lets start from here.

hopefully everything will be more smooth sailing from now onwards,
when i says everything, it's more or less refer to "study, work & that complicated relationship."

& relationship doesnt mean being together,
its just complicated.

never like getting into such cause i dont treat relationship lightly,
dont even like having flings or whatever partner that i deem it un-neccessary.
and for the truth that, i never make used of people.

many a times, i questioned myself and come to a conclusion.
a conclusion that "i dont want him in my life anymore", i even told him this.

but things will repeat, i forgive, we met, we talk, the usual times together but after sometimes he started his "normal acts" all over again that he knew i dislike, he knew i will be affected but obviously dont care.

all those have make me sad/disappointed/hurt *you can name it all.
then the cycle repeat when he explains and i stupidly forgive.

one thing i never understand is, he is not willing to commit but he doesnt want to let go completely. *this i never gonna understand.

regardless, he is really making me sick/tired of all this.
my heart is pretty much numb now due to all he have put me thru for the past months.

easy say than done, i have to start the count going and all.
*prays hard for this to be over.

& this will be the last time i will be mentioning about this,
remember i never want this to be a part that blurr my priority,
it shouldnt even be in the list.

remember NEW BEGINNING, NEW ME. :)
so yes, no more mentioning!

anyway, after resting for 2days, i pretty much get over the fact that i failed.
didnt want to waste another day feeling sad and all already.
*i am still guilty for the urgent VL i gotten last fri :(

so i am heading out tomorrow as promised, to SENTOSA,
prolly seeing my buddy there!
let tomorrow be a good day ok!

& did i mention my company have some re-structure,
this time round i am affect,
it's gonna be a challenge but it will do just fine.

at least, me and peifen is moving to the same big room together! :)
i am so gonna miss the small quiet room i have been for the past 1 year plus.

now that i set my priority right,
:) lets pray for smooth sailing for everything ok!

alright,
very wordy this days, i know.


boredness after saturday's school.


learn to love myself more.

goodnight you all,
enjoy your weekend !

"Relationship's advice: Let go when you're hurting too much. Give up when love isn't enough. Move on when things aren't like before."

xoxo.

that setback that make my priority clear.

hmm, if you have already know.
my last sem results was very disappointing, it's prolly the first time I feel so stupid with myself.
but after much thinking & advices, I decided to continue with my studies, and with that I have to use one more year to clear my modules.

that's prolly one of the major setback I have,
yes life have been pretty well cause I always give my best in things I do.
very much a prefectionist you can say, that I never deny.
that's how it hit even more, but I am gotta accept this setback, telling myself I am just not good enough. :(

but I will work even harder now, this serve as a good lesson that I have too many thing to focus on and lost my priority.

for now and the two years down,
my priority will solely be my study,
nothing else got to matter, as long as I got that paper.

that's about all,
the feeling now will serve as a constant remainder.
I will accept this setback.

*thanks for supportive from all, encouragement and all along this 2days.

from now onwards,
I will picked myself up. :)

"There are 3 things life brings us: Tears gets wipe away. A smile fades away. Memories last a lifetime."

xoxo.

the new beginning, the new me :)

dear all,
bet you know i am back already! :)
*appreciate those who welcome me back with smses and all :)

in all, i had fun and enjoyed.
so now, who's say JAKARTA is boring?!

First, they have got Themepark; way bigger than Escape and Universal Studio.

Second, they have Wholesale Center which is equivalent to BKK Platinum Mall.
*thou BKK still cheaper comparable but definitely can find some good buy(s) there.

Third, they have Shopping Mall that have those brand like Forever21, Zara, Oakley and etc.
*thats if you are willing to pay for those brand :)

Lastly, they have NICE FOOD! *love PANCIOUS!

A proper post this weekend or the next, hopefully able to finish before JESSICA go there :)
*i am thinking to do 2post on my trips.

so guys, try JAKARTA OUT!
*thanks MARY for the great hospitality if you are reading this post :)


& also thanks BFF for sending me off too. *touched MAX.

alright that's about all,
need to finish my work before Busiest September, October & November come.

really foresee a crazy 3mths ahead with;
Amazing Race 2 *endless recce trips,
Annual department Party,
Sep's event,
PSIG Netball,
PSIG Volleyball,
Meeting(s),
Birthday party,
and all other whats not.

i will do just fine :) everything will be fine.

"In life you’re going to be left out, talked about, lied to, & used.
But you have to decide who’s worth your tears and who’s not."

been used too much the past few months, so its really enough.
its a NEW BEGINNING, NEW ME. :)

xoxo.

appreciative!

Love: "Why do you exist when I'm already here?"
Friendship: "I'm here to bring smiles when you bring tears."

thanks for wonderful people,
i have learned to be appreciative. :)

& i am coming back tomorrow! :)

xoxo.

so tired of all this.

2nd scheduled post :)

seriously, i wouldn't have any updates now cause its written "in-advance".

& i thought i should share with your what have interest me recently.
if you followed my twitter, you should have guessed it "online-shopping"~~

totally hooked on to this store : MDS Collections.

i cant believe i just spent a 100bucks there within an hour !
yes, i am a very impulsive buyer. :(
but 100bucks for 5 dresses sounds really reasonable right!

so hereby i am sharing this with you guys~
disclaimer: DON'T BLAME ME IF YOU CANT RESIST AH!


WE LOVE SALE, dont we?! :)

alright, hope your weekend is fulfilling too!

"In any relationship, there's always a point of getting tired, especially when that person is unintentionally making you feel worthless."

typing this now, and thinking back, i am so tired of us and everything else, so insignificant.

xoxo.

leaving on a jetplane, alone.

by the time you guys read this,
i will prolly be waiting in the airport by myself for my flight @ 1045.
*faster send me regards, if you can still catch me!

yes, more scheduled post coming up even when i am not in spore!
so check back this space! :)

so, blame it on the last mins changes,
both of my bestie cant be there to send me off :(
we even plan for a breakfast before i fly off.

:( now, nothing.

thanks godness, the least i could do is to re-schedule my flight.
imagine CANCELING THE WHOLE TRIP, lucky no.
anyway, will be back on monday's late night, reaching 0025.

so lets hope i can buy a lot of barang barang back ok! :)

& NOW,


miss me !

it's gotta be a good 4d3n trip,
to forget everything and come back with a mindset of starting everything afresh.

i promise.

Don’t make promises you can’t keep, and don’t say things you don’t mean because in the end, those things mean everything.

xoxo.

tomorrow.

"Sad Truth: If someone can’t stop doing things that u don’t want them to do, it only means that they love those things more than they love u."

am leaving for Jakarta early tomorrow,
will be back on Monday's night,
hope all's well.

it shall be a treat to rest and a promise that when i come back,
everything will be a new beginning.

to,want and need to start afresh.

*i am still quite angry that JETSTAR can just cancel their flight so last min -.-

that's about all,
prolly a better post tonight!

"It's never the tears that measure the pain sometimes it's the smile we fake."

xoxo.

never once.

Have you ever put yourself in such before?

"There's a difference between letting go and pretending you've forgotten."

i did, so many times.

wanted to write about watching YOG LIVE, but decided that i will wait for hidayah's and esther's photo(s), so come back if you are interested. :)

& let me know if you want to watch Canoe/Kayak's final for YOG on Sunday, 22nd Aug, 3-6pm. i have only got one tic and since i am going oversea this weekend, its best that i give it away.

the tickets are already sold out ~~ and if you are going, you have to be watching alone :( but i have only got one.
*PM me if you want.


the not-so-boring-saturday with dearest evelyn :)

here's the nice drawing ~



love the gingerbreadman i am stepping on!
rephrase: LOVE ALL GINGERBREADMAN.

am still trying to get the min-full-body gingerbreadman from USS, hopefully i can get :)

to friend who have been asking & concerning, i am really ok :)
everyone have a down period and i know mine have been a lil too draggy, still thanks for the concern and all. *much appreciated !

P.S. YUN! can you please go arrange BKK!

honestly, its always glad to know someone cared. :)

i will get myself back.
for now, i have no time to bother for things that upset me.
& i pretty much get the fact that "people don't change no matter how much i want to believe, like leopard doesn't change it spot."

the bottom line is "you never once treasure me".

"There are things we don’t want to happen, but have to accept.
And people we don’t want to lose, but have to let go."

xoxo.

Esther's farewell !

really dislike the fact that weekend is a pathetic 2days,
as comparable to the 5 long weekday BOO.

regardless, had my fair share of rest & fun for my weekend.

Saturday was spent working on a morning, school thereafter and movie + dinner with a friend before returning back and prepare for my sunday's outing ~~

Sunday was spent watching YOG rowing with netballers, dinner @ cityhall and sleeping the evening away ~~

will update photos on those soon! :)

as of now, i have just gotten Esther's farewell photo(s).
*love her camera lots!

Venue: Manhanttan @ Marina Square


all busy eating, i remembered i was seriously hungry that day.



*the two different mode, which is NICER?!


their turn to get "DREAMY",
i find aloy's face super classic :X


me, esther & hidayah.
:( they have both left ~


the netballers :) xoxo!

head to STARBUCK before taking NR2 home . .




*starbucks photo-session~

now i am hooked to taking NR2,
that's only if you have the right accompany :)
so glad that hidayah is a north-er too!

that's about all for the farewell,
am really glad to have know this brunch of friends. :)

P.S. ALL THE BEST LIZHEN, WE WILL KEEP IN CONTACT :D

'Sometimes, you forgive people simply because you still want them in your life.'

its just like pressing a RESET button, going through the same vicious cycle.

speechless to myself.

xoxo.

busybee week!

a short yet busy week i had, boo.

here's just a quick update,
the 2nd event for my recreational team has been a SUCCESS :)

felt our efforts all worth,
even when we have to sacrifice our sleep and all,
with the end result, its all's well :)

perhaps more sharing on the NDP photos soon :)

that aside,
i also had "WII-TRIATHLON" this week.

it means playing sport using WII,
we had table tennis, basketball, bowling & fencing.

& glad to say your truly gotten a 4th :)
while angie gotten a 2nd ! *yayness to voucher :X

& with my first time playing WII,
i pretty much got to admit that i am attached to it :)
*feel like buying one already :X

perhaps i should try to 'convince' sis that i will slim down playing it.
sometime, i really felt her urge for me to slim down,
more than i want too. HAH!


& now, she also want to slim down when she is never fat -.-

this photo was super RARE, i cannot imagine my sis running.
& happily yaocai, just accompany her.

this is from LIZHEN~~


yesyes, so gotta miss her.

so let's end with . . .



me, me, me :p

"Of all goodbyes, the kind that hurt the most was the one your ears never heard of, yet your heart knew it's already been said."

P.S. i am being an idiot, but once a month sounds reasonable?

have a nice weekend you'all!

xoxo.

I can't, yet.

i should have blog a proper post but for this weekend,
it's totally emo nemo.

like I always mention,
putting a tough front in the public is already good enough,
so I just gotta be myself at my blog.

a long weekend let me rest enough and think more.
especially so when you ain't feeling well, you wished the person was there for you.

hate mens cramp, totally.

I shall update when I feel better in&out.

I saw those photos and ask if I can elicit, answer is no. I can't, yet.
just why can't you be real.

In the end, people become the people they promised they would never be. And they do things they swore they would never do.

xoxo.

at time like this, so much.

sometime, no matter how long it has been,
it still hurt just thinking back what we had, it still affects me.

& yes, its been the 28th days.
i am losing count honestly, but not the thoughts.

at least to my blog, i can say that i am not really okay.
especially at night & weekend, it really sucks.

the weekend(s) used to be late-night-msn-chats, webcam(s) etc,
the night(s) used to be accompany of each other.

i dont know how hard i am still gotta try,
either way, it hurts, dont it?

the only thing i've been telling myself: "i know it will only get better, it will."

"If you get your heart broken too many times you'll eventually learn all your lesson & become immune to pretty much every promise you hear"

xoxo.

The Last Airbender.

Thanks to omy.sg, i got invited to the premiere of . . .


The Last Airbender.

am sure this sounds familiar to you?
especially those who watch anime. .

To refresh your memories . .


yes! its from comic-to-movie now!


bring along katherine with me,
the bonus is we got to catch up as well :)

& randomly saw my favourite there . .


yes, KOKOCRUNCH.
*cute MAX + OLD SCHOOL.

before i get out of topic,
here's more about the movie :D

SYNOPSIS.

Air, Water, Earth, Fire. Four nations tied by destiny when the Fire Nation launches a brutal war against the others. A century has passed with no hope in sight to change the path of this destruction.

Caught between combat and courage, Aang (Noah Ringer) discovers he is the lone Avatar with the power to manipulate all four elements. Aang teams with Katara (Nicola Peltz), a Waterbender, and her brother, Sokka (Jackson Rathbone), to restore balance to their war-torn world.

Based on the hugely successful Nickelodeon animated TV series, the live-action feature film “The Last Airbender” is the opening chapter in Aang’s struggle to survive.

TRAILER.



PERSONAL VIEW.

Rating: 4/5
the movie was kinda interesting to me and no draggy or whatsoever.
in a good pact that make you want to anticipate more in the next scene.

& now, it already make me anticipate for the PART 2 which is for sure coming up :)
*In this chapter, they never really mention much about the "EARTH Element".

in my personal opinion,
you never want to miss this :)



CATCH THE LAST AIRBENDER IN CINEMA NOW :)

xoxo.

sum it up all.

enjoyed the get-together time with the right company,
make my weekend pass in a blink again.

the fact that esther is leaving is really sad,
but i wished her all the best & promise to keep this friendship going. *hearts.

settled dinner at MANHATTAN FISH MARKET,
i always think its better than FISH&CO, what you guys think?


here's the lovely people that make my mundane working life so much better.

*more photos for this farewell dinner when esther uploads from her camera, stay tune for that alright :) *be back!

lets do some random updating now,
since i cant sleep a wink at this hour.

(1) The Preferred Card - Seoul Garden/Breeks.
*you wont want to miss this if you like eating there :)


*ignore my pokkadots pyjames, its my mum who brough it for me :)


gotten these voucher together with my card :)

my member was free, not too sure about it now.

for more information on their card application: http://www.globalsignin.com.sg/2/events/276/?page=main

**let me know if you want the voucher, dont think i am using it anyway :)

(2) Ishiya Chocolate Museum - "Bai Se Lian Ren".


Channel U recently just feature about this product in Japan,
and sis got it back ! :) *YAYNESS!


it cost $1 a piece, very pricy i think.
BUT thanks to sis :)


rate: 4/5
i can never resist chocolate :P

*if i never slim down, gotta blame sis who always buy choco when she come back! :P

*sudden urge to go JAPAN, perhaps next year sis?! :)


(3) The belated present(s).


thanks to mary, angie & yvonne,
they simply know i love music isnt it,
yes i am always mp3-ed so they got me this speaker that i can play using iphone!
*love it to the max :)


Elwin got me a jellybean red iphone cover,
yea RED is the right colour and just right for my new phone THANKS!

the other two photo(s) just randomly add in cause,
i have been wanting to watch DESPICABLE ME!
& yes, i tried the spicky wings from kfc already, have you? :P

(4) Random thing(s) that caught my eyes! *advices pls!


Topshop leopard prints toga - as much as i like wearing toga, i only have like 1?!
it cost $106, and i really like it alot!
should i?!


Charles & Keith wallet - $29.90
like the small & simple design, but i have tons of wallet(s) already.
plus each and everytime, i will just switch back to my fav. label.
so should i?!


already got my hand on this!
i have a new hairband too! *show you guys soon!
but instead of pokkadots, the heart-shaped look so much nicer right!

(5) Vainpot.





to end with:


*come home soon sis! miss you :)
never easy taking photo with such a big head.

"I'd rather be hurt by the truth, than to be protected by a lie."

xoxo.