a must, a necessity.

yes, the pain will go away right?
as much as i dislike what i am going through,
i have to go through this vicious cycle.

sometime, instead of questioning myself whether i am capable of getting over.
what i did was, i tell myself i must.
its not a choice but a necessity now.

sucks to the max cause you have so much thing on hand,
and you have to stay focus and all.

this is really how i am feeling.

& many a times,
i never abide to what i set for myself,
which even me myself feel like giving myself up.

talking about disappointment,
i am really thankful for friends who was still willing to be there and listen to me telling them the same old thing, yet never want to give up on me.

it mean alot. *hugs for that to those friends, you know who you are :)

one good thing now is, my days passes so fast that before i realize, its already over.

& yes, school started.
the routine of 7-10pm,
not having proper dinner & reaching home near 11pm.

regardless, i am doing well for all.

those aside,
my Jakarta trip has been confirmed 21staug - 23thaug.
the much needed trip, even if traveling alone, i am fine.

just want to get out of what i am now and not to worry,
i have Mary with me in her hometown :)
& that's enough.

besides,
am planning for HongKong in coming November with family.
we need a holiday.

still looking into it,
have to get sis final say.

thats all for now.

wish me lucks for NETBALLUXION later :)

a song to share before i end.


愛不單行

找不到人说心里的寂寞
找不到人都怕变得沉默
找不到命中注定在一起的人以后
很多人都笑我
一个人过生活

#爱
只有简单笔画
却比想象复杂
很安定爱变化
我爱过几个人
也被爱过几遍
却还是没能将幸福留下

爱
是不可输的吗
为何我还相信
她不是不欣赏
我在等一个人
在等我的永恒
告诉我爱不单行别害怕

用不完身边泛滥的自由
还是怕孤单是一种诅咒
羡慕我能飞的人为何在天黑以后
还是宁愿回到
爱情那个枷锁

#

爱
是不可输的吗
为何我还相信
她不是不欣赏
我在等一个人
在等我的永恒
告诉我爱不单行别害怕

我在等一个人
在等我的 永恒
告诉我爱不单行相信她

xoxo.