have i dOne wrong?

bein true. goOd or bad? hais, mess.
dUnno whether wat i have dOne is right or wrOng bUt i tink i walked the cOrrect step. at least i m true to myself. the rest i will leave it to fate. bUt my mind is jUs in a big mess.
recently really hard to get into the moOd for study. i got no much time le. tired of repeatin tis phrase bUt have yet to spend pooductive time in my studies. tis cant goes on fOr sure. shall see how. i would repeat this again, if sO i can jus go knock my head against the wall. better still.
i wan back the cheerfull self. stress-free please!
-Jing