lets start from here.

hopefully everything will be more smooth sailing from now onwards,
when i says everything, it's more or less refer to "study, work & that complicated relationship."

& relationship doesnt mean being together,
its just complicated.

never like getting into such cause i dont treat relationship lightly,
dont even like having flings or whatever partner that i deem it un-neccessary.
and for the truth that, i never make used of people.

many a times, i questioned myself and come to a conclusion.
a conclusion that "i dont want him in my life anymore", i even told him this.

but things will repeat, i forgive, we met, we talk, the usual times together but after sometimes he started his "normal acts" all over again that he knew i dislike, he knew i will be affected but obviously dont care.

all those have make me sad/disappointed/hurt *you can name it all.
then the cycle repeat when he explains and i stupidly forgive.

one thing i never understand is, he is not willing to commit but he doesnt want to let go completely. *this i never gonna understand.

regardless, he is really making me sick/tired of all this.
my heart is pretty much numb now due to all he have put me thru for the past months.

easy say than done, i have to start the count going and all.
*prays hard for this to be over.

& this will be the last time i will be mentioning about this,
remember i never want this to be a part that blurr my priority,
it shouldnt even be in the list.

remember NEW BEGINNING, NEW ME. :)
so yes, no more mentioning!

anyway, after resting for 2days, i pretty much get over the fact that i failed.
didnt want to waste another day feeling sad and all already.
*i am still guilty for the urgent VL i gotten last fri :(

so i am heading out tomorrow as promised, to SENTOSA,
prolly seeing my buddy there!
let tomorrow be a good day ok!

& did i mention my company have some re-structure,
this time round i am affect,
it's gonna be a challenge but it will do just fine.

at least, me and peifen is moving to the same big room together! :)
i am so gonna miss the small quiet room i have been for the past 1 year plus.

now that i set my priority right,
:) lets pray for smooth sailing for everything ok!

alright,
very wordy this days, i know.


boredness after saturday's school.


learn to love myself more.

goodnight you all,
enjoy your weekend !

"Relationship's advice: Let go when you're hurting too much. Give up when love isn't enough. Move on when things aren't like before."

xoxo.