finally exams is over. lucks for my paper =D wat done cannot be undOne so i will jus wish myself good lucks.

holiday!! one month plus before another sememster~
things to dO in holiday
1-spend more times with my family (:
2-earn more money and do loAds of shopping
3-start saving $$
4-register for basic theroy *step to car license
5-prepare for thailand trip, train well n hard!!
6-meet up with violents gals and frens
7-chalets, kbox, poOl~
I am going to enjoys myself to the fullest. finally stress-free~ =D

went to see snake on plane ytd, quite a nice show but its show just 1 hr 45 min. make me feel tat travellin by plane is so terrifying. omg!! wanted to catched "ghost game" soon~

seriously speakin, i dun really loOk forward to the trip cause i have to leave home for 10 days, i will surely miss my mum!! =(( i jus hate the feelin. but it's will be a good experience for me there i tink. haiyo~

things didnt go well for us. i am tired of the everyday-quarrel relationship. i know i may be the one at fault but i am not feelin good at all. hais~ once and for all? argh!!

got to wOrk tml, off to watChed vcd "ah wAng xin ji". nice and super cUte show. tats about all. anyway i change my skin. will put a song with it soon~

once again BACK!!

we are back-together. i noe i am undecisive. but ya its me, i just cant bear to let go. and in some way, i tink he is still worth it.

but mayb its not a wrong decision? i can see he is tryin to change at least. ya, and hopefully he did change. =D i will be waiting. and he will assure me my decision is not wrong.

he promised me to change for the better. and i am happy =))

really thanks those who have given me advice and enciuragement. it did help. greatly appreciate~ thanks huh!!

shall talk about exams. omg!! omg!!
i tink i need to do my paper faster. i always cant finish. and ya, my econs have 20 marks flying aways =( i believe statistic have 15 marks flying aways too. NOT ENOUGH TIME ar. quite saddening but much relieved after those exam finished. phew~ i will do faster for my pOa paper i swear. i dun wan 4 in a row not enough time to finish.

no more late nights and obaka after all this~ i need alot alot of sleep. =) and wednesday is my last paper. lucks to myself. and here comes the 1 month plus holiday. yep!~ i wan to meet up with old fren, chit chat and shop~ anywan available?

i hope a B for this 4 subject. cause i am well-prepared to welcome a D for IT. i am praying much for a C. -_-"

PRAY for mr chew chon wee too!! he finish his paper in 30 min today. 0.0 he admit he is not confident too. omg!! he tried his best so wat i can do is pray for him.

off to tv, and revision for poa later. i am already slackin before holiday. omg~ =P
MISS VOLLEYBALL.

single once again.

from the moment he shout right into my fAce.
we will nv be bAck. no mOre soft-heart, or cant let go.

i tink i am really stUpid.
i always give him chances after chances cause i cant let go. but in the eNd wat dO i get? nOthing! i never see any changes in him.

bUt sometimes i jUst told myself, nvm. all he neEd is times. times for him tO understand aNd change one dAy. but we have beEn together fOr 1 year, i see nothings. i dUn feel that he understand me, dun feel that my care is being appreciated. wOrse, i felt tat he dUn even treasure me.

every prOmise he break, i forget about it and move on. cause i noe nO one is prefect neither am i. i know in a relationship we got to give and take. but everytime i give in, he become demandin~ then wats i am suppose to dO? i noe he is havin a hard time tolerating my temper, but so am i!~ why is he always seeing the bads things, and forget about the goOd things. now i knew, all my care and cOncern is jUs rubbish.

why cant he understand some thing i sAy is out of anger? why cant he jus understand how i feel? to me, tat incident will nv be erase. so stop forcing me. i am not feElin goOd either. i jus simply sAy wat i see. u cant possibly make me understand by not tellin me a single thing~

i should have been firm and not turn back the last time we have quarrel. i knew we will be quarrelin again n again. till the extent it affect my exams. and this time its the semseter exams, yet this is how he help me.

its hard to let gO i noe. afterall its a 1yr relationship but this time rOund " i knEw we will never be bAck"
soft-hearted jus leAd me nowhere. i truely understand. but its really hurt to know only now that we are not suitable.
perhaps its a good thing to end it now. i know i jus got to be strong.

ITS REALLY ENOUGH, GET OUT OF MY LIFE.

superbAnd~

MICROSOFT ACCESS is driving me crazy. i really dUnno how to do, nOt to mention the cOmin up ICA. i doubt i will fail it. i am in a state of giving-up-but-scare-regret. hais. dAmn it.

a wasted dAy i tink. nO revisiOn dOne. wEnt for trainin today after nOt touching any balls fOr two week. well, feElin was still there. bUt my first ball was #$%@!& still, i enjoy the trainin. sAb was having the sAme mind set as me, we was tinkin to continue playing vball anot after the thailand trips. ya, everything will be after the trip. indecisive~

i am kinda giving myself stress which was extRa. mayb it was becAuse i wanted to scOre. bUt i see it through~ let things be the way it want. i jUs dO my bEst. i am gOin on a shOppin tRip soOn~ =D i need to relax myself, lOls. not an excUse. i nv like stress. the resUlts will be opposite. sO ya, shoppin is healtHy =P

sO NO MORE HAIS. i watched the SuperbAnd final jUs nOw. milubi is the winner :) i sUpport lUcify at the beginnin bUt after watchin i tink Milubi deserve tO win. still, J3 vOice rOx~ and sOul dance is great.

tats all~ off to talk phone =)

Oral ICA~

i finished the LAST oral presentation which was on Persuasive speeCh. i simply screwed it up at the Question and Answer Session. i know my team mates will some how bE unhappy in a wAy or anOther. =(( ok, i am sOrry. bUt it jUs come to mY miNd, answer fIrst. it wAsnt a veRy difficUlt questiOn bUt i answer it wrOng due to some misunderstanding. i miss the LAST word of the qUestion and resUlt in all this. 0.0 wth!!

Question: whEn will your finish the school's training?

Answer: so i start sAying about we neEd dOnation befOre we can start planning the building of the classrooms etc. .

but i missed the wOrd TRAINING. disaster!!

aNd i jUs sAy out my answer and the mEan Oral teacher sAy i will give 0 marks for the anSwer. i tRied to expain to her but she make a big fUss out of it. after whiCh i jUs say sOrry and keep qUiet. deEp within i am really toleratin!! my Other grOup member help me with the answer and i hOpe it did hElp~ :) thanks khatinja~ the Oral teacher really make me felt awkward and i seriously think there's nO sUch NEED! wateva, i hoped to at least get a 35 marks. i will jUs pray.

seriously, Oral cOmmunication is really a WASTE-OF-TIME module. =D jus agree with me.

we quarrel ytd~ =(( til 5 plus in the morning. my lesson for today starts at 8am~ after which i got to wOrk til 9.30pm. real tired~ anyway, i only reach schOol today at 10am. i misssed accounts, ya i am mUch guilty =(( hais. but i only slept 4 hr like tat. i am a lazy bUm can. today will be quite a worse day for me. late for wOrk some more. =(( omg.

i was really dOwn on luck today, i forget to bring my speeches for the presentation and in a hurry i rUsh down to print. as expected, long wait. finally it was my turn, yet the com cannot detect my thumb dRive. then the autie jus say go other block, computer is dOwn. -_-" obviously i rush to the opposite block and get my work dOne. in cOnclusion, no more last min jOb. terrible feelin~

ya, today will be a bad day. i am prepared.
be optimistic, tats all i can do. =D

Afterall i really dun wish to give up on him. but he kept disappoint me times and times. speechless~