a way of holding on to the things you love, the things you are, the things you never want to lose.

hearts all those memories.

xoxo.

Thursday, July 29, 2010

my blog is my pillar.

if you could see, I am trying to blog daily :)
never easy with such a schedule of mine, but I decide to find time on this.

nothing major,
but doing things that make yourself feel better why not?
haven't you know I am damn dependent on this blog of mine :)

at least blog is not a human,
so being dependent on it seem perfectly fine for me.
*wondering if people out there have such "dependency"?!

& I did my quiz test today at work.
yes, my branch require us to be train now&then, you will be amazed.

& doing test like such means additional task to be add on,
the additional money paid can't be comparable with the additional task seriously,
so much we have to dealt with.

so now, I really need a getaway badly.
I am tired of being so tired at the end of every single day and again friday just come before you could even realized.

regardless, I am still trying hard to strike a balance.

at times like that, I wished someone was there to share my loads&all that's coming but for now, I am not gotta let myself fall into thinking of such.

i, myself is more than enough.

Some people are not meant for you to love, but meant for you to learn.

goodnight you all, I can't believe that I am still waiting for bus 61 at 1020pm outside school. :(
xoxo.

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

West Coast CC 3on3.

thanks to amy's friend,
here's the 3on3 photos.

& yes, my team's name is again our initial.


JA3.
i like this photo :)

photo(s) before the match;





photo(s) during the match;







photo(s) after the match;





a joyful event! :)
& a short and sweet post for now!

P.S. i have update all my ARCHIVE already :) the holiday post are available for viewing already! :)

"Never give your whole self to someone who's not willing to do the same."

xoxo.

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

it's a past tense for all.

the more i heard of you, the more it set me thinking.

you once told me not to be affected by human perception and I did.
I trust what I see, what I feel and the way you are with me.

i ignore everyone's opinions of you, even my closest bff(s).
sometime I was affected by what people say, but despite it all, I will always maintain what we had and hold on dearly to that.

& now everything we had seem gone, I started thinking, in a more rationale & clear state.

started thinking if I am with the real you.
your words & action never tally and honestly, I am afraid to be close with such.

I tried so hard to believe, you have to trust this.

but honestly no longer.

the constant bad things I heard about you and what had happened to us make everything a past now.

I only looked back and smile,
but at the same time, I never know if all that was once a virtual dream.

that's how I felt, no longer sad & no longer think of it that often.


Quote: Things pass, and the best we can do is to let them really go away.

xoxo.

Monday, July 26, 2010

when weekend turn into weekday.

i wanted to do a proper post during the weekend but my phone doesn't sync the photo into my laptop :(

apart from that, a major issue was i am a lil too tired for a proper post. *lazy bum i am, i know.
so now weekend has ended, in a swift :(

i will just do a quick one here :)

party away my Friday's night @ Zouk,
but music really sucks there on friday's night.
you can go if you like trance, otherwise never.

so we cross over to PHUTURE,
& both the music & crowd was good :)

in all, i enjoyed.
*cant believe we actually turn thing around :)

photo taken when actually i am lobster-red :X



*make sure i take photo with Jo the next time round :)

manage to wake up on Saturday to meet with Nora :)
the supposed movie turned out to be us playing "The impossible test",
it was an iphone application and it so fun :) *go download!

so irritating that movie always sold out on weekend -.-
now i am so craving for a proper movie!
*Inception, Despicable Me, The Crazies - anyone?!


regardless,
i still enjoyed my day with babe :D
*we shall really meet up soon, for movie at least :)


& yesterday, i have a 3on3 match at WestCoast CC.



glad to say that our team gotten 3rd ! :)
yayness to 200bucks!

so now, i am so BURNT. :(
*the sun was seriously HOTTEST for the whole of yesterday!

*come back for my full updates on this 3on3 :) with more photos!

til then,
shall end with this :)



sometime, i really think that me doing sport and me not doing sport look different.
what you think?

& i decided that i will end with quote from TLS at the end of my every post. :)

"My plan is to forgive and forget; forgive myself for being stupid, and forget you ever existed."


xoxo.

Friday, July 23, 2010

Netballuxion 2010.

as the title has says,
i am uploading the rest of the photo(s) for the event here.
*including the unglam one that i untag myself in facebook HAHA :p


Event: Netballuxion 2010.
a yearly event, street netball @ velocity :)


two team send out by company :)


JAZER,
its our initials.

SEMI-FINALS on the second day.


up against AVP1 for the semi,
score 7-8.
as you could see, they are really tall :)

VS TEH PENG in 3/4th.
they are tall and really good.


the 2team.


the girl is taller than joshua :x


this guy is the tallest,
their average height confirm win my tallest :X


*UNGLAM 1 - i know it look funny,
i am trying to intercept HAHA.


*UNGALM 2 - i am trying so hard, cause they are really too tall.
& yes, i am so short yet inside the attacking zone. :(


as i remembered, the ball went in :P


he went in too lar,
super accurate one.

that's about all i have gotten from fb,
like i said, a good experience in all.

trust me, netball is not easy to be played well.
their rules differs from basketball,
you will have a hard time mastering their "footing, stepping, dragging, obstruction and a lot more."

glad to have Hidayah to teach us with all those :)

come to think of it,
that's our second 4th position gotten after a year with the team. :)
more to come and perhaps better placing if possible :)

& updating after 4days later is because i am undergoing training these days,
overloaded with the new thing taught, real challenge.
but yes, just have to push myself more on it.

and the busy days really make it better, for now.

just that, how about my weekends and night?

"dont make someone your choice, when you are only their option."

xoxo.

Monday, July 19, 2010

for i can do it better just by myself.

as promised, photo(s) up!

NETBALLUXION 2010.


Team LEMOCUS :)


Team Jazer :)


the wonderful people :)

when you wait too long for your turn to play,
this is what will happen . . .


playing with banana :P

anyway, just to say that i am so proud of the team & the hard work that all put in to play :) we fought hard and that's all that matters :)
sometime, the result doesn't really matter, the process does.

i enjoyed myself to the fullest and now looking forward to upcoming PSIG'2010.

the only sad thing is i cant attend training these days anymore since class is on every thursday :(

regardless,
lets all continue the team work :)

not forgetting my impromptu meet up for late night movie + supper thereafter.


the people(s) !


my friend who never grow old. :P
*honestly think this photo is nice, i seldom praise so if you see this better be honourable hor!



:)

P.S. For commission is the most important now, you better focus :)
i will free myself in DECEMBER! :)


that's about all.

P.S. Hongkong has been confirmed! 12nov-16nov! :D

& its been the 8days,
counting on.

xoxo.

Sunday, July 18, 2010

weekend, in a blink.

my weekend has been good :)

Netballuxion basically took my whole weekend, and we got 4th.
felt like a good achievement & learn alot,
thanks for wonderful team and all.

school yesterday before the game.

afterwhich,
late night supper and a impromptu movie at 2am.
predator was good.
rating:4/5

billybomber's rootbeer is good too :)

short and sweet post,
photo's up later.

all's well for now. :)

P.S. sis have gave her final say! HONGKONG :) *pls tweet me on nice place to go !

xoxo.

Saturday, July 17, 2010

a must, a necessity.

yes, the pain will go away right?
as much as i dislike what i am going through,
i have to go through this vicious cycle.

sometime, instead of questioning myself whether i am capable of getting over.
what i did was, i tell myself i must.
its not a choice but a necessity now.

sucks to the max cause you have so much thing on hand,
and you have to stay focus and all.

this is really how i am feeling.

& many a times,
i never abide to what i set for myself,
which even me myself feel like giving myself up.

talking about disappointment,
i am really thankful for friends who was still willing to be there and listen to me telling them the same old thing, yet never want to give up on me.

it mean alot. *hugs for that to those friends, you know who you are :)

one good thing now is, my days passes so fast that before i realize, its already over.

& yes, school started.
the routine of 7-10pm,
not having proper dinner & reaching home near 11pm.

regardless, i am doing well for all.

those aside,
my Jakarta trip has been confirmed 21staug - 23thaug.
the much needed trip, even if traveling alone, i am fine.

just want to get out of what i am now and not to worry,
i have Mary with me in her hometown :)
& that's enough.

besides,
am planning for HongKong in coming November with family.
we need a holiday.

still looking into it,
have to get sis final say.

thats all for now.

wish me lucks for NETBALLUXION later :)

a song to share before i end.


愛不單行

找不到人说心里的寂寞
找不到人都怕变得沉默
找不到命中注定在一起的人以后
很多人都笑我
一个人过生活

#爱
只有简单笔画
却比想象复杂
很安定爱变化
我爱过几个人
也被爱过几遍
却还是没能将幸福留下


是不可输的吗
为何我还相信
她不是不欣赏
我在等一个人
在等我的永恒
告诉我爱不单行别害怕

用不完身边泛滥的自由
还是怕孤单是一种诅咒
羡慕我能飞的人为何在天黑以后
还是宁愿回到
爱情那个枷锁

#


是不可输的吗
为何我还相信
她不是不欣赏
我在等一个人
在等我的永恒
告诉我爱不单行别害怕

我在等一个人
在等我的 永恒
告诉我爱不单行相信她

xoxo.

continue doing it.

i start wondering. .

are you so really capable of bringing me down, making me feel affected and getting so sad over what you say.

is this the purpose of you getting close and doing all this.

so,
i am not worthy,
i am not good enough,
and everything bad.


FML.

just continue making the heart numb.

i am going to take all's thats coming.

cause when you reaches the worse,
you know that it will get better from there.

its been 1,2,3,4,5 and going on.

prays.

xoxo.

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

心急人上 by Cookies.




#又不是80年代 寂寞芳心的愛 
還穿起新裝 安守家中 等候來電 等他愛
禮拜6為何難放膽走得開
何解又怕又期待 坐立不安的愛
男生這東西 忽東忽西 他突然又 很可愛
要對付頑童們到底 要幾多愛

6歲就渴望愛情 有沒有害 10分之喜歡 等不等於愛
沒有睡掛住某君 甚麼可遮眼袋 6尺4吋半 又要怎麼去愛
為何男孩情願拋低女朋友 陪住老友通宵打機不戀愛
為何男孩平日的討厭習慣 承諾過我會戒 
到後來 說句〔抱歉!〕沒有得改

Repeat #

若發夢 背叛愛人 有沒有暗示
是否是可揀他 只因他得意
渡假後40吋腰 是否可推脂
被騙了兩次 又算否羞恥
為何男孩凡事都倚靠伴侶 連食晏去那裏都不出主意
為何男孩全部都粗魯大意 連換了四五百個造型 至發覺我換了新衣

if happy song make one happy, i will listen to it everyday.

xoxo.

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

. . .

cant find a right word to blog.

if you understand how it feels,
you know that its more of disappointment, numb and moving on as a whole.

nothing to do with being sad,
cause you know that being sad is already not enough.

how do i bring myself across?

do you know how it feels?

xoxo.

Monday, July 12, 2010

someone.

I wouldnt want such:

Someone who was there for everyone else, to be there for me, very much appreciate he give his time to others rather than making me feel insignificant to be compare against.

Someone who knew what i am sensitive to, but yet go ahead and do so, you know it doesn't feel good.

Someone who never make an effort to prove that i mean something, make me feel really disappointed & not being appreciated.

Someone who told me i am different, yet the action speak otherwise.

Someone who treat what we had like nothing, when in fact, it mean something to me, something that i tried really hard to hold on to.

Someone who didn't want to be in a proper status but yet make me feel that he doesn't want to let go of this.

Someone who didn't even says about his feeling after so long.

Someone who mean so much to me, yet treat my feeling like thrash.

Someone who make me put down my pride and yet fall from skyhigh.

Someone who hug me to sleep, knowing its just for that moment or the day itself.

Someone who i no longer know who he is, when he is so different in&out.

Someone who make me try so hard now, to be a stronger and independent girl.

I would want such:

Someone who is there for me 24/7 and just me only.

Someone who give me surprise every now and then, making me feel pampered.

Someone who wont hesitate telling me about himself and his feeling.

Someone who put in efforts to make things work, and appreciate me for all i did.

Someone who is protective and gave me secure & assurance when i really needed those.

Someone who tried to avoid doing thing i am sensitive to, and place me as his objective.

Someone who doesn't mess around with my common friend and be involved in triangle.

Someone who treat what we had really preciously.

Someone who is willing to put down his pride, like i will do, when there's a need.

Someone who hug/kiss me cause he meant it, and knowing that wont be the last.

Someone who make me cry and laugh all at the same time.

Someone who is willing to hold on to what we have and do our best to hold on to it.

a random thoughts to wrote them out,
i don't know how otherwise expressive i can but at least it always organize my thoughts better in this way.

I met a someone who make me realize a lot,
someone who mean something &
definitely someone that i will miss.


but its all gotta be "PAST" soon.

"imy"

xoxo.

Sunday, July 11, 2010

remaining of my twentytwo.

my twentytwo birthday's remaining part. . .

my polyfriend bring me to this chinese restaurant LAOBEIJING @ novena.

its kind of funny to travel to NOVENA even on my off day,
but appreciate his thoughts of seraching online for this.


i know this totally look like the olden day "wu lin mi ji". =x


my friend told me this is the well-known xiao long bao there.
BUT sadly, your truly doesnt eat those.
i tried one that day, think its worth :)


zha jiao mian.

& here's my pick. . .



hot and spicy soup + fried rice.
their fried rice serving is so big that i think you can jolly share between 2person.

thats because i dont eat the others,
like dumpling and all.

dont say that i am picky please,
i just dont dare to eat alot of food.

FYI: i dont eat burgers too, any kind of burgers. :)


my fav: Caramel ice brended, without cream. (left)

ended my off day - 5th July @ starbuck before a walk home.

P.S. thanks for the dinner and talk :)

next day, backed at office and saw this :)


thanks esther! :)

met up with Nora after work for dinner at OrchardCentral,
we wanted to go on the highest level cause they have nice scenary BUT,
the food choice was limited.



settled for Indonesian food at level 7,
didnt bother showing the food cause its not worth for the price =x

shopped and i will really said that "GSS is sucha bitch",
make me spend like so much :(
go FOREVER 21 ! many nice clothes there, brought 2 dress! =x

a nice chat with her each and everything we meet,
thanks babe for talking so much sense to me :)

thats about all for my twentytwo,
many meetup with the loves, dinner treats and present :)


thanks tracy, jessica, evelyn, crystal & madeline ! :)

lets end with my photos with my dearest tco :)





P.S. shuxin and yunyi, all the best in UOL :)

more updates the next time round. :)

xoxo.

Monday, July 05, 2010

my twentytwo.

a detailed post for my birthday celebration(s). :)

the actual day i am actually working,
so right after that went to have a dinner at cityhall with my beloved taibai(s).

:) got my iphone that day too ! :)
pls update my new number ok! *PM me if you didnt got my smses :)

beside, the night beofore my sis come back with this . . .


yes, your truly's only favourite brand :)


Burberry tote! *loves!

P.S. i paid for myself but sis was really nice to brought it from oversea for me with her lil subsidy. :) *xoxo.

after which, night time i headed out to . . .


ECLIPSE :)
watched the movie i have been anticipating for like zillion years.
*enjoyed the company more than the movie though :)

have to say this time round no "WOW" factor,
& i have a feeling that JACOB is getting more popular than EDWARD.
regardless, i am on EDWARD's side! :P

the next day, 3rd July, spent it with my two bestie.

shopped around ION and got myself a pull&bear dress.
*been spending alot this month :( CONTROL!

GSS is just so irresistable!
because of that i have to start saving by eating grass already!

settled dinner @ AOBA.

and if you know me well enough,
no eating unless we take picture first LOLS :x




me & bu :)
*PLS BRING ME TO SKYPARK! haha!


my shy friend - RAYMOND! lols.


our pick - spicy miso ramen.
rating: 2.5/5


after that, we wanted to watch movie but slots are always full on weekend :(
tsk WHY AH?

alternative: head to level 9 of cineleisure and get a room @ E2MAX.
*its worth it cause nebo card member get a 1 for 1 hour for the booking of room.

1 hour booking of room = $8 (fit 5 peoples)
rental of dvds = $6 (1 title)
drink inclusive = $1 per head

total only adds up to $17.
comparable to movie, its so much worth right?!
with your own space & all !


the room.


the busy people haha.


UNINVITED - the title we picked :)
rating: 3/5

the day ended with . .


mini supper at BEST FRIES FOREVER,
its located at Cineleisure B1. :)


their variety.


our picky - Friendly fire, Curry favour and OLE OLE.

perfers the curry favour the most!
it cost $3.90 for the size we got :)

note: thanks for the treat two of my bestie! :)
we will meet up more often and all alright! appreciated! *loves!


4th July - headed out with my work friend(s) :)
before that went Fareast with Evelyn to shop again.

brought a dress, a jumper and a wedges.
okay i know, control. HAHA!

sometime, girls just want to pamper themselves really ! :X

we had our dinner at CHIJMES.
the nice place i always see and heard of but never went in before.

my first time there,
its really a nice/romantic place,
ambience was great.


this is angie's,
look too green! :P


evelyn :)


jessica :)


cybelle HAHA.


tracy & angie :)

we all settled for fish&chips at HOG'S BREATH CAFE.
rating: 2.5/5
*the portion was big except for angie's veggie LOLS.

now lets share with you the nice ambience,
it feel very "EUROPE".





love this picture especially!
*look like castle totally!


day ended with us chatting along the river :)
*love hear-to-heart chats with the girls.
its not easy to find people you can talk, relates and feel comfortable with.


a preview on SKYPARK haha!

note: thanks all for the treats at CHIJMES!
we shall chill more there, yes?!

5th July - have lunch with MARY @ breeks!



she is so busy that we are only meeting now!
haha, YOUNG WORKING ADULT!
*this one must praise, but be sure to rest enough okay!
if you see this, *YOUR HEAD WILL BE FINE LAR! :P



me&mary!
*pandon me for my tired first, period kills :(



us with the food! :D



soup + maincourse + icecream = $8.


*its good to be student HAHA.
rating: 3/5 recommended!

for now, i am going on yet another dinner. :)
AND i am meeting nora babe tomorrow :)

thats about all for my twentytwo celebration.
enjoyed all of your accompany, treats and efforts! :D

before i end,


someone bake me a cake for my birthday, a big one :)
*much appreciated.

thats all!
thanks all for making me feel so loved!

P.S. not forgetting those who sms, fb, call me! :)

xoxo.