argh~going mad.

i got rejected by sp!!~ hais, put all my hope on NYP. but i wrote appeal letter to sp, nyp and tp. hopin it will hElp in sOme way Or another. pls, take me in. really going mad one day, damn worried, damn scare, damn sad, damn regret. mixtures of alot of feeling. hais, when is this gOin to end. dAys after days, week after week. i am really gotta reach my limits. stop this torturin man~ god bless pls. praying hard~ i leave all this to fate. i really need some time to have fun. jus fun, no more worries. but obviously its hard. i love to tink and i tend to tink alot. tats ME~ hais, seen like i cant settle down and focus on anything now. this explain my bad temper recently. enough Of this. wil be back, ):