friendship issue(s).

i really do missed those goood old time.

starred at the screen for some seconds,
to let my brain registered those really unwanted; one after another.

perhaps it have compiled to a level and now its too much for me to take it.
it spells unbearable and hurtful; infact very.

its not like being accused,
where i can obviously stand up and speak for myself.

its more of disappointment that left me SPEECHLESS.
how sad can that be?

SO ONCE AND FOR ALL,
i pen-ed it all down here,
hoping for case closed.

its was not the irritating "spy part" that your think.
its more like how you girls make people feel or rather how you girls make me feel.yes, you can say that i am sensitive and all but i just really hate it.

i question myself so many "WHY",
but i just cant register/accept any available reason that i tried to come up with.
coming from friend(s) that you grow up with for the past 9years, make it sucks even more.

example : you was with your friend (just both of your) at a certain event @ a place faraway from home and she informed only at the very night that her bf picking her up. the next sentence goes "but we dont know where we are heading".

human instinct: no intention of offering ride which i dont care though it dont feel good but the worse was it make me felt so left out/alone.

so selfish of her, and this happened for twice.
called this friends, or rather we belong to the same group.
IRONY OR WHAT.
be it un-intentionally/ or being dumb,
i still believe friends dont treat their friend this way.

then follow was,
you(ok, its ME) stupidly asked with good intention, if people want to share cab back.
only to find out they drove.
then again, the same human instinct.

i need to emphasis : "its not the free rides i am highlighting".
i am just giving the scenarios on how you girls make people/me feels.

i cant be bother with the free ride, i just want friends that dont leave you alone and all.

if you think that i am being paranoid and all,
its okay, for i wont allow myself to feel this way anymore.

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whats does the term "BFF" stands for?
does it mean what it stand for or just another IRONY term people used it so often nowadays?

well, now i understand the term together with its implication.

along with its meaning, it also implies :
when your BFF hurt you, the impact is twice as big.
i experienced it yesterday & it was true.
hurts.

i dont want to elaborate further.

shall stopped it here before the heart really bleed.