yes! yes!

i am backed. first of all, bear with me first. few sec will do.

i passed my basic theroy. =D real happy!! didnt expect to pass but thanks god. :) yesyes.

have booked my final theroy [12th jan 2006]. this time round no last min. promise~ anyway lookin for private instrustor, teaching manual. anyone intro? hope i can be consistent in learning car. i dun like to give up half way. =D still, let me pass my final theroy first. heard it's going to be hard. -_-"

ok, enough of it.

project is like never ending. jus finish SPSS project n now it's Effective one =( argh. hate this module and some how i tink the tutorial teacher dun like me. but who's cares. jus wan to pass this *&^%$ module n done with. argh!!

holiday dun seem to be holiday. shall name it project cum trainin cum working days!!

but some thing to be happy about. . .
1. have arrange exchanging of present with my school mates during project. at least some thing to look forward when doin project.

2. will be exchangin present with my nyp gals too. so lookin forward to trainin. lols.

3. this yr i finally have the christmas feel. anyway i used to hate christmas, bad memories but not anymore.

i love christmas. yeap present!! thinkin of wat to buy now~

-DAWN!!
happy belated birthday~ i really dint forget ok. =P hopefully u enjoyed ur day. miss ya. =) meet up to bball soon!!

-MOTHER OF SEMBAWANG!! *lols, wat an unique name.
becomin 18 yrs old in a few hrs huh. shall pass u ur present when i buy it. =D so faster meet up k. still happy birthday in advance. :) zhu ni xin fu with ur army boi. =P

tats about all. i am welcomin my "holiday".
take care all.

SHOPPING!!

finally! all the ICA for this semester has finished. nearly kill me -_-". seriously i dun like the stress. its hard to juggle work, play n studies. but i dun wanna give up either one. alright, at least i finished half of the sememster already, something to make myself happy at least =P

I jus noe that part timer dun get confirmation and this mean no SP. hate it~ some time i wonder.

gotten back some result. was quite satisfate with some but along come some disappointment :( if i have study abit harder. but it's ok, at least i make it through. no F. yeap~ =D something to be happy about again. however, damn worryin about my effective writing, my greatest weakness. omg~ how am i goin to survive. a C will do. . surprisingly IT was ok this semester, the teacher is great~ and i understand quite well, this shall goes on and let me finish it with some good result :) i shall see.

i got my black guess wallet few week ago. finally. i am happy la. :)

see this charles n keith bag, damn like it and i decided i will get it by tml. =D lols. i actually think of buying the small guess hand bag, but after thinkin i dun like it as much as i like the c&k one. cause the size of that can only put one wallet and hp. so finally decision. c&k =D it's brown! one of my fav.

how i wish i got one good handphone to post up those photos. have the urge to change phone. but my plan end at mar 07. hais.

i have alot i wan to buy. and i wan go VIVO CITY. he give empty promises always. :( goin out this sat, mayb with ahbu n **** lols. hopefully it will be a shoppin spee for me. i wan a nice sat :)

thats about all. takin basic theroy today but i have not study at all. haha, full of guilt. well-prepared to fail it later. shall see how, i will have 1 hr to read later. will update about it.

til then, take care all.

*vOn, i never angry bout u la. i jus forget to reply. lols. no worries, i understand. sorry for always rejecting. i feel guilty too. but y shift was plan one month earlier. hope to catch up with ur soon =D take care gal. n advanced MERRY XMAS.

GOONG rocks~

i am backed. yeap i finished watching GOONG.
i saw shin cried because of crown princess =((

damn love the last two two volume, i cried along with them. damn touching. hais, but reality do happen? i doubt so. still, love the show damn lots. it will be listed in my favourite show list *thumb up!!

currently in IT class, learning excel. so far i am still quite ok. trying to follow up, and seriously my IT teacher for this sememster is so much better. :) but. . . this semester alot of my tutorial n lecterer @#$%^ sian. anyway, i like my statistic tutorial n lecturer, its the same person anyway. she is strict but her teachin is good =D love it.

i am attending volleyball trainin regularly now. yes, i wan to train back.

and i only work 15 hours this week. hais. its ok.

i decide to change wallet again =P I jus brought a tyco colour one from top shop few month ago. sinful =P i wanted to buy a guess one. =) i will get it by end of the week. hopefully. :) my pay is 7 days away! yeap~

i wanted a new phone. thinkin bout N73 but my plan not ended yet n no money ar. some day let me pick up some 100 dollars or wat. wahaha.

ok, before i end take a look at the this :)



Redearth-Secret Potion. *beSt seller. :D

that about all. i actually wanted to show ur the limited edition-DISCO ANGEL but i cant save the pic. but if ur are interested. here's the web www.redearth.com . its a new launch for the comin christmas. :)

tats about all. santo clause is comin to tOwn. my holiday comin too =D LOVELY.

Goong!

here the reason why i seldom online nowadays. . . guess? ok here u go. lols =P


goong-ye man wan fei.


u see the center roll. Alfred the bear! i wan to have it.


melt~ fainted liao.


all of them. ju nan mei nu.

xin fu!!!


the super funny + cute pillow man. how i wish i have it. haha.

i havent see til here. curious~

she look cute. love it.


:)


hugs =D

wao lao. sweet~

oops. censor~

shuai!!


so damn cute. love it.

omg~

SHUAI dai le. melt~ lols.
i will update soon. til i finished the show.
take care all. dun forget my blog alright :)
i am lookin forward to the next under 19. my last yr. with sMb gals. love them.
tats all. n ya huijUn will be our manAger :D

END of POL-ITE.

backed~ =P
was real lazy to post the last few week. but ok here i am =D

POL-ITE have come to an end. we gotten 4th. ya, kinda sad cause can see the effort everyone put in esp LISHAN. she damn ping. i seriously like the spirit she have throughout. the sMb spirit-never say die.

Hais but some thing i am sad bout is i totally lack of the spirit now. i dunno why. yes, i admit i am much affected to that incident. but it's over, i shall let myself move on and not let it be a excuse of my bad performance. yes, i am very very sad. disappointed over myself. my skil have dropped to the extend i feel like giving up. =((

but after some thinking, i know wat i really wan now. i wan to play well, to play back the way i used to be. to make my team to achieve victory. to see everyone as a team strive victory. =D i promise to train hard now. all i need now is to trust myself and a little bit of motivation and alot of determination. i will not say die. :)

thanks bu for your encouragement. ya, agree with u afterall we have been playin this sport for 5 yr plus. and yes we have always been devoted to this sport. omg~ u actually enlighten me leh. lols. :) xie xie lo.

suddenly think of shen jiao lian n wang lao shi. miss them lots.
thanks for the good memories. :)

went to see POL-ITE finals on monday. an exciting match for gals. TP was the winner. a score of 3-2. i thought SP will have gotten the champ but its ok. as they have tried their best. can see the ping jing ahbu n huijun have. they played really well :) so jiayou for IVP ok. til then, all the best.

wanted to posted some photos taken at my xiao ah yi wedding. but i forgotten i am at school now. lOls. wat to say? the wedding was really nice. my xiao ahyi is damn gorgeous. the dress she wear in the weddin and the bombin hair was totally different from other bride i saw. all i can say is it's really nice. :) will posted the photo asap.

my shift for november was very #$%^&*@~ alot of C store :( wat to say. hais, got the urge to stop working some times. shall see how it goes. i am interested in THE FACE SHOP.

i have already missed one statistic lecture and one min late for acounts lecture. ONE MINUTES and i am being mark as absence. omg~ i must not be one or two min late again. i need to wake up earlier. :) yes i will TRY. lols.

IT ICA on thursday. quite scare caused i am not good at IT. indeed, i am quite bad at it. Jo will understand how i feel :) yes? haha.

alright i will stop here. will post soon :) the photos!!
an advice for my bestie fren ah bu- follow your heart and not let your past stop you. treasure befor it's gone. hugs~ do take care alright.
miss all my fren. tc all~ :)

POL-ITE

backed to blog. first of all. . . da da da~

HAPPY HARI RAYA~ =D

i finally watch ROb-b-hOOd. alright, i am abit late, but at least i watch it =P. enjOy the show throughout~ will give it 8 out of 10. =P the bAby is damn cute ya. esp at the part he call "mama" and "papa". but when the baby cry, so sad la. i am gOin to buy the vcd for sure. =D

some picture of the show.



all of them.



omg~ the super duper cute baby.

wEnt to work at vivo watsons ytd. first time to vivo. not as big as expected but still it's BIG. love the forever 21 there. so much bigger than the one at wisma. -_-" i cant control the temptation and brought a shirt there. a SHIRT again. i mention no mOre shirt for me but it dun works. =P

didnt have a chance to go up to the 3rd floor that can see those scenery and play water? first time i hear shOppin centre got water to play. promise to go there again to shop but nOt work. =D he will bring me there. lala~

got to rush to ngEe ann at 4pm. not the first time and already used to it. seriously i prefer vivO. =) but it's ok la. used to it.

enough of wOrk. today will be the first day for POL-ITE. we will be playin against TP. got to rush to tp from nOrthpoint later. i got to work for 4 little hours. i feel tired already la. didnt have a good sleep ytd =(( hang on~

i will hang on til i got the confirmation. hopefully 3 mths later they will confirm me and here come my OWN sp. =P

tats about all, lucks for both NYP boys n gals team. hopefully top 4 is not impossible. =D all the best.

constantly worked for 12 days in a row. tired~

and now time to update lots of stuffs.

ok begin with 12th october which is dearest jo birthday.

we went to her house at 00:00 to give her a surprise. and she thought we was her grand mother. lols, she is damn blurr can? it's been the e second time we give her a surprise for her birthday and both was successful. she will be unknown of it even though vOn did wrote on the blog. see? damn blurr.

finally she is 18 yrs old. was unable to go to her chalet due to work. hope they understand. =D brough her a hello kitty carpet as a present but the rest of v'gals kept laughin at my present. -_-" they said jo dun like hello kitty anymore. however i am sure jo will like me carpet. muahaha~ it's the heart thats count.

here's a picture taken at jo's house. surprise sucessful. happy to see them once again. =) and like wat jo say, our frendship didnt end at secondary school. hope this will last =D



great friend of mine :) wonderful memories.
and forward to 13th of october.

have a meet up with this two fren of mine. to recall i have know them for almost 10 yrs or more then. it's great that we are atill able to contact. both of them really make my day. :) we dun feel awkward at all for not seein each other for almost 7-8 yrs. yet, we are able to talk about anything under the sun. i missed them real lots.

went to watch possesed at cine after a long talk at NYDC. i wont wan to go back there again. prefer kopitiam definitely lols. the genius drink i ordered dun feel genius at all. taste kinda weird, shity taste. haha, my first n surely last time there. kat's brownie seen so nice, hard to resist but i did. =)

i will give possesess 7/10. i tink its scary in some way, esp when the evil appeared. omg, i have a list of movie in the waitin list. afterall, my conclusion-

i really enjoyed my days with the two lovely gals. hope to meet up soon. eileen will arrange it well i believe and i will not screwed it again. =P paiseh huh. =P

here's the photo we took. =D



the three of us. 10 yrs of friendship. more to go~ :)



EILEEN siao chaobo and me. =P



siao chao bo n me Again. =P she's sweet but violent ok.



my primary sch mates-eileEn and Katherine. love them. ('-')




US again-@ NYDC. =P from left to right [EileeN, me and kATHERine]

last of all, school started. no excitement at all.
IP comin up in next week. all the best NYP. :)

take care all.
no more shirt for me. short needed~ -_-"

new skin!~ =D

fianlly a new blog skin. decide to change cause i cant see the video clearly. really really love the song man~ it's touching.

and i agree this skin is much much clear :)

have friendly ith simei ite today, after so long got to touvh vb again. been skippin trainin unwillingly. hais, full of guilt always. school is goin to start in less then 10 days but the time table is not OUT. not tryin to kick a fuss bout it but i need the time table alot. inorder to plan shift~

lets recall wat i buy in this holiday or rather jus in two week.

1`one ebase long sleeve; black grey.
2`one esprit jacket; dark red.
3`one esprit long sleeve; grey.
4`one dress; pocker dots.
5`one 37 degree shOrt.
6`two bossini t-shirt' both in whirt.
7`one black pointed cover shoes.
8`one black pants.
9`fresh imp pink sleeveless top.

and i remember spendin 100 over dollars at face shop for the skin care. n a few of their cosmetic.

omg~ done a lot of spendin in this holiday. i am broke. =((

tml got to go work. pray that my sales will be good =D tat's all.

miss everyone and may the haze be clear off. it's so irritatin~

AI MEI~

find this video and i really love it. the song, the video. sweet!~

thinkin back even since i am with him, i dun experienced much sweet-ness. not that he is not good, jus that when twO person are together for lOng. both parties will not take the effort anymore.

hOnestly, i like the moment when two person are in love with each other but not together, in this way both will treasure more and take the effort in every single thing he do. the period of "ai mei" is seem better than together, or at least i felt so. bOth will tend to show his good side and hide the bad. show lots of care and no temper. claimed how important are u to him and etc.

bUt when both gets together. things changed as days does by. both start to take each other for granted. no more good side but all the bads one. no more effort in makin u feel sweet. no more tolerate but throwin temper now and them. and soon, bOth dun felt the importance and treasure-ness of being together. and eventually one day both will be seperate again.

wonder if anyone agree with me, it's good to stay as friend rather than bein couple. as friend can be forever but couple are watever. there's no guaratee.

i am just thinkin back =D and still i prefer those "ai mei" period seriously.

=) no work today and i felt guilty. they actually called me back and i regreted sayin i got trainin. but Lishan called me in the afternoon saying trainin is camcel. -_-" nvm, get over this and most probably goin to watch the guys play against simei ITE. all the best.

tats all. my time table is still not out. school is slow la~
take care all~ :)

babies~ lovely!~

i am goin to get over it and done with. =D no worries.

my life is full with family, him, work, vOlleyball and sleep now~

shift is out. monday shift always seEn to be longer. i am goin to miss trainin~ not again!~ damn it. i really felt guilty. furthermore IP is comin up. it's on the 26th of octOber. omg~ grant me 10 days a week or rather 48 hours aday. ok, i shall be relistic :)

here some cUte photo of baby to share =D











thats about all. love those pic. cutie!!

photos photos photos

a recent photo. =)

HIM lo~ cap cap cap!!

AJISEN~ first time eatin there together. his first time eatin AJISEN and mine is the second time lOls.

wanted to go sentosa one day~

holidays.~~

finally backed to blog. lack of the feelin to blog recently but here am i now, together with the blogging feelin~ haha.

have been playin volleyball and wOrkin recently. wOrked at bishan today, quite fun and at least the crowd there is more as compared to alot others red earth stOre. and there cOmes my commission. wOrk OT at nOrth point today, omg~ really no crowd at all. still, i managed to close some sale. =D all the way. til now, love this job. been learnin things everyday. new thing, new experience. love it!
i missed trainin today and the whole of last week. full of guilt. :((

thinking backed haven been spending quality time with him. things we do in hOliday.
1-watched VCDs at home.

he choose some chinese show and i choose "SHE's the MAN". as expected, mine is much much nicer than his vampire chinese shOw =P he is outdated OK. pray he dun see this. lOls. =X

2-went different place to eat.
ajisen, a kopitiam near my house, somerset there, bishan etc. omg~ gettin fat. i remember eatin loads of mac this few week. fries are my favourite but i hate the fats that come along with it. how? and he is not controllin me

3-i cant really remember~ but he has been pickin me up from work more often. good sign huh? make sure this last. i am happy again lala~

seriously, being with him has been a habit. and i hoped he enjoy every moment like i do. i am sure he did la. =P

gOing out with the nv-fail-to-make-me-smile him tml~ make it a fun day for me.

i realise this holiday i have not meet any violents gals. sorry gals.

will post some of my recent photo. finally photos of my recent lOok. =) one nose, two eye and one mouth. haha~ tat's was rubbish.

tat's all. take care all. last but not least.
all the best to SAB, AHBU and MICHELLE. heard bout the thailand trip this friday, wishes your all the best =D

nice nice nice!

omg. fairytale. bo bo lAnd? lOls.


sweet!! love it.

wOn the friendly match today. enjoys!~ sorry gals bout the bbq thing. =P

studies. work.

blog blog blog =)

i finished the three days trainin of rEd earth. the third day is the most interestin i must say. as it's finally haNd on~ =D fun. we learn about the make up all this. apply foundation, eye shadow and so on. but befOre make up trainin. we was taught about the eye brow trimmin. was kinda fun. aNd i trim my virgin eyebrow. lols. it was pain but worth it. agreed that it look better =D i really enjoy the last trainin. no theroy, =X FINALLY.

started my first day of work at Jurong pOint. i enjoyed. learn alot of new stuff. the time pass fast and i can always try out cosmetic. my superviser was jasmine. she's great. felt comfortable workin with her, no stress =) i remember helpin one customer draw eye liner, omg! my first time but the effect was not bad. and i close this sale =D

my second day was at bisHan. was fun though. nothing much. and the sale is good man. that's good~ my commission. lala~

til now, i enjoyed workin but i am workin only 8 out of 18 day this month.
hopefully next month will be a better one. i wan to earn more money before school reopen.

about my results. was still alright, hope to score better the next smemester.
my gpa was 3.1 plus. didnt remember the exact figure. =P
i got one A, two B+, one B, one C and one C+
yep, enough of studies. now waitin for my time table to be out.

wat to say, holiday was quite well spent =D

anyway, i feel the feelin comin back. tats should be the post feelin HJ say. argh~ hate it. tryin to move on. sure to do tat. =) ahbu!! MOVE ON!

tat's about all. Take care all.

woman formula.

decided to post this funny formula. anyone agree. i dUn!!

red earth trainin

i want to say bout the trainin =D

DAY 1-
it was from 2-6pm. kinda bored cause it's about theroy. learn alot bout skin care product and also their history like tat. wats interestin is that the person actually throw to us some question and i was havin ? in our head. i jus make some wild guesses afterall =P. some Of the part timer really noe quite alot bout skin care product. ok, i give an examle.

QUESTION
u use finger or cotton pads to apply toner onto your face?

EXPECTED ANSWER
some say finger some say cotton pads.

CORRECT ANSWER.
dry skin people is better to use finger as the finger will absOrb 50% of the toner.
oil skin people can use cotton pads as cotton pads does not absorb anything at all. cause it's not a living thing.

another thing i know is to apply toner in downward and outwards motion. no circular motion.

omg! i really know nuts bout all this skin care etc. disaster! but at least i am trying to learn n understaNd now. ya, tryin. =P

DAY 2-
it's a long day =( 10am-6pm. however in between we was given a 2 hr break. but it's at boOn keng, the 2 hr was obviously wasted cause we only spend one hr to eat and the another hr we jus go back n slack there. -_-" boon keng have nowhere to shop, tat's y!!

morning was about the operation briefing. we know which is our main outlet. i will be mostly at jUrong point. -_-" not near but it's ok. workin is like tat, at least its better than bugis? bugis is the further place i have work. anyway, if any of ur wan to buy things, buy from me. cause i am earnin abit of commision. =D thanks!! after that was theroy again, this time round is on make up stuffs. =) tat's the end.

seriously i learn ALOT. n i am getting pretty interested =P
hope things goes well ba. comin monday will be my last trainin and hopefully i can start wOrk asap. lala~ i am loving it~ it seen like i am getting over it. ya, slowly.
tml accompanyin him to interview, hope it's successful for him. make him earn some money for me to spend. =P not wOrkin on sat n sUn~ anyone wan to come out?

tats about all. take care~ =)

volleyball!~

UPDATE!!

anyway, i decide not to post things bout my relationship here anymore. cause at this moment things may go smooth for us but another moment we are break. so i just kept it to myself. -_-" felt irritating cause things is always chnaging for us. anyway, we are still together. but like i say, it may change at the next moment. who's noe? so mayb just pray for me~

vOlleyball-
i was not selected ytd. it was the last selection. the feeling jus sucks. cant really describe, disappointed, sad or mayb anger or jus a mixture of those. for this past few months, i went to trainin regularly but this make me feel even more unfair. wats the use of goin trainin? i really dun understand.

y must they give empty promise but at the end of it, they just say a few words to put an end to their empty promise. is this how they settle it. i wasnt mentally prepared. not at all i should say. all i noe is they assured us we will be goin. but now? ya, everyone will say the world is unfair. the reality is harsh. wat else can i do, i am really tryin hard to get over it and done with.

huijun told me i need nOt say anything to those that are in the Main 12 cause they will never understand how i feel. and she told me bout her story and alot more. it did enlighten me in some wAy and i believe she did understand hOw i really feel. she told me nO matter how hard i tried to get over it, it will at least take a few month. and there will be post feelin. jus hate all this feelin.

but afterall i did not shed a tear for this matter, i tried to hold back every single tear that nearly fall down. cause it's not worth it, not worth it for those few word they say. i really tried my best and since i am not selected for wateva reason. i shall just admit i am jus not good enough. still, i tink it's unfair. i cant say it out here. those close to me will noe. still, i wish them all the best. =)

bu an sab, if ur will to reAd this. jus to let ur nOe i jus need some times to get over it. after this, i will be fine. remember [Once a team mate, forever we are]. all the best to both of ur ba. =D

wOrk-
it's my last day at x sQuare todAy. it's a last min decision cause my interview at reD earth was successful and i was inform to atteNd the trainin from tml onwards. kinda lookin forward to it. =P new experiencE. but i felt guilty for jus leavin like tat. my manager dun seen to bE very hAppy, but he say he will respect my dEcision. hais, damn she bu de my colleges. this three months plus workin there sure have feelin for the shop and the people over there le. they are all very nice people. =(( i prOmise i will surely go back n visit them!! MISS!~
thanks for teachin me so mUch and bringing me jOy. =D

tats about all. quite a long post. i wanted to stopped playin volleyball for the moment. i suddenly have this feelin. hais. see, the feelin is comin again!! wateva, will blog soon =)

the fifth dAy~

backed-
wOrkin 5 days this week. but i kinda feel better this way. it's stop me from thinkin and contactin him in some way. i feel like changin to a higher pay job and my fren have lobang. how??

hais. it's been the fifth day. the longest one i had. i wan to went through all this but some how my heart dun agree with it. omg~ i really feel bad!! anyone, just tell me wat to dO. ways to forget true lOve? let nature take its course. i am trying to let things be the ways it wants. but it's hurts. now i understand how hard is it to forget one u really lOve. :(

havent been touching vOlleyball for 2 week i guess. my touch? hope it's still there. real loOkin forward to this comin sat trainin. wOrk hard, all the way.

i have been spending muCh this week. things i have brough in this week.
1` twO forever 21 shirt
2` one m)phosis knit jacket
3` twO pUre milk shiRt
4` twO tank tOp
5` one shoe
6` one oRange bag
i felt guilty but it's my way to dote myself after wOrkin for the month. i am trying to sAve~ really =P i will limit myself next time. if not, my bank will help me when it's reaches its maximum ($0.00) haha, by then i will be so pathetic la. but still, shoppin really bring jOy. (:

i am wondering how i should get over all this. i am good at tellin peOple wat to dO but when its my turn, i am jus at a lOss. hais. kinda useless issnt it?

tat's about all. feel like posting some random picture.
MEET UP VIOLENTS GALS, 257, eileen and kAtherine!!~

finally exams is over. lucks for my paper =D wat done cannot be undOne so i will jus wish myself good lucks.

holiday!! one month plus before another sememster~
things to dO in holiday
1-spend more times with my family (:
2-earn more money and do loAds of shopping
3-start saving $$
4-register for basic theroy *step to car license
5-prepare for thailand trip, train well n hard!!
6-meet up with violents gals and frens
7-chalets, kbox, poOl~
I am going to enjoys myself to the fullest. finally stress-free~ =D

went to see snake on plane ytd, quite a nice show but its show just 1 hr 45 min. make me feel tat travellin by plane is so terrifying. omg!! wanted to catched "ghost game" soon~

seriously speakin, i dun really loOk forward to the trip cause i have to leave home for 10 days, i will surely miss my mum!! =(( i jus hate the feelin. but it's will be a good experience for me there i tink. haiyo~

things didnt go well for us. i am tired of the everyday-quarrel relationship. i know i may be the one at fault but i am not feelin good at all. hais~ once and for all? argh!!

got to wOrk tml, off to watChed vcd "ah wAng xin ji". nice and super cUte show. tats about all. anyway i change my skin. will put a song with it soon~

once again BACK!!

we are back-together. i noe i am undecisive. but ya its me, i just cant bear to let go. and in some way, i tink he is still worth it.

but mayb its not a wrong decision? i can see he is tryin to change at least. ya, and hopefully he did change. =D i will be waiting. and he will assure me my decision is not wrong.

he promised me to change for the better. and i am happy =))

really thanks those who have given me advice and enciuragement. it did help. greatly appreciate~ thanks huh!!

shall talk about exams. omg!! omg!!
i tink i need to do my paper faster. i always cant finish. and ya, my econs have 20 marks flying aways =( i believe statistic have 15 marks flying aways too. NOT ENOUGH TIME ar. quite saddening but much relieved after those exam finished. phew~ i will do faster for my pOa paper i swear. i dun wan 4 in a row not enough time to finish.

no more late nights and obaka after all this~ i need alot alot of sleep. =) and wednesday is my last paper. lucks to myself. and here comes the 1 month plus holiday. yep!~ i wan to meet up with old fren, chit chat and shop~ anywan available?

i hope a B for this 4 subject. cause i am well-prepared to welcome a D for IT. i am praying much for a C. -_-"

PRAY for mr chew chon wee too!! he finish his paper in 30 min today. 0.0 he admit he is not confident too. omg!! he tried his best so wat i can do is pray for him.

off to tv, and revision for poa later. i am already slackin before holiday. omg~ =P
MISS VOLLEYBALL.

single once again.

from the moment he shout right into my fAce.
we will nv be bAck. no mOre soft-heart, or cant let go.

i tink i am really stUpid.
i always give him chances after chances cause i cant let go. but in the eNd wat dO i get? nOthing! i never see any changes in him.

bUt sometimes i jUst told myself, nvm. all he neEd is times. times for him tO understand aNd change one dAy. but we have beEn together fOr 1 year, i see nothings. i dUn feel that he understand me, dun feel that my care is being appreciated. wOrse, i felt tat he dUn even treasure me.

every prOmise he break, i forget about it and move on. cause i noe nO one is prefect neither am i. i know in a relationship we got to give and take. but everytime i give in, he become demandin~ then wats i am suppose to dO? i noe he is havin a hard time tolerating my temper, but so am i!~ why is he always seeing the bads things, and forget about the goOd things. now i knew, all my care and cOncern is jUs rubbish.

why cant he understand some thing i sAy is out of anger? why cant he jus understand how i feel? to me, tat incident will nv be erase. so stop forcing me. i am not feElin goOd either. i jus simply sAy wat i see. u cant possibly make me understand by not tellin me a single thing~

i should have been firm and not turn back the last time we have quarrel. i knew we will be quarrelin again n again. till the extent it affect my exams. and this time its the semseter exams, yet this is how he help me.

its hard to let gO i noe. afterall its a 1yr relationship but this time rOund " i knEw we will never be bAck"
soft-hearted jus leAd me nowhere. i truely understand. but its really hurt to know only now that we are not suitable.
perhaps its a good thing to end it now. i know i jus got to be strong.

ITS REALLY ENOUGH, GET OUT OF MY LIFE.

superbAnd~

MICROSOFT ACCESS is driving me crazy. i really dUnno how to do, nOt to mention the cOmin up ICA. i doubt i will fail it. i am in a state of giving-up-but-scare-regret. hais. dAmn it.

a wasted dAy i tink. nO revisiOn dOne. wEnt for trainin today after nOt touching any balls fOr two week. well, feElin was still there. bUt my first ball was #$%@!& still, i enjoy the trainin. sAb was having the sAme mind set as me, we was tinkin to continue playing vball anot after the thailand trips. ya, everything will be after the trip. indecisive~

i am kinda giving myself stress which was extRa. mayb it was becAuse i wanted to scOre. bUt i see it through~ let things be the way it want. i jUs dO my bEst. i am gOin on a shOppin tRip soOn~ =D i need to relax myself, lOls. not an excUse. i nv like stress. the resUlts will be opposite. sO ya, shoppin is healtHy =P

sO NO MORE HAIS. i watched the SuperbAnd final jUs nOw. milubi is the winner :) i sUpport lUcify at the beginnin bUt after watchin i tink Milubi deserve tO win. still, J3 vOice rOx~ and sOul dance is great.

tats all~ off to talk phone =)

Oral ICA~

i finished the LAST oral presentation which was on Persuasive speeCh. i simply screwed it up at the Question and Answer Session. i know my team mates will some how bE unhappy in a wAy or anOther. =(( ok, i am sOrry. bUt it jUs come to mY miNd, answer fIrst. it wAsnt a veRy difficUlt questiOn bUt i answer it wrOng due to some misunderstanding. i miss the LAST word of the qUestion and resUlt in all this. 0.0 wth!!

Question: whEn will your finish the school's training?

Answer: so i start sAying about we neEd dOnation befOre we can start planning the building of the classrooms etc. .

but i missed the wOrd TRAINING. disaster!!

aNd i jUs sAy out my answer and the mEan Oral teacher sAy i will give 0 marks for the anSwer. i tRied to expain to her but she make a big fUss out of it. after whiCh i jUs say sOrry and keep qUiet. deEp within i am really toleratin!! my Other grOup member help me with the answer and i hOpe it did hElp~ :) thanks khatinja~ the Oral teacher really make me felt awkward and i seriously think there's nO sUch NEED! wateva, i hoped to at least get a 35 marks. i will jUs pray.

seriously, Oral cOmmunication is really a WASTE-OF-TIME module. =D jus agree with me.

we quarrel ytd~ =(( til 5 plus in the morning. my lesson for today starts at 8am~ after which i got to wOrk til 9.30pm. real tired~ anyway, i only reach schOol today at 10am. i misssed accounts, ya i am mUch guilty =(( hais. but i only slept 4 hr like tat. i am a lazy bUm can. today will be quite a worse day for me. late for wOrk some more. =(( omg.

i was really dOwn on luck today, i forget to bring my speeches for the presentation and in a hurry i rUsh down to print. as expected, long wait. finally it was my turn, yet the com cannot detect my thumb dRive. then the autie jus say go other block, computer is dOwn. -_-" obviously i rush to the opposite block and get my work dOne. in cOnclusion, no more last min jOb. terrible feelin~

ya, today will be a bad day. i am prepared.
be optimistic, tats all i can do. =D

Afterall i really dun wish to give up on him. but he kept disappoint me times and times. speechless~

IT, cannOt make it.

hais. MONDAY BLUES.

i can tolerate nO more. i really feel stRess up~ i dUn feel like liStenin to the fOrever boring IT lesson. not to mention her lAb wOrk. i dOne none of it i tink. if not its around one quarter Only. how can i nOt stress? its the last ICA next week,but i am not a bit prepAre~ hAis, kinda prepare to fAil. bUt my class seen well-prepAred some how. wth! add on to my stress. -_-" anyone help pls?

nOw i gOt twO choice. to pAy attentiOn tRying to get a pAss next week. if nOt, jus cOntinue slackin and fAil my IT. =(( i am afraid i will neEd to repEnt this module. waste-of-time module. . .

seriOusl, i hoped to score for some of the mOdule but was much demOralise when Oral and IT is pulling dOwn my Overall grade. fine, i noe nothings is pRefect. i admit. but i will still tRy~ :) wish me lUcks. i need it lOts.

sOme hOw i find that i dUn really have enOugh time to stUdy for 60% semester exam. omg~ my time management jUs cant mAke it.

i am learnin to treasure him mOre =D
its the proCess of growin up i gUess. afterall i am 18. =P YA, MY CAR LICENSE?

my day~

backed to pOst~
haha, anyone find those photos below fUnny? =P i laugh for Quite some time.

life have been alright~ its time to settle dOwn for stUdy and after tat i can enjoy a whOle of 1 and a half months. =D damn loOkin forward to it. mEanwhile, lets jus put my head in those bOring lectures and tUtorial nOtes. hOpefUlly i can dO well. still, i nOe i wOnt score in Oral and IT la. i am already wOnderin will i fail the upcOmin access test. Omg~ make me like the module, which is so impOssible.

in conclusion, IT and Oral is still a waste-of-time mOdule fOr sUre. lala~ jO will agreed with me ya? =P

sAw vOn, xUe, jO and chel finally ytd. hAven been seein this egg fOr so lOng. did some cAtching up while wOrkin. lUcky i was on shift wiTh wayne aNd tOm~ :) they are goOd la~ and tOm will be sO friendly huh. lOls. cHel seen to be mUch better in her relationship, hopefully she will be xin fu with her army bOi. =) u have my blessing ya. vOn cUt her hair. jO and xUe is still the sAme. realy have the urge to go shop with them. most importantly to dO some catching up =( but cant~ i am wOrking.

nvm, vOn and me are gOin to watch romantic mOvie hand in hand with large popcOrn next sat probably. lOls. =D we also agreed to meet up to stUdy. hopefuly mOre v.gals will be able to gather. i shall see~

chel sAy i have changed. haha, she use chinese phrase leh "nu dao si ba pian". i am really wonderin have i change alot? but is the changes goOd or bad? anyone comment? some times i really feel like cutting my hair. but at another point of time i feel like i wan to keep it long. argh~ so random. -_-"

gOt to go dO my Oral preparation. its goin to be my last presentatiOn for the modUle. blessed me with lUcks. i did badly for the previous one. hais. =((

tats about all. will be backed~

fUnny picTures

haha, i find those picture fUnny so i decided to share with all my frens =D eNjoYs.

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jUs have my Oral Quiz 2. another waste-of-time modUle. argh~ failed the quiz. my 10% is gone~ simply dislike this module. gOt to wOrk later. kinda reluctant. -_-"

the first mOvie we wAtched together. havent nOtice times really past. cOuntin dOwn to two weeks before we hit the 1st yeAr mark. =D stupid chEw chOn wee. hope he will make it for the semster exams, all da way~

bOring la~

argh~ i hate pOly life.

currently havin IT lessOns. yet i wasnt paying any attention. i am at the fiRst rOw some mOre -_-" my teacher jus dUn care also. waste of time la. i tink i will screwed up the ICA comin up for this module. nOt interested at all~ =((

weArin fOrmal wear todAy, again~ i jus wOre formal lAst thur. -_-" loOk so Office lady, diSlike. one day, pOly should chaNge their rUle and let pEople like mE to wEar shOrts and t-shIrt for pResentation. haha! tat will be mOre fun ya? Or perhaps mOre relAx~ =P

OFF to dO my assignment~ 0.0 not abit Of excitement can~ argh!! wateva. will be bAcked soOn~

baCked to blog~ finally~ i have been siCk for the past few days. sO all i dO is sleep! plenty of rEst. and i am mUch mUch better~ =D

ok, i shall refresh on last sAt. wEnt to sentosa early in the mornin that dAy to played the RipcUrl stuff. we lOst the fiRst match =( not bEcos they are strOng, jUs tat we Are too slAck. still, i enjOyed myself la. it's the prOcess tats counts. my first bEach vB game =D and i lOve the ripCurl shirt. :)

aND dUe to that, i became black AGAIN. -_-" sinCe i step down of rUnnin n vbAll, alot have sAy i become white. bUt ok, the Black me is bAck. 0.0 good oR bAd? nvm, the skin will peel and i will becOme not that blAck. cant be bother much also. =P anyway, my team mates is hOngtAt, bEn and bObby.

tOday is tiring~ wEnt for trainin but befOre that was havin a quArrel with him. i am really Used to quarrel. dUnno y, seEn like it's already a daily rOutine. we will always quarrel, be it small matter. wateva it is, i jUs hOped it make us better not vice versa. ya, we are already fine by nOw.

after tat wEnt tO NYJC to see coach. it have really beEn quite some time since i see him. missed the good old times when we are still havin 3-4 times trainin a week. wAng lAo shi will be there and we will forever be havin fun despite the tough trainin. ok, it will remain in my memOries. =D and i tink reNa finally went through it. hopefully things have been cleAred up. :) no worries la gal~

ok, projects and exams is all cOmin up. one ICA, one prEsentatiOn and one Quiz for me next week and i tink i am nOt on the tracks. =(( i wished to dO well. please!~ preservance!

i have seen him for the 5th times in schoOl. phew~ sUay ar! i was prayin nOt to even see him ok. i seriously n honestly dun wan to see him in the rest of my life. those who is clOse to me will noe which person i am mentionin. get out of my sight~ oky

tats about it. i will try to blog often but i doubt sO, with all those things comin up how to?
=) pOsitive! i will blog soON~ =D tag me!

class from 9am to 1pm. work from 2pm-9.30pm. i am died -_-" real tired~ hang on hang on.

projects is like never-endin. my time is all tight together. no time for me to rest~
i jus hoped i can go through all this. Oral ICA 2 is indeed badly done. i got my first C. =(( ya, sad. i will do better the next time. =D positive is better. at least in this way i felt much much better =P tHe Quiz was so badly done, but good enough i secure a pass. =) i should be contented.

my in-charge leaved. i am sad, no one accompany me home now. i miss her real lots. =(( fion, thanks for all u have teach me. soon, another 2 will be leaving. i dunno if the others are staying as it only left with 3 of us. it's been so sian to wOrk now. miss!!

von if u are readin tis, i hope u are fine. do get over it soon ok. u always have our support and we will be there for u ANYTIME. =D all the way alright.

gtg~ sis is nagging ALWAYS. =P will update soon.

i shall refresh on how i spend my last sat.

have trainin at yuying, didnt played well~ things dun go my ways nowadays. =( after tat went to meet v.gals.

inital plan was to meet up with vOn and xUe to chat. but we change our venue to causeway point so sUling can meet us after her wOrk. didnt know jO will meet us after tat toO. =D 5 out of 8 turn up, not tat bAd afterall ya? have a great time catching up. its obvious how we all have changed, all in different path now. some wOrkin, the others studying in different poly. still, we gather to talk bout everything. =) great that we are still able tO share bit n pieces of secrets and stuffs.

Xue is starting school soOn, she is taking some casino course. hOpe things do go well for her. =D and hope she did enjoys the little celebration we have for her tat day, it was fun i guess? =P I got her a present too =) HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY!!

As for vOn, she really need to get back to the study tracks. we still have a long way to go, see we are only year 1. all the way alright? =D

JO went to cut her boy boy style again!! she jus dun listen to us. but its good la, at least she like it. ya, tats her. her own style. =)

Suling is now wOrkin~ and i can see happiness in her. finally, i felt happy for her too.

all this good things shall remain. and i must continue to word hard towards my target.

omg~ i hurt my back! and the exams time table is out. i am scared~ i can feel the stress comin now~ -_-"

off to do my project. anyway i make the decision to quit nyp vball team. i dunno whether issit a good idea, but wat else can i do. i have to know wats more important. and i dun see the point in stayin, i am NOT happy in there. tats about all =D i am still the happy me.

anyway FRANCE lost. =( and i lost 5 dollars.

i shall refresh on how i spend my last sat.

have trainin at yuying, didnt played well~ things dun go my ways nowadays. =( after tat went to meet v.gals.

inital plan was to meet up with vOn and xUe to chat. but we change our venue to causeway point so sUling can meet us after her wOrk. didnt know jO will meet us after tat toO. =D 5 out of 8 turn up, not tat bAd afterall ya? have a great time catching up. its obvious how we all have changed, all in different path now. some wOrkin, the others studying in different poly. still, we gather to talk bout everything. =) great that we are still able tO share bit n pieces of secrets and stuffs.

Xue is starting school soOn, she is taking some casino course. hOpe things do go well for her. =D and hope she did enjoys the little celebration we have for her tat day, it was fun i guess? =P I got her a present too =) HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY!!

As for vOn, she really need to get back to the study tracks. we still have a long way to go, see we are only year 1. all the way alright? =D

JO went to cut her boy boy style again!! she jus dun listen to us. but its good la, at least she like it. ya, tats her. her own style. =)

Suling is now wOrkin~ and i can see happiness in her. finally, i felt happy for her too.

all this good things shall remain. and i must continue to word hard towards my target.

omg~ i hurt my back! and the exams time table is out. i am scared~ i can feel the stress comin now~ -_-"

off to do my project. anyway i make the decision to quit nyp vball team. i dunno whether issit a good idea, but wat else can i do. i have to know wats more important. and i dun see the point in stayin, i am NOT happy in there. tats about all =D i am still the happy me.

anyway FRANCE lost. =( and i lost 5 dollars.

sick ytd. terrible headache and sOre throat. i seriously have a phobia fOr headaChe nOw. it's almost killed me ytd~ but the twO extra panadol save me. but all this result in me missin 6hr of lesson. 4hr of statistic and 2 hr of accounting. alright i am guilty. =((

i watched world cup ytd. little did i expect Brazil and england will be out of tOp 4 =( they are the two team i noe more about.

the tOp 4 is left with Portugal, France, Germany and Italy.
ytd, i watched the semi final Germany Vs Italy. i tink its quite boring until it reaches the extra time. the scOre is 2-0, with Italy entering the final. i bet with him Germany will enter final~ -_-" alright, i will own him a free meal. tOday is France VS Portugal. i hoped Portugal will win, cause i still cant figure out why France win Brazil 0.0 i shall see.

wOrldcup is cOmin to an eNd, GOod OR bAd?

Oral lesson is seriously a waste of time, but i dun wished to pon any more lesson so here i am attendin this play cOm lesson. oh, wth =P

alright, tats about all. my doom day is cOmin soon. the semester exam is in mid of August. 1 mth plus left. all the way!~

my birthday~

[[my birthday]] eh actually nth mUch. i just treat it as any other day, happy cOz i am finally 18. can dO alot more stuffs. =P i lOve to have fUn!! hopefully i am not too greedy, i make 3 wishes this yeAr. i wont say it out here, like wat ppl sAy "once u said it out, it will not come true". =D i am praying it all cOme true.

wOrked frOm 10.30am-7.00pm on my dAy, after tat went to meet him to have our dinner. haha, at kopitiam. but wat make my dAy is, we take another neoprints. it's the fifth one after so lOng. =(( it dun really loOk great but he like it, so i like it toO. =P i planned to gO bugis to shop but dUe to his laziness we only gO causeway. -_-" it's my bday, shouldnt i bE the biggest? argh~ i got used to his laziness, no chOice but to give in. he shall be given the title "MR LAZY BUM"!!

todAy go for cca after lesson. despite my home wOrk all undone, i still went. but however i regret gOing. it's unfair to me, and it really make me think its a wasting of time. so wAt if u play better than others? it's not being appreciate. i mayb givin up soOn. i am not happy, tats all i wan say. =((

tats about all, i have a instinct i will do bad for the ICAs comin up. nO!! it shall never happen. i must go do my tutOrials now. 0.0 my life~

i will write bout this sms my friend send me [be HAPPY on your BITHDAY]. i tink its meaningful and sweet. thanks all~

i was wrong. TOTALLY. full with guilt.

he actually did remembered my day. =(( sOrry. i really appreciate ur "surprise". afterall u are still worth it. sorry for my stupid temper and childish thinkin. still, Sorry once again. you are the best. =P

changed my skin during lesson and postin a short post. this showed how boring and wastin of time my lesson are. -_-" i hate IT lesson. only thing i enjoyed is i can use com. wth, poly-life u see.

will talk bout how i spend my bday on the next post. thanks to all fOr ur greeting. i am finally 18. lols. =D

i am on my way quiting this habit of mine. one week since i have blog, like wat i have say "on my way". so be patient with me =P

results taken baCk this week was quite ok, at least i passed all so far. but wat more worrying is Marketing. i noe i have done badly, so i jus have to accept wateva i got and work harder the next time. i am quilty for not studying for tat, at the same time i am regret =( i screw up the Oral presentation too. my teacher was so HONEST to me, know wat she say? "you are worse this time". it make my day real bad, greatly affected by wat she say. one semester have pass but here i am, still not used to poly life. omg!! give me more time if not i jus got to do wat i can. ICAs, tutorial and lectures are driving me crazy. 0.0

i haven been constant in my school trainin too. all in a mess. wth~ grant me 48 hours a day. =D i will be much happier.

i hoped i can do my best for this last yr of mine. i wan to go there and i set my target clear. now, i jus wan to work hard toward it and get wat i deserve. =D all the way!! however, today i felt that i played badly. hais, i really wished to do well. i did tried but the feelin arent there. =(( i will do better the next time and never shall i give up. it affect me the whole day.

nowadays thing are all not going my way. the only thing i can do is try my best. =D ya, i will be optimistic. ahbu n sAb encouragement do works, thanks gals.

i seriously reached my limits. i am really wondering wat he take me as. its my day tml and he jus spoil it like nobody business. i wanted to end this relationship times and times again but i always fail. soft-hearted, have lead me to all this. i dun wan to continue this way. wat i see now is, he is taking me for granted and i seriously hate it. i am not goin to be bother bout this relationship anymore. . . disappointed.

i am eighteen tml, i am going to take my car license soon. =) i shall be happy and not let him spoil it. for he is no longer worth it. i see it clearly now.

memories.

blog~! here i am =D i tink i havent been blogging constantly for this past few month. i will quit this habit and blog often =P

i mention in the last post we will in for second round. yep, we lOst phs alumni in second round but won the other two team so we will in the top 4. cheers =D i am happy la. but wats most worth celebrating is the semi-round game with kolam ayer, we lOst to them in the fiRst round and we have to play against them to get into the final. and . . . we wOn. this game is definitely a great experince to me. i saw everyone preservance in this game, all our mindset was to get them down and went into the final. and despite mOst of us sick, we did it. proud of us-sMb alumni!! we didnt manage to get the champ this time round but a second at least. we tried our best, no regrets ya~ =D now, the tournament have ended, even though not with a very beautiful ending but the process and togetherness will always be remembered i believed. honestly, i damn she bu de my team mates. i truely enjoys the times spend together as a team, a wonderful 3 weeks with them!! will there be a sMb alumni team next year? i really wonder. but i hope we can gather again~ til then, all the best my beloved team mate.
-HuiJun`12
-Ahbu`02
-LishAn`03
-Sabrina`15
-HweeChee`09
-Eva`13
-Liching`07
-kAiNi`11
-JiaYi`10
-LiHan`01
-Me`05 =P
memories your have given me will never be forgotten. =) sMb alumni`2006.

my holiday is endin soon. hais, i have yet to enjoy myself. and i have not go shopping for this whole two week. ARGH~ i wan new clothes!! i only got myself 3 new tops and 3 self-make belt. i shall hoped for a shopping session soon. =P anyway i am getting my pay soon too. yeap~! i started worrying for my home works. half not done. omg~ grant me one more week of holiday. haha, i will seriously go planned for my time. vOlleyball and studies shall be my priority. =D

i arrange for a gathering for violents gals. wondering who will be able to make it. really wish they could turn up. =D I got lots to share. =P

i am actually getting a loss of interests in my school activities. i dunno why. hais, i will make sure i get it back, asap i hoped. but i am very keen on the other side, for it i am willin to work double hard and play my best. wish me lUcks. 0.0

tats about all, and i will blog soon.
sometime, some memories just flood back unknowingly.
i am turnin 18teen soon. yeap!!

recently toO tiRed to blOg. but here i Am nOw =D
thOse ICAs, cOmpetitiOn and wOrk is driving me crazy. lala~ i will hang on and go through it. i got nO choice toO =(

this cOmin 2 weeks holiday is definitely a goOd bonus fOr me, but it seen like i have to used mOst of my time for training, wOrk and most importantly those prOject. 0Mg!!~ still, i will enjoys the trainin.

ok, refresh on my past few week. yeap! we are in for the top eight-second rOund!! super duper happy~ we wOn bukit gov. high 2-0 and jUrong 2-0. cAn see tat everyone is recovin back to our real standard. still, alot more effort must be put in. so jiayou everyone!! sMb alumni rOx. =D i really enjoyed the togetherness despite those little quarrels. wat to sAy? speechless bout those quarrel. i will priortise the competition, as i say we have come so far. its not worth it to give up now. it's not my type to give up anyway. i hoped this will be a memorable match for all of us, esp hweecHee and hUijun. its their last yr so we should make it memorable like last year ya? =) i will try and play my best.

Our lots fOr secOnd rOund: pHs alumni, temasek pOly and singapore school. blessed us with lucks =P

bACked to my sTudies. i am havin a real hard time managing. hAis, i didnt study fOr my marketin module =( real guilty but i heard my whole class pass. i doubt i will score well but thanks gOd i passed. i promise no next time. as for my statistic, i am careless -_-". econs and accounting is quite ok. hopefully will be able to score. tats about it. oOps, i found out tat i missed twO training for nYp. o.o see, i am not a good time-managing person.

hais, recently have a few things bothering me. i really dunno wat to dO. all i cAn do is act as if everything is nOrmal. but deep within, i know we cant be wat we used to be. i reAlly treasue this five yrs of friendship with her but this too mean tat i am equally disappointed. i didnt expect to get this but the fact is wat i see, she didnt even chase up. really got nothing to sAY, i didnt expect our friendship to be so fragile. be it i am sensitive or wat, no One will feel comfortable when ur best friend leave u alone. afterall, i admit its my fault in the beginnin. but who's dun have temper? hais, i shall not mention bout this quarel anymore. let it be the way it wan, i cant do anything. perhaps i will only make things worse. :(

i seriously tink tat i am not good in managing friendship tOo.
tats about all. i suddenly have the urge to meet up some of my old friends. ya, hopefully one day i can do some catching up with them. esp some violent gals. i missed them~ jO, vOn, chel, suling and xue. afterall they are my friends that accompany me throught my hardest time. (: thanks.

he is sick~ =(

finally i am here updatin bout the past few week. (:
simply no time for me to blog. i am occupied with my work, studies and volleyball.

Under 19 started today. wat to say? definitely not a good start for us but there is this sayin right "wan shi qi tou nan" i hope this do imply on us. A bad start but we surely deserve a good endin. or so i think we deserve it. thinkin back bout the trainin which was 8.30am. omg~ and those ti nen, i am comfirm we really deserve "a good ending". backed to the match today. hais, ya we lOst like wat i mention "bad start" first set 22-25 a close fight. second set i 20-25. we cant played out our normal standard. hais but wateva it is, lets put this behind all of us ok. we got to move on and be ourselves. Be wat we really are. other then tat, speechless bout today's game. i must jiayou too!! together with my team. SembawAng Alumni all the way~

ya, i forget to mention our groupin is A.
Kolam aye CSC, Bukit gOvt. high Sec, Jurong sEc. wiSh us lUcks. :D

i quit my previous jOb at bugis village.cUrrently wOrkin in Paragon, with better pay Of cause =P. AHBU is jObless liao, lOls. but in sOme way i find it hard to cope too~ =( still, i will go through this soon. my jOb required formal wearin. omg~ i am lacked of formal wear. and i find out, i am a flat feet. this have cause much suffering to my feet. wth!!

3 ica comin up. i tink i will surely screw them all up. no much preparation. my next week is damn pack. prays i will go through it. -_-"

nothing much to write. not in good mood afterall.
did some cathchin up with ahbu. hope things go well for her. be strOng gal, u still got thw whole team behind u. =D
tats all. bye all~

frOntpage -_-"

while trying to figure out hOw to use the frOntpage on my cOm to create a wEb, i decide to come pOst something. obviOusly, its a projeCt i neEd to hAnd up. if not, who will be interested in frOntpage? -_-" but till now, i still duNno how to dO. how sAd :( anyone can help? i guessed it will be more easier if my front page is in the 2003 edition. haiyo~

i tink i am gOing to change a blogskin soOn. jUs to something simple and clear like the current one.

:( todAy is not a goOd dAy for me. i am nOt happy. and i tink i wAsted the only dAy i am free. i could have used it to acc him aNd my tUtorial stuffs. but i spend a few hours getting angry over small things. like wat i mention, i am easily piss nowadays. this shall not happen everytime. if this have to happen, nOt on sunday then. i wan tO spend this dAy wisely, happily. really gOt to cOntrol~ its shall be over soOn. i am really tryin to adjUst my temper bACk. but at the eNd, everything is still fine. i still spend the dAy with him. i dO my tUtorial toO.

nothing mUch happen. tats all.
time for me to go figure out my frontpage. hais, sian la.
tMl gotta gO school trainin. wish me lUcks man. i am having cramps on my leg again. dUe to the ma bu. .
tml will be a better dAy i believe. :D

*sOrry fOr todAy. tO ah bEn =P

i am feelin down recently. i dunno why, the moment i stop dOin anything i felt kinda sAd. hais, really lost.

haven been updatin the past twO week. simply to busy with my trainings, my tutOrials homeWoRk and my wOrk -_-". wat to sAy, i am tiRed. ya, anyway i find a jOb at bUgis village with ahbU reCently. however, i tink i am gOin to qUit soOn as i found another one, with better pay of cause. =P as in my previous post, i mention a jOb will keep my entertain. so i fOund one! bUt at this point of times, my ICA, prOject and even cOmpetition is all cOmin up. all together~ wat is this? a few week ago, i am rotting at home, a few week later everything come all at once makin me real tired. hais, still i am mOre relieved to have completed the IT project and i pass both qUiz. this is all i can do now, endure~

i am really tired.

last sat and tOday is a goOd one, but i really hate frOg jump. make my leg damn suan lo. here i am complainin =P lala~ but i still lOve sAt la. i can grow thinner, gather with my beloved team mates and really dO lots of catchin up. how i hope this will stay as long as it could. but who's knOw? after cOmpetitiOn, we may not even contact right? hope this will never happen. wateva it is, i jus enjoy NOW!! =D and Liching finally cOme today =) i am happy la. but i need to wOrkl hard, i wan myself bACk!!

sAme like last week, i only gOt my sUnday free. One day out of seven and it have to be use to dO my tutOrial. i hoped i never neglect him. =) i can feel tat my temper is not very stable. i get irritated real easy. i jus feel stress at times when times are always not enought for me. hais, i shall plan it well next time.

eh, ya i went to watch the A'Division final on wEd. i went dOwn to sUpport Nyjc of cos. i really hope they get the champ! althought at the very last moment they never but still i think they tried their best so nO regret. i admire their spirit they have throughout the whOle game. its jus inspire me tat i must dO my best at every match. goOd game definaitely =)

tats all fOr now.
thanks for endurin with my temper. thanks for all the understandin. i noe u dun feel goOd too. things will get better i promise =)
indeed a long post.

FRIENDS~

sianzatiOn~ my time table is so slack, till the extend i am bOred to death at hOme. alright, i jUs need to find sOme thing to entertain myself. i will~ a jOb perhap is the bEst entertainment. yeAp~

nOw i see throught all. i hate to face this harsh reality but still i am willin to accept it. nOt all fRiendship last lOng, sOme of mine is eNdin dUe tO the lAck of cOntact. wOnderin hOw many ppl still cOntact their friend even when they gO separate pAths. gUess it's 4 out of 10. hOw sAd? cANt ppl jUs make the effOrt. however, i am nOt gOin to bOther it ANYMORE. let things be the way it wan, good or bad. i will only be willin to care if the other parties care toO. totally disappointed by wat i see.

tutorial hw is truck lOads and i cant lOg on tO the idiotic E-learnin stuff. it take zillion yrs tO lOad a Quiz. And i dunno how to send it tO my tutOrial-in charge. argh~ so irritatin. anyway, i have officially pon one eCon tutorial. i regreted not passin my crad to mAry :| and i tink i nEed to chase uP with marketin And ecOn~ seriOusly need more attention and practise fOr this two modules.

i went shOppin and jOb huntin todAy. wOnderfUl dAy and hOpefully me aNd bU remain this wAy. this is wat i mean "FRIEND". tats all, i am tired. off to bed. hais, seriously need direction in my life. i am lost.

cOme bAck fAst~

back-ed. i love sat. however today is not a goOd one. cause i dun have cramps. this mean i slaCk. ya, i did. perhaps i have grow lazier. :( i hard to say thAt, but its kind of true. i wan to find the Old me back. my determination and preservance. pls cOme bACk fast!! nO much time to be wasted. i wan to be ME.

my bAck is archin, nevertheless it wont stand in my ways. :| how i wish i was taller. for some kind of reason or another, height is definitely a advantage. i will wOrk hArd!! =D but i supposed i stOp growin liao la.

i wan to find a jOb, i seriously need one. my time table is so slAck and i reAlly felt uncomfortable slackin at home all the times. i need to earn money lols, for toppin up of clothes. and also wOrkin will stOp me eatin sleepin and slackin. however, stayin at home make me speNd mOre times with mum. i love it. bUt this mUst not be the reasOn for me to nOt wOrk. gOin to gO fOr jOb hUntin sOon. wish me lUcks =D.

he is breakin promise now and then. despite the many times of quarrel bOut the sAMe thing, he still nv changed. he knew that i will be wOrried, he knew. bUt he leave me there, wOrryin like hell. sO wats this? And he ate all the 6 nuggets leavin me nOne. argh~ tats my fAV!! =( this shall stOpped!~

i didnt make it in times to gO for the NYP trainin. as i mention mum's birthday will be my priority. i dUn wish to disappoint mum also. i enjOy tat dAy, i nOe mum is happy. so i am happy toO. =)
tats about all. i changed my blog sOng. i tink its niCe.

my dAys. .

finally have a goOd sleep, fRi is thE only dAy i cAn sleep all i wAn. cause i gOt nO schOoL =P. Unlike mOn, wEd and tHur, its all mOrnin clAss. argh! i hate it. bUt~ sO fAr i am still punctual. happy fOr myself, cAuse our attendance need to have 85%. sO it mean i can pOn lesson the other times.

this week passed fAst, i sUpposed next week too. cAuse nO class on thurs as we have to dO E-learnin at hOme, fRi as usual nO school and mOn is pulic hOliday. how good it is =D. this mean i Only need to gO school 2 times next week. hahaha. this week lessOn kinda started seriously with everyone havin the textboOk. those testboOk cOst alOt -_-" i spent 100++ le.

i tink i like the Oral teacher, she is entertainin la. she tell us boUt herself, the Origin of her nAME. is the cOmbined of her husband's surnaMe who is a persiAn and her own chinese nAme. sound interestin huh? others mOdules was still ok, except fOr marketin. i tink i seriously need to pay attentiOn on it despite me tinkin its really bOrin. alright, i will i will. nO, is "I MUST"..

anyway, here a link of a very interesting blog. and i heard it was one of the highly rated being view blog nOw. ok, to be more specified, it's a gAy blog tat attract many's attention includin mine. *they posted their pictures there some mOre. have a loOk - http://colinandkero.blogspot.com .

tats all fOr nOw, gOin to celebrate mum's birthdAy later on. =) i love mUm.
but~ there's trainin later on at NYP. i have yet gO for the trail. in a dilema, still my priority is mUm. (: hopefully, i can rush on time fOr the trainin but most probably i will be late. die~
sAT is arriving. yeap =D happy i am. as i say i love sat.
tats all, wish me a goOd weekEnd.. lala.

old friends.

lOve the neoprints taken yTd. nO reasOn jus lOve it. its the fOurth one taken sO fAr. cOmpare to the fiRst one, i tink tats quite a difference. perhaps its becOz my hAir grEw lOnger and he did sOme cOlouring to his hAir. still, i lOve it. adOre bits and pieces of memOries u given me. still addin on~ till fOreva i hOped. (:

brOught 3 shirt ytd. jus wan to gEt sOme cAsUal t-shirt tO weAr to schOoL. I am mising those wear-the-unifOrm-dAys already. at least i wOnt have to tink of wat to weAr the next dAy or sO. this mAke me think Of the goOd old dAys of my sEcondary schoOl, violents gAls and vOlleyball. haha, lots of memOries cAme floOdin bACk.

after tAt met uP with jO and vOn. wEnt all the wAy to mArina to pass sUling her present. leave after that as we didnt wAn to eAt steambOat. lOls, i nv eat steambOat at there befOre. its true. hOpefully sUling wOnt blame us fOr tat, its the heart that matter rite? i sUpposed we are sincere enOught to gO sO fAR to pass her present :D

did sOme cAtching up with jO and vOn on the wAy backed. its fun listenin tO our life nOw. those poly-happenings. i suspense jO is in lOve with her nerdy bOy. she pay lOts of attention to him ok. so jO lOve nerdy bOy. =P and vOn is lUcky. she nOe wat i am tryin to sAy. =P hAis, it kinda sAd to cAuse v-gAls dUn really meet uP except sOme of us. we break into smAll groUp. i missed the dAy we have, the fUn and togetherness. nOw everything have changed and i hOped it will be bAck. i shAll see. however i believe if we are meant to be fRiend fOreva we will, if nOt no usE dOin mUch and eNd up nths cOme bACk.

alright, i nearly fOrget to sAy all tat mentiOn was ytd.
ya, and i prOmise jO to praise her in my blOg. Jo is a "professiOnal fries shAker". haha, she shake fRies wEll oK.
tats bout all. i am tired.

time tAble.

my time table for semester One.
mOn-9am to 4pm.
tUe-2pm tO 9pm.
wEd-8am tO 1pm.
thUr-9am tO 1pm.
fRi-nO schOoL.
time table was still alright. i hate mOn n tUe, long hOurs. night classes sOme mOre. bUt i lOve fRidAy. its like fOur schoOl dAy, three rEst dAy. ok, nO more complains. i jUs gOt to get used to my time table. hOpefully i wOnt be lATE fOr those eArly in the mOrnin clAsses. i am punctual this whOle weEk. =P MIRacLE~
i jOined vOlleyball as a CCA also. kAini help me signed uP actually cause i was sleepin at hOme. =P cANt blame me. my teacher tOld me it was the week after. see, not my fault! afterall, jus got to go fOr the selectiOn. kinda loOkin forward to it. argh~ i missed vOlleyball. i hate cramps too. :| lucks for me, kaini and Lishan.
tats bout all. i wan saturday to cOme fAster. =X

fiRst dAy.

cramps!! crAmps!! my bACk is aCtin up again. ha, its expected. bUt soon, it will be over =P. jUs a mAtter Of time.
my fiRst dAy of schoOl was alright. feel abit weird cause i barely noe anyone in the clAss. aRgh~ sAd. but soOn this will be over, i hOped so. :| its dUe to the absent in OrientatiOn. nOt that i wan to absent myself, jUs tat i Only gOt my enrOlement pAckage on 12th and 13th is the deathline to sUbmit it. see, i only have one dAy to dO sO many things. thUs, the OrientatioN was on the 12th and 13th. mAyb i shall reAlly sAy i am swAy. at the sAme time lUcky, at least i gOt into a pOly.
i nOe a fEw gALs le. And i tink my clAss peOple are kinda fUnny. its like the wAy they tAlk really very hilarious. lOls. =P "i dUn lOok up On u" sOund funny? fUn. hOpefully, the first yr in NYP will be a fUn one. hOpe to nOe mOre frIend of cAuse. (: alright, i admit i still hAte to be alOne =P
tats all. . . wish me lUck in mY class FS0604. :D

:)

i am bAck. i re-edit the post last time. that time in a rush miss out alot of detAil. =P
ahBu jUs updAte me rEcently tat we will be playin in Under-19 again!! i am happy~ as a team we strive. sMb Ace. 2005 have been a yr of many memOries, hopefully is 2006. jiayOu sMb alumni~ aCe shEng zOng!!
Our team is very mUch like last year. jus add sOme of my juniors. nO matter wats the result, win Or lose, it dUn really matter. like wat my teAm mAte sAy "its the togetherness." i lOve this phrase. sMb vOlleyball have give me a lots of preciOus memOries. ha, i simpLy lOve my team mATes. they are all fun peOple.
-Lishan the laMer. always dOin funNy stUnt u never expEct. bUt she is muScUlar.
-ahBu my 5 yr teAm mate. the fOrever happy go lucky fAce with 0% of temper.
-sAbrina the tall bAnana. she lOve to sMile. great mOtivatiOn!!
-hUijUn Our dA Jie. she lOok firece bUt in fACt she can be very fUnny. =P
-KaiNi oUr ba lU kU. she lOok happy all the time. ha, she is fUN!!
-hweE chee, my ex-seniOr which really mOtivate me AlOT.
-LicHing, my ex-team mate. she lOok quiet bUt she can be very tAlkative. nO one knows :P.
nOt fOrgettin Eva, my jUnior which always have A ? make in her fACE.
afterall, they are jus nice people aNd the bEst team mAte i ever have. acE~~
i am tired today. real tired. prObably cAuse i haven beEn exercisin fOr a whOle of twO month time.
aNyway startin a New school life oN mOnday!! i have been wOnderin, thInkin. . ha, lOokin fOrward to it. hOpefUlly it will be a fUn schoOl life.

.NYP.

argh~ i got posted to NYP-Banking And Financial services (:
so hAppy!!~ sO relieved!!~ yeap. finAlly its nO more wOrries.
its my first chOice. at leAst i got intO the cOurse i am interested.
actUally i already planned to go find a full-tiMe job and wAIT fOr SEcOnd intake bUt~ i called NYP and was told i was offer a course. jUs have to wAit fOr my pAckage to arrivEd. And my jOb huntin turn to a shOppin triP. =P I enjOyed myself that dAy!! nO more wOrries~
this result a big hole in my pOcket. no mOre shoppin this week. to be continue soOn!!~ this mOnth reALLy bUy alot of thing. i m brOke~
for the past fEw weEks Or even mOnths, i am damn trouble. alwaYs thinkin aNd Thinkin. . reAllly glAd all this eNded. (:
lOokin fOrward to the new scHool term. i am gOin to cOntinue mY vOlleyball cAreer there, toOgether with LishAn aNd kAini. :D
hAis, this mean i am nOt gOin to sp. i will sUrely miss ahBu. lets jiayou tOgether. (: hopefUlly we will still keep in cOntact.

argh~going mad.

i got rejected by sp!!~ hais, put all my hope on NYP. but i wrote appeal letter to sp, nyp and tp. hopin it will hElp in sOme way Or another. pls, take me in. really going mad one day, damn worried, damn scare, damn sad, damn regret. mixtures of alot of feeling. hais, when is this gOin to end. dAys after days, week after week. i am really gotta reach my limits. stop this torturin man~ god bless pls. praying hard~ i leave all this to fate. i really need some time to have fun. jus fun, no more worries. but obviously its hard. i love to tink and i tend to tink alot. tats ME~ hais, seen like i cant settle down and focus on anything now. this explain my bad temper recently. enough Of this. wil be back, ):

wat a day.

hais, still haven receive. . . damn worrying. let it be.
recently jus went to a1 chalet. was quite alright but it will be better if escape is open. wat a waste, we got free tickets~ was playing pool all the way, other then that stay at chalet play stupid but entertainin game. the one which we pour shampoo on our head one. i play the x-box games, one of which is bout the beach volleyball one. i tink i sucks at it, i only won one out of dunno how many times with the help of Jin hANg. haha, thanks huh. i went home earlier, only stay one night. (:
unhappy things happen again and again, i nv imagine it will be that worse. hopefully thing like that wont happen to me again! wat the hell. its so unreasonable. pissed off.
ended. in a good way mayb. speechless.
all the best.
i dun hate to be alone anymore. (:

nO mOre wOrk!!~

finally i qUit my jOb, i shOuld have done it earlier. jus felt tAt i m veRy, extremely, unfAIrly treATed. nOt happy wOrkin there n hOw mUch will i be cOmmitted? sO to end it is the best alternative. nOw it have cOme to an eNd, really fElt relieved n hAppy. i prOmise myseLf i wOnt wOrk baCk the same jOb, or wOrkin fOr the sAme boss. bUt still all the beSt to them. never lOok bAck. ok, enoUght of jOb.
till nOw, my appeal have not cOme~ =( how sAd!! fRiends oUt there pls prAYs for mE. anyway, reAl happy for all my fRiend who have received thEir appeal. can imagine hOw wOrried u guys are esp yUn. so cOngrats.
wEnt shoPpin ytd, brought quite a few stuffs. spend 100++ dOllars. omg! i m very brOke. went shoppin with mEiMei n bU recEntly only leh. but i enjoy myself alot. =)true friends never stay apART. so happy to be in cOntact with lichiNg. (: hais, but still everytime i shOp i will kinda drift to tink og my pOly stuff. pls, take me in!! bAnkin n finance~
tats for all nOw.
oOps, ya. sMb b`gAls 2006 gOt into nAtional top 4. n i mean it, its nAtional. so prOud of them. wishes thEm all the best. jiayOu sheng zhong aCe. all the way ya!~

wAitiNg. . .

bAck-ed. gUessed i have alOt mOre to updAte. althought i am kindA slOw but at least i m here writin nOw =P.
alright, the JAE resUlt is Out on 3rd mArch. was waken up by mIngwEi, tellin me the resUlt is Out. at the next mOment, i was sitted infrOnt of the cOm. chEckin. . gUessed wAt? the screen shOwed "erRor". special cAse. lOls.
i recalled i cAnt participate in JAE so why am i so anxious? lOls. so sinCe i wAke up, i cAlled my fRiend to Ask fOr their pOstin. eSp. my vOlleyball team mAte. mOst of the infOrmatiOn i gOt it frOn miNgwEi la. hAha, he's busyin hElpin others. anywAy shaould thANks tO him fOr infOrmin mE (:
oK, ahBu gOt intO sp. so is xiAo lAodA. tats great (: so hOpefUlly i cAn get inTo sp toO. bUt my six sense tells me, nYp chAnces is higher. basically bEcos sP didnt take my cCa stUffs, bUt nyp have it all. thus the cut-off pts in Nyp is Higher. bOth i still prAys i can get in. i jUs wan to get intO bankin n finance~ =) of cos sp will be a better alternatives.
huitiNg n jO got into sp tOo. business admin. vOn also sP, aero wat one. lOls, she will be the first female pilot mayb? i dunno wats tat. but cOngrat to them la.
nOw i am still wAItiN fOr my DAE. gOd bless.
tats all fOr now. =)

finally result is Out. . .

long time since i put up a post.
indeed i had a lots to update.
ok, talk bout my O level resUlt. i score 15pts fOr R4 n 19pts fOr R5.
eNglish B4
sCience B4
mAths B3
cOm hUmilities B3
Chinese B3
Poa A2
=) i m happy fOr myself. at leAst i tRied my best in a way Or anOther :P
bUt~ gUess wAt? my blue slip wRote I cant participate JAE as i m bein directly admitted to Jc becos of e DAE-JC.
the DAE-JC stuff happened last yr mid june. we wEnt fOr tat cAuse of vOlleyball. but i didnt knew the consEquences wAs tat we cannot chOose to gO poly if we are abLe to gO jc. i really regretted signin uP. at the saMe time i find it hard to fAce cOach n of cOs nyjc volleyballer. still, i reAlly hOpe they understand my stAnd. without a A maths fOundatiOn, i doubt i can survive in there cause i wEnt to the H1 maths befOre. aNd i dun understand ANYTHING.
the dAy i toOk my resUlt. was really in a mixture of feElin. hapPy, sAd, guilty. . .
i wEnt to appeal for DAE poly. i went to sp n nyp.
1st chOice-bAnkin n finance. both my first choice in both poly is the same.
i mus really prays cause the DAE intake nOt much i guessed. gOd bless!!
tats all fOr nOw. will update soOn. (:
anyway here are some picture on a "ou xiang ju" named [er mo zai shen bian].
highly recommend!! love it lots. =)