njyc trainin..

sAt again~ waKe up early in e mOrnin fOr e maths remediAl, it last two hours 7.30-9.30am.. afterall it was a important lesson as we actually finish all the stuffs bout vectors, quite a interestin lesson.. went to talk wit vOn, huitin n rAchel after tat.. haha, we talk fOr a few hours befOre headin back home.. they tell me alots of stuffs bout BGR, i did sAid some too.. cannOt really judge a boOk by its loOk ba, nOw i really understand its meanin.. thankss cHel!~ n vOn, cheer up since its all e past rite =).. we mUs get over all our pAst tense n loOk fOrward our fUture tense? after reachin hOme, have a bath n went straight out to meet ahbU le.. gOin to nyjC to trAin, got to nOe tat they gOt into e finals =D happy fOr them.. prAys for them for their champ, all the wAy~ i enjoy todAy trainin! it was quite bOrin at first bUt the lAst set we played is a enjOyable one.. haha, i played attacker today.. once in a blue moOn~ as i always played setter.. went hOme around 11 plus after the "gatherin".. lOls, it became a habit tat we always went to talk after out trainin till late.. we can actually talk boUt anything under e sUn.. i lOve the wAy it is =).. bUt qUarrel wit bRother tOday, -_-" it wAs e first time he shOw sUch a attitude.. siAn half, or should i sAy i m sAd? fOrget it bA, i jus nOe i dislike e feelin it is.. over le..

. . .

. . . nths to sAy today.. wat e hell m i tinkin? trOubled~ tml is spOrts dAy le, gOod lUcks fOr all e 5a3rians.. tC all, shortest blOg ever..

early dismiss~

sAd~ first time fail a listenin? -_-" i myself also dUnno wat happen.. i mUs really see e answer, didnt expect to fAil.. even my teacher is feelin weiRd y my listenin so weAk.. hAis, can only an wei myself tis is not o level.. i mUs really bUck up! bUt i really dUnno how cOme i fAiled.. sAdistic me~ hais, gOt to get over sOon.. siAn hAlf.. once in a blUe mOon, todAy early dismissal-12.30pm.. but i dUn feel hAppy, quite sAd over my resUlts.. tat's my day, prOmised tO wOrk hArd~

lOng dAy~ bOred!

gOtta be a lOng dAy as expected.. sian hAlf~ free periOd for pE n english, teacher absent plus fOr pe we have already cleAr e 2.4km rUn.. slAck~ bUt i m feelin sick, perhaps after e sEntosa trip.. flu n cOugh, my vOice obviOusly changed.. bUt next week is e mid-yEar exams le.. -_-"fOllow by chinese o level-30th mAy, i mUs get well soOn.. need alOts of energy fOr bUrnin midnight oil.. after recess start to feel even tirin cause of e flu, bUt still playin around.. haha, tat's me.. gOt listenin todAy, n a chinese test tml.. told us today n expected us to learn so mAny woRds, -_-"pEngz aR.. should try hard then~ went to the tAlk bout chinese examinations tips, damn borin.. nOt mUch is listenin after some times, get away easily.. tAt's my dAy bA, get well soOn mAn~

sUndAy!

wAKe up at eleven todAy to meet zY.. i m tired cAuse ytd was a tirin dAy, plUs four am then slp.. my weekend is gOne~ nvm, i will be lOokin fOrward to next weekend =P.. will be able to slack n sleep.. hOpe zy is mUch better ba~ he sOund sAd ytd night or should i sAy tis mOrnin 3am when he sms me.. bUt tink he is mUch better le bA, cheer up =)~ we wAlk all the to cAusewAy fRom admiralty mRt, sO hOt sOme more n "near".. at least, i dUn feel weird le.. cAuse first time talk to him in reAl persOn kinda scare n bU gAn.. lucky he is qUite talkative, after tat when to sUn plaza plannin to find wee hOng.. haha, it was a waste tRip.. lOls, he keep sAyin he can pUll the bAsketbALL ring.. tRue mA, or u tink tOo mUch? sO prOud! haha, went to talk at my hOuse de vOid dEck.. i give him a ultraman stickers, cUte lO.. afterall, i jUs hOpe he wOnt be in depression anymOre.. if nOt jian an sUffer, plus all ur friend so wOrry for u.. pei him to mRt after tAt.. my bOdy is still bUrnin, mY face~ tats my dAy ba~ tC all..

sEntosA~

todAy was a tirin dAy.. lOls, went to sentosa wit kOkping, edwin they all plUs gals gOt sAbrina n ahbU.. fUn afterall, dRank alot of sea wAter.. eyes dAmn pain, n sO fUll-_-".. haha, whO called me dUnno how to swim.. other than tat we still play vOlleybAll, sAw fUkang there.. its fUn, the tOuch of e bAll is different frOm the nOrmal vOlleybAll we have been playin.. mAyb one is indOor anOther is sAnd ba, liked to see thOse li hAi de ppl plAy.. we are all sUn-bUrned(><,), dAmn chao tA now.. i m already so black n even blacker, lOls.. whole face plus shoulder n baCk pAin, sO is ahbu n sAb.. mOst important we did enjOy =D.. wEnt to sUling's birthdAy straight after tAt, qUite bOred cAuse dUn feel like dOin anything too tired le.. oOps, lucky sUling dUn have my blOg~ nv eAt the bBq, Jus drink wAter lO.. tAke sOme photos wit viOlents gAls n a little gAl.. dAmn ke ai e little gAl, she like to liaten to my mp3.. yEp, talk to "Uncle pAnda" at night.. enjOy e chAt, my new fRiend.. he like to sAy "fine fine fine" n sOund sO fUnny, plUs cOpy me act china.. bUt i tink i hAi him sLp sO late.. sOrry~ Uncle pAnda.. tat's my dAy.. hOpe everyOne is hAppy always..

yeap~ fRidAy! !

yeap, its fRidAy again~ i lOves fridAy, the study hOurs is shOrt n its weekeNd once again.. todAy haVe twO test-cHemistry n mAths.. hOpefUlly i cAn pAss my chemistry, i will be happy enOugh.. fOr my mAths, aRgh~ i m cAReless i nv see e "nO replacement".. gOt to lOss a few mArks on tat, afterall it's ok lo.. Jus need to reAlly bUck up fOr chemistry-wEakest sUb of all.. fOr mAth, cARefUl! haha, todAy we sAbo the birthdAy gAl-Denise.. -_-"gUess wAt we bUy fOr her, haha.. 17 pAds, so fUnny n disgUstin mAn we write on e pAds.. nOt only e gALs, the bOys write too =P.. haha, we becOme sO united.. wEnt to fUll all e bOttles we hAve, nOe wAt we gOin to dO~ lOls, the study prOgramme is cAncel todAy so right after school e "bAttle" begin.. we all pOurs e wAter at Denise, even nUraini, sUfina n shelia plAyed.. i like e teAm work we have, grEat~ i tink all of us enjOys, esp dEnise gOt so wEt.. i m e unfortuanate one kAna hUg by her.. lOls, so is hUiting.. lAugh at me la, obee!! tink she gOin to kill me if she see tis cAuse i stand there lAughin at her when she gOt cAugh(nn').. wEnt hOme straight after tat tO rest, abit tired n dUn feel like gOin oUt.. k lA, overall a fUn n relaxin dAy.. enjOys every single one of them.. cheerss~

coOl~  

ultraman agAin~ =P 

shOrt put..

Omg(><,) wake up with a terrible gastric pain todAy.. the same feelin is bAck, the sAme pain.. i hate tat.. sms mrs lAu i will be late, in case she thought i nOt comin to school.. was sufferin from e pain till 8 plus then went to school.. -_-"pOa teacher absent, i m worried for tis subJect.. the pain cOme back dUrin reCess, dAmn sufferin.. nOt damn eat hOt n spicy stUffs le.. yep, i tink i m becomin to like chemistry? nO, i shOuld sAy i like to dO e experiment.. hAha, find e cAtion n aniOns stUffs.. fUn~ weNt to shOrt pUt heats afTer schOol, sO many peOple-30plUs ba.. hesitate tO jOin 100m or tat, cAuse i m clOse in gettin e individUal bEst.. eNd up choose shOrt pUt, wan to tRy new things ma.. afterall, i find it some thing nEw n enjOy it =).. kAini wAs the cHamp, she is gOod.. fOllow bY ahbU, Haha all vOlleybAll players leh.. happy for them, my dearest team mAtes.. it's goOd we are still clOse as a TEAM~ =D i gOt 5th, it's goOd enough i sUppOsed.. tat's my dAy~ lUcky i wEnt to schoOl todAy, lOads of hw n new lessOn tAught.. yEp, ytd i hAVe a very weiRd dReam.. anywAy, its jUs a drEam shall nOt tink too mUch.. happy everyOne~

fAv. stUffs.. lOads of memOries, pi li pa la wU~ 

hAis..

todAy was a relax dAy fOr me~ nO study prOgramme, haha.. i need some rest, tried after all those wOrks n hEats ytd.. my leg didnt crAmp, lUcky.. wEnt to hElp mrs gOh in sOme stuffs then wEnt straight hOme le.. wAs happy to reCeive sARAh's mSg tellin me she gOt 1st fOr the lOng Jump~ her cOnfidence is bAck, hOpefully her determination is cOmin her wAy~ Jiayou, be there fOr u always =D.. after nOein her fOr one yr pLus, i started to find her a good friend, thankss fOr ur encOuragemeNt all tis while.. it's reAlly helps.. bUt wz sms me tellin they lOse their bAsketbAll mAtch whIch is importAnt to them n shOuldnt hAve lOst.. *sigh.. he sOund sAd n nO mOrale.. till night he still sOund e sAme, he tell me lOsin this mAtch hAVe a big impaCt on him.. i tRied to chEer him up, hOpe its hElp ba.. (",)pi li pa la wU~ i nv expeCt him to be tAT SAd.. bUt jUs hOpe he gEt over it asap, tis is life n we jUs gOt to accept it.. i leARn to accept reAlity le, after havin sO mUch regrets~ hAis, rEmind me of my vOlleybAll n x-cOuntry again le.. bUt i leArn to fang kAi le, in life we need to gO through everything.. be it happy or sAd one.. tAt's my dAy bA~ pray fOr wz fRi's mAtch.. all e best~ *dO ur best n hAve nO regrEts..

Argh~ cUtess!! =D 

sPorts dAy heAts agAin..

-_-" my leg is like crampin n today have to rUn e 3000m finAl.. lOls, nO choice bA.. stUdyin e whOle dAy, damn tired.. vOn n huiting decided nOt to gO at e lAst mins, haha.. lUcky rAchel was nOt there if nOt. . . they r like explAinin to me why they dUn wAn gO~ sCare i will angry etC, haha bUt i didnt la.. i mySelf also vEry reluctAnt to go =P.. its like dAmn tired after a whOle dAy of studyin.. rAChel wEnt straight after schoOl to YJc le, haha she is so excited bOut her rAce.. eNd up i wEn there alOne, thankss to vOn n Huiting -_-".. rAchel hAVe beEn sayin it fOr the whOle dAy, she wAn to get 2nd fOr three years.. when i rEach Yjc i sAw wz, so coincidentAl.. didnt expect n he sms me tellin me mUs qualify, Haha.. thankss, bUt it's e fiNal le.. afterall i m hAppy by tat.. rAChel did get 2nd again~ cOngrats!! i tink she is hAppy cAuse she hOped chewseAh cAn cOme n see her rUn.. indeed chewsEah was there~ fOr my rACe, i get wat i wAn~ hAppy bUt i nOe my standard drOpped lAst yr my timin wAs 14plUs, nOw is 15.09.. but i tink my preservance is there.. my fRiend is dAmn sAd, she is e oNe tat i always tRain together with.. she didnt get bAck her determination which is very important to her.. i hOped she dun give up~ like wat she told me dUrin nAtional x-cOuntry it's nOt e eNd, we still gOt nationAl tracks.. sArah, hOpe u get over tis n mOved on.. we will always be there fOr each other rite? sO get over it soOn n find bAck ur determinatiOn.. i m sUre u cAn~ JiayOu! sAbrina gOt 2nd ytd, tink she cAn get e individUal chAMp~ all e bEst.. wEnt tO bbAll cOUrt to find tat idiotic kOkping tat break his prOmise twice.. '-'haha, msg with wz todAy.. tellin me tat he wOn a bball match ytd.. sOrry, i didnt wishes u lUcks.. so gOody lUcks fOr tml, i wAit fOr ur results.. =) tC everyOne.. mIss vOlleyball'-'.. i m stARtin to have weird weird feelin nOw, omg(><,)..

preciOus memories~ nv fOrget all Of em.. 

moOdy mOndAy~

mOndAy cOmes again~ i dUn reAlly like mOndAy, veRy lAzy On mOndAy.. bUt nO slAckin anymOre, my O level chinese is cOmin my wAy.. sTudy~ gOt to be a lOng dAY fOr me, nOw is like everydAy havin stUdy progrAmme tO prepaRe us fOr mid-yeAR etc.. i find it tirin to study fOr sUch lOng hOurs.. from mOrnin all e wAy to 4 or 5 pm, will die.. by tat time brAin stp fUnctionin liao =p.. haha, lUcky todAy study prOgramme is Chinese.. cAN Say is mY fAv. sUb.. i wAnt to scOre in tis sUbJect, rEaLLy~ pRays fOr me mAn, stArt stUdyin fOr cOmpO liao.. e sTudy programme end around 3.30-4pm, was infOrmed tat my x-cOuntry is cANCEl.. *relieved~ cAn rest, i m rEally very tired.. yep, todAy dUrin pe we did nAFa e 2.4km rUn befOre tis wAs to trAil fOr the 4*100m rUn.. haha, we gOt the best recOrds.. my 2.4km recOrds drOpped le, 12.11.. bAd~ lAst yr 10.1, haha see e big big differences.. nAHz, Afterall its an A =).. bUt my ankle hUrts~ -_-"gOt finAl fOr 3000m tML some mOre.. tink i mUs wEar e ankle thing to tighten it le.. tAt's my dAy.. best of lUcks to everyOne..

tOng hUa lyrics.. nIcess sOng~ 

kBoxin..

-_-" wOke up eArly todAy, to gO to ang mO kio sing kbOx.. silly? lOls, long time nv gO out wit liChing le.. we went tO ang mO kio kbOx, wit Jiayi n lishAn.. was dAmn sleepy cAuse slp less thAn 6 hOurs.. my obAka~ wAt a weekeNd mAn, nOt enought slp fOr two constAnt dAys.. O.O tis is me, haha.. my dAy? tired tat's for sure.. enjOy singin, lala~ was fUn to mix with lishAn tis siAo chao bO.. gettin better wit her, find her some one i cAN tAlk my things to w/o feARin she will sAy out.. a very trustworthy persOn, understandin toO.. =D gOt lOads to cAtch up wit licHing too, we tAlk bOut vOlleybAll etc.. she understand me i shOuld sAy.. haha, i still remember "257".. ahBu[2] me[5] n liching[7].. n cOme to JiaYi~ tis gAl always cOMe n tell me she today very hAppy.. -_-" to her, everydAy is a hAPpy dAy ba.. greAt~ wEnt to mOs after tat to dO hw, hARd to concentrate wit tat sleepin brAin.. bUt good enought, i finish my english.. the nKf shOw todAy, touchin.. at e beginnin thought it may nOt reach it aims cAuse e dOnation amOunt is mOvin slOw.. bUt at lAst they reAch their aims!! yeAp~ happy fOr the needy.. tAt's my dAy~ nOt lookin fOrward to tml a tiring dAy tat's y.. argh~ i hATe stUdy prOgramme!!

at kbOx~ fUn!! 

yeap~ sAt again!!

today need to dO cip, haha neArly fOrget.. thankss fOr huiting's sms, it's a reminder to me mAn.. wAke up at 11 plus, Omg(><,) it is dAmn early.. some more weekeNd should let me slp lOnger, argh~ obaka is damn obvious now due to e lAck of sleep.. wEnt to meet them at canberra sec, was given 200 leaflet to give at ps.. -_-" cAuse we cAme late, was mUch place left fOr us.. yep, the cip is to give leaflet fOr the nkf.. issit it greAt? cAn help those nkf.. i reAlly admire their cOurage~ bUt thankss to bEn's idEa we went tO those sembawAng areas n pUt e leaflets into ppl's letterbOx.. hais, but guessed wat i sAw? a stacks of leaflets inside a rUbbish bin.. wat e hell? those mei liang xin de rens, they r jus nOt dOin their pArt.. wEnt to bishan after tat, tinkin to bUy present fOr suling.. her birthday is fallin on tis 23th.. bUt didnt find things tat sUit her, perhaps all of us nOe she have different taste.. was afraid wat we tink she will like, she may not.. so best is aSk her out on tAt dAy to pick her presEnt.. =D, wEnt to talk at lOng jOhn bOut "interestin stUffs".. we create a lOads of jOke abOut those "stuffs", haha reAlly crAps.. went straight to trAinins after tat, i enjOys today trAinin.. haha, mayb cAuse i cAn train my defend? i did play setter bUt jus at e beginnin after tat i play defense all e way le.. haha, mei mei cAme to trAInin today.. it was like "finAlly".. but she didnt play la, afterall it is already quite late le then she cOme.. Our alumni jersey is Out le, fUll white asics de lo.. rEally lookin forwArd to under 19 =p, goin to hAVe loads of fUn i supposed.. anyway heard nyjc is winin 2 match le, cOngrats.. i will prAy fOr them to beAt all their opponents.. get champ!!~ tat's my dAy, tired bUt i enjOy it.. *i like my new green hAIR BaNd, haha..

fairy tales dUn exist??  

mEaningfUl~

Wind

Becoz I like a gal called leaf.

Becoz she's so dependent on tree so I hv 2 be a gust wind.

A wind tt will blow her away.

When I 1st met her, it was 1 mth after I transfer 2 the new school.

I saw a petite person looking at my seniors & me playing soccer.

During ECA time, she will always be sitting there.

Be it alone or wif her friends looking at him.

When he talks with gals there's jealousy in her eyes.

When he looked at her,there's a smile in her eyes.

Looking at her became my habit.

Juz like she likes 2 look at him.

1 day, she didn't appear.

I felt something a missed.

I can't explain the feeling except it's a kind of uneasiness.

The senior was also not there as well. I went 2 their classroom, hid outside and saw my senior scolding her.

Tears were in her eyes while he left.

The nxt day, I saw her at her usual place, looking at him. I walked over and smiled 2 her.

Took out a note & gave 2 her.

She was surprised.

She looked at me, smiled & accept the note.

The nxt day, she appeared & pass me a note and left.

Leaf's heart is too heavy and wind couldn't blow her away.

It's not tt leaf heart is too heavy.

It becoz leaf nv want 2 leave tree.

I replied her note wif this statement and slowly she started 2 talk 2 me & accept my presents & phone calls.

I know tt the person she loves is not me.

But I hv this perseverance tt 1 day I will make her like me.

Within 4 mths, I hv declared my love 4 her no <20 times.

Every time, she will divert away from the topic.

But I never give up. If I decide I want her 2 be mine, I will definitely use all means 2 win her over.

I can't remember how many times I hv declared my love 2 her.

Although I know she will try 2 divert but I still bear a small ray of hope.

Hoping tt she will agree 2 be my girlfriend.

I didn't hear any reply from her over the phone.

I asked "what r u doing?How come u didn't wan 2 reply?"

She said, "I'm nodding my head".

"Ah?" I couldn't believe my ears.

"I'm nodding my head" She replied loudly.

I hang up the phone, quickly changed and took a taxi and rush 2 her place & press her door bell.

During the moment when she opens the door.

I hugged her tightly.

Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay..

sMb`vOlleybAll 2004.. b bOys n gAls.. *cheers.. 

sMb vOlleybAll alwAys.. my memories always.. =)) 

intErestin~

During Pre-U days, I like 2 collect leaves.

Why?

Becoz I felt tt 4 a leaf 2 leave the tree she has been relying on 4 so long it takes a lot of courage.

During the 3 years of Pre-U I was on very close terms with a guy.

Not BGR kind but as buddy kind.

But when he had his 1st girlfriend, I learnt a feeling I nv should hv learnt - Jealousy.

The sourness in the heart can't be describe by using a lemon.

It's like 100 rotten sour lemon.

Sourness 2 the extreme limit.

They were only 2gether 4 2 mths.

When they broke up, I hide my strong sense of happiness.

But after a mth, he got 2gether wif another gal.

I like him & I know he like me.

But why won't he pursue me? Since he love me why he doesn't want 2 make the 1st move?

Whenever he had a new girlfriend, my heart would hurt.

Time after time, my heart was hurt.

I begin 2 suspect tt this is a one sided love.

If he don't like he, why does he treat me so well.

It's beyond what u will normally do 4 a friend.

Liking a person is very heart wrenching thing.

I can know his likes, his habits.

But his feelings towards me I can nv figure out.

You can't expect me a gal 2 ask him right?

Despite tt, I still want 2 be by his side.

Care 4 him, accompany him, love him.

Hoping tt 1 fine day, he will come & love me.

It's like waiting 4 his phone call every night, wanting him 2 send me sms.

I know tt no matter how busy he is, he will make time 4 me.

Becoz of this, I waited 4 him.

The 3 years were the hardest 2 go through & I really want 2 give up.

Sometimes, I wonder should I continue waiting.

The pain and hurt, the dilemma accompany me 4 3 years.

Till the end of my 3rd year, a 2nd year junior begins 2 go after me.

Everyday he pursuit me relentlessly.

From outright rejection 2 a point in time when I felt tt I'm willing 2 let him hv a small footing in my heart.

He's like a warm & gentle wind, trying 2 blow a leaf away from the tree.

In the end, I realized tt I didn't want 2 give this wind a small footing in my heart.

I know this wind will bring this badly battered leave far away & better land.

Finally I left tree, but the tree only smile & didn't ask me 2 stay.

Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay.

the stOry behind..

The reason I'm called tree is becoz I'm good at painting trees.

Overtime I start 2 use a tree on the right corner as a trademark 4 all my watercolors painting.

I hv dated 5 gals when I was in Pre-U.

There's 1 gal whom I love alot but nv dare 2 go after her.

She doesn't hv a pretty face, doesn't hv a good figure, doesn't have outstanding charm.

She is just a very ordinary gal.

I like her.

I really like her.

Like her innocent, like her frankness. Like her cuteness, like her intelligence and her fragility.

Reason 4 not going after her is becoz I felt somebody so ordinary like her is not a good match 4 me.

I'm also afraid tt after we are 2gether all the good feelings will vanish.

I'm also afraid other's gossips will hurt her.

I felt tt if she's my gal, she will be mine ultimately & I don't hv 2 give up everything just 4 her.

The last reason, made her accompany me 4 3 years.

She watch me chase after gals, and I hv make her heart cry 4 3 years.

She wants 2 be a good actress and I'm a very demanding director.

When I kissed my 2nd girlfriend, she bumped into us.

She was embarrassed but smile & say "Go on!" before running off.

The next day, her eyes was swollen like a walnut.

I purposely didn't want 2 think abt what causes her 2 cry but laugh at her the whole day.

When everybody go back home, she was alone crying in the classroom.

She didn't know tt I returned from soccer training 2 get something.

I watch her cry 4 an hour or so.

My 4th girlfriend didn't like her.

There was once when both of them quarreled.

I know tt based on her character she's not the type tt will start off the quarrel.

But I still sided with my girlfriend.
I shouted at her and her eyes was filled shocked.

I didn't care abt her feelings and walked off with my girlfriend.

The nxt day, she still laugh & joke with me like ntg has ever happened.

I know tt she's very hurt but she didn't know tt my heart ache is as bad as hers.

When I broke up with my 5th girlfriend, I asked her out.

After going out 4 a day, I told her tt I hv something 2 tell her.

She told me tt coincidentally, she has something 2 tell me too.

I told her about my break up and she told me about her getting 2gether.

I know whose the guy.

He has been going after her 4 quite a while.

A very cute guy full of energy, lively and interesting.

His pursuit 4 her has been the talk of the school.

I can't show her my heartache but could only smile & congratulate her.

When I reach home, the heart ache is so strong tt I can't stand it.

It's like a heavy weighted stone on my chest.

I couldn't breath.

Wanted 2 shout but can't.

Tears rolled down & I broke down & cry.

How many times have I seen her cry 4 the man tt doesn't acknowledge her presence too.

During graduation, I read a sms in my hp.

It was send 10 days ago when I broke down and cry.

I haven't read it since then.

It says "Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay".

sTudy dAy mAn~

okok, as u see e title.. i hAve been studyin all e wAy till 2 plus in e afternOon.. gO home n rEst a while cOMe out cOntinue tO do le, gOt lOads of homewOrks mAn.. sAdistic mE~ till 8 plus bA, went to e bbAll cOurt to relAc abit.. bOred afterall as i cANt play wit the lEg of mine.. keep cramped if nOt ankle pAin.. sAw him-wz tOday, was kinda stranger mayb cAuse lOng time nv see him bA.. he's still e sAme, still e sAme old him bA.. haha, i dUnno~ see lOads of my friend which i nv see fOr qUite some time too.. haha, went hOme be4 9pm tO see e lAst pArt fOr the Nkf shOw.. tOuchin mAn, y cAnt sOme one treasure anOther befOre he or she is gOne.. one will Only regret when the persOn nv retUrns? i will treasUre every single one of them i tink.. =)always~ nOw i will stOp tinkin in e nEgative side le, life is preciOus mUs live it to e fUllest.. althought it's hArd to stop thinkin at times bUt i will still tRy.. tis past fEw week sEen to be a "dream" to me.. i Ought to wAke up, yep reAlly wAke up! althought i m hAppy bUt tis will only be a shOrt period of times.. reAlly mUs believe in fAte? i dUnno, dUn wan to nOE anymOre.. i cAn Only sAy "thAnks for everything".. tAlk to wz at msn, he havin bbAll mATch next week all e bEst~ =D was happy at least we still did communicate.. when i told him i gO his scHool last tUe he was kinda y nv tell him.. hA hA, he wan come see.. =P thankss lO~ nv tAlk to [him] e whole dAy neither do we sms or tAlk in msn.. haha, i nOe happy mOment dUn last.. nAHz, nvm.. tC all~

wAt a dAy. . .

hAis, nv gO schoOl todAy.. teAcher also call me dUn cOme, so stAy at hOme n rEst lO.. wAs nOt a gOod rEst, dUnno where renovatiOn dAmn nOisy the whOle mOrnin lo.. wAKe up At ArOund 11plUs, it's sO early n rARe fOr tis lAzy bUm like me.. lEg still crAmpin, ankle hUrt + wHole bOdy archin.. -_-"hAis, still thinkin bOut ytd sTuffs, i mUs reAlly get over it sOon.. i must! ! thankss fOr all e encOuragement everyOne gives mE~ i appreciate~ wEnt wit mUm to mAlaysia, to sHan xIn bA~ bUt will still tink of it.. till 7 pluS then cOme bAck.. chAt in msn wit him, he did sAy "dun sAd La" but e effect is nOt e sAme le.. but is goOd enOught le, xIe xIe ni.. nOw i mUs mAke tis cleAr to myself, he is jUs a Friend/Brother tAt is goOd to me.. nOthing else~ yEp, wAs weird y he wAnt meet me after sChool.. acTually i agree le, we deCide to gO cAtch a mOvie.. eNd up he tell me he cAllin hUijun etc.. i dUn feel like meEtin le, nO other reAson juS tat i tink bOth of us need tO keep a distance.. tO prevEnt misunderstAndin "Again".. also be fRank i sCare i will rEally fAll fOr him~ i dUn wAn this to hAPPEn, nEver!.. he aSk cAn cOntrOl de meH? i wAs actually in Loss of wOrds, eNd up jus sAy dUn let tis hAPPEn Jiu cAn le.. whEn lAst time he sAY to mAKe bReakfAst fOr me i m sUrprised le.. pErhaps Jus becOs i dUn tink a gUy will mAKe bReakfAst fOr a person tat is Jus so simple tO him.. tink i tink too mUch.. bUt i m really sCare one dAy i will fAll fOr him, n i nOE tis shouldn't hAppen~ i reAlly felt he is treatin mE toO goOd le.. hAis.. sO startin frOm tOday, we will keep a distAnce ba.. I wishes u all e bEst.. till nOw i m still feelin abit sAd over ytd sTuffs + i nOt lOnger cARE bOut e individUal best le.. i neEd my cOnfident bAck, i will dEpend on mysElf frOm tis mOment onwArds.. *yEp, i will stay On e right tRack.. alwAys~* thANkss fOr everything~

ilu? nice bLog.. 

nAtionAl x-cOuntRy 2005..

a sAd dAy fOr Jing.. todAy dismissed at 12o'clOck to reSt for the rACe etc, -_-" it start at 4pm or even later.. wAs given the fUll nEw jersEy tOday, quite like it ba.. blUe asics tOp n bOttom.. rEach there arOund 1.30pm, given chocolAte to eAt n lAst briefin then Jiu wEnt tO rest zZz.. till 3.30pm like tAT, all went dOwn to wArm up le.. i m very sCare lO, my tEacher wAnted me to bReak my persOnal bEst-17.07.. i toO hOpin to brEak tAt peAk of mIne.. as sOon as e rAce stARt all Of us rUn quite fAst untill i lOst my balance n sprain my ankle.. i did nOt fAll bUt wAs sprAin then bAck to bAlance again, the gAls all rUshin pAst n the rOad is nOt stAble.. at fiRst i thought it wAs alright then when i cOntinue rUn, the pAin stARt tO come le.. it's like mY lEft lEg pUllin my bAck.. hAis, i wAs nOt determine enOught.. i mind toO mUch bOut e aNkle, haO Hou hUi~ if i continue to be preservance i will have dOne muCh better.. i tink i m with in 100 rUnners, bUt last yr i m in tOp 50.. reAlly sAd, if my mind sEt is better.. rUn wit nO wOrries n dO my best despite e pAin, will it be better? when teAcher sAy she is prOud of me, i becOme mOre. . . i rEn very lOng le, finAlly i cRied out.. Of cAuse wit nO sOund, my tEacher sAy she admire me sOme mOre.. cAuse she sAy wit inJury at the beginnin u R still abLe to finish e rAce it's goOd enOugh.. i rEally hOpe i will dO better then tAt~ bUt it's over le.. all Of them tOld me it's nOt e eNd, still gOt jUly de trAck n fiEld.. i wAs thinkin whether tO tAke pArt cAUse of O level.. tink me need tIme to get over it asap, i need my confident bAck, my determinAtion to be strOnger n my preservanCe!! hAIs, upOn reAchin hOme fOund that gOt 9 missed cAll n lOads of messAges~ all of them very wOrried fOr me.. i dUnno how they nOe, bUt thankss~ one by one cAlled, i answEr n tRy to tAlk.. when tAlk to kokPing tat time i jIu rEn bU liao le, i cRied silently.. tink he nOe bA.. then keep replyin mSg to all my fRiend, they keen encOurage me nOt to be sAD etc.. mY fOrm teACher also.. thankss to them~ i prOmised to get over it sOon.. i will tRy bA.. i cAlled him also, when i tOld him i lOse.. he rePlied "sO sAd".. i felt even sAd, he dUn seen tO understAnd.. =( hAis, then his sUrroundin keep hAvin sOunds.. acTually i wAs hOpin him to tell me "dUn sAd lA".. bUt he never.. nvm ba, my attitude tAT time also nOT very goOd.. hAis, tis yr i m hAvin lOads of regrEt~ first vOlleybAll then x-cOuntry.. bUt tis is Life bA, cAn Jus get Over n cOntinue.. nOw i m cOntinue wIt regRets.. reAl sAd, i dUn wAn tiNk le.. cAn i dEpend on sOme one to sHAre my sAdness, perhaps in tis waY I will be mUcH better~ i m rEally tirEd~ ='(

Ultraman~  

spOrt dAys hEat

tOday qUite an happenin dAy? dUnno, hAha.. wAs stUdyin wHole dAy, sOme mOre gOt after sChool prOgramme-cOmbined sCience.. -_-"totally tirEd plus nOt feelin well, the gAls sTuffs la.. pissed me Off.. mUst try to slp early le, nOwadays always sLeep after 2am.. (><,)cAn u image my obAka? plus tat irritatin pimples hA hA.. tOday wAs e heAts n finAl fOr 400m.. leAve sTudy prOgramme at 3.40pm like tat tO rUsh to yJc.. hOpin nOt to see him, will be very wEird bA.. givin up is better i felt, mUch relieved nOw.. "leaf departure is wiNd pursue or becOs the tree didn't ask her to stAy?" nicE quOte i tink =D.. wAs stunned hOw cOme sO mAny ppl jOin 400m todAy, bOut 4 heats to be held.. meAnin 20-30plus gAls.. mine is e first heats n -_-" the six lane.. the further lane is mine le, 6 runner only ma.. i hAte tat lAne, bIg big circle big big rOund!! haha, bUt i cOmpleted wit the beSt recOrd.. all the finAlist wAs reluctant tO rUn again, all leg crAmp i tink incLudin mine.. bUt gOt no chOice, wAs given to reSt fOr 45mins or so.. haha, tAlk on phOne wit brO.. it help me cAlm dOwn, *thAnkss.. alsO dunno y, bUt i hAppy lO.. wAs still feElin abit "jin zhAng" when the rAce stArtin bUt like wAt bRo sAy "sHu Jiu sHU la.." then i become better.. abit like hare cARe the outcOme le lO, jUs dO my bEst wit nO wOrries.. indeed tis is mUch mUch better, i gOt the chAmp fOr 400m.. tinkin bAck last yr tis is e event i gOt secOnd so tis yr i gOt it bAck =D.. Tml is 13042005 le, importAnt dAy perhAps.. my nATional rAce~ gOtta dO my best n Of cAUse i Jus hOpe to break my persOnal bEst jIU hAo le.. nOt cOnfident in bein in tOp 20, it's reAlly hArd.. n i nOe my limits, will still dO my beSt.. Lucks fOr me bA(nn').. tAt's bOut all bA, tired after all those lATe night sleEp n ccAs.. nOw tinkin Of my hOmewOrk n studies.. hANg on~ *addicted to "i wanna be with yOu"* nIcess!!

bAd dAy mAyb?

TodAy, nths speciAl hAppen Jus tAt tml is e sOme Of e spOrts dAy heAts+finAl-[400m] le.. sAme as lAst yr will be hEld at yJc.. YJc rEmind me Of Last yR spOrts dAy'-', goOd or bAd?.. eh, participAte in qUIte alOts of events 3000m, 400m, 100m, shOrt pUt n 4*100m relAy.. -_-" my class la, keep askin me to jOin tis jOin tAt.. hOpe cAn help my clAss win sOmething bA, haha.. lUcky nv Join lOng/high jUmp, bUt ChEl will sUre aSk me tO go e hEats de.. Like lAst yr, i jOin 5 individUal n twO relAy -_-" all thankss to rachel.. tis yr slightly different cAuse is clAss vs clAss, nO more hOuse le.. haha, 5A3 JiayOu!! aimin fOr the individUal bEst tis yr also.. bUt gOt to be mOre fOcus on wed de nAtional.. nO matter wat's e OutcOme, will pUt in mY best effOrts =D.. cOme to tAlk bOut my dAy nOt reAlly goOd ba, stOmach crAMps~ prAy tAt tML will nOt have crAmp if nOt it will sUrely affect my rAce.. mUst nOt!~ anOther bAD news, i gOt a BIG pimple on my fOreheAd.. argh~ i hAte tAt.. sO ugly!! pLus, my chinese orAl is nOt well dOne i tink.. sAd~ i always aim fOr my chinese.. bUt tis time rOund i nOe i'm nOt gOin to dO well fOr my orAl.. will affect my overall mArks ='(.. jus cAn an wEi mysElf tis is nOt o level? tMl will nOe e resUlt le, firSt period sOme mOre.. bUt i m prepAREd lA, let it be i cAnt chAnged it Also.. sO tOdAy is qUite a bAd dAy fOr me~ hOpin better fOr tml, haha~ tAt all.. -hOpin tAt i cAn reALly UnderstANd everything.. bUt i reAlly dUnno~-

bOrin sUndAy~

bOred!~ usually i gOt no plAn fOr sundAy, tAt's wat mAke it a bOrin dAy.. wEnt in msn to chAt all dAy untill e nKf shOw stArt.. tOuchin~ those pAtient reAlly heng keliAn.. bUt lUcky they gOt enOugh cAlls le.. =D prAy n bLess thOse pAtients.. afterall todAy a simple n bOrin dAy i expeCted~ tAt's bOut all.. hAha, i m sUrprised n hAppy tOday.. m i gettin intO trOuble(nn').. hOpe nOt, stAy hAppy bA~ "chi xin jue dui" reAlly a nIcess sOng, so is "oVer".. haha..

nIcess..  

fRiends~ pReciOus!! 

sAturdAy cOme agAin~

tOday wEnt to trAinins as promised.. eh, play as setteR again'-'.. dUn reAlly like tAt pOsition.. nAhz bUt it's ok ba.. i will prefer tO trAin as a libEro.. mAyb when i wAs a libero in sEc 3 i didnt dO well tAt's y i wAn tO play agAin~ hOpin to play better n dOin my bEst.. tOday cOach cAll me tO sTudy hArd sO nExt yr cAn gO nyjC help him pLay settEr cAuse tIs yr their sEtter all leAvin le.. then nO moRe setter, bUt i wAs abIt hAlf-hEarted nOt mUch cOnfident tAt i cAn mAke it to a Jc? sOme mOre my engliSh is nOt tAt goOd.. fOr Jc their gEneral pAper need tO be goOd~ hOwever will still dO my beSt fOr the O level.. hOpe so cAn gO in? -_-" cHinese pAper is cOmin le.. mUs reAlly scOre fOr tis sUbject.. nO mOre slAckin!! =) ahBu aNd Lishan JiayOu too, we gO in together.. cOme to tAlk bOut e tRainins, fUn afterall.. settin de fEelin os still there, bUt sAbrinA n kAini nv cOme =(.. wE are dRiftin aPart frOm "dOu dOu" le.. haha, nvm wE gOt renA n rebeccA tO play wit uS.. if nOt, nOT enOught pPl le.. cOme tO nOe rEna will cOme tO nyJc if cAn, cOach sUre hAppy de bA.. =) we play fOur sEt, wOn 4 set toO.. nYjc is imprOvin lOads man, hOpe they cAn get cHamp tis yr fOr their A`division nATionAl.. best oF lUck maN~ mY dAy, bOred~

over? 

nATionAl finAl-8th apRil..

my dAy today is alright.. nOw have e habit to blOg everydAy le, dUnno y.. my chemistRy tEst todAy wAs. . . dUnno will pAss ma? tat's my weakest subject of all -_-".. gOtta bUck up le.. todAy, aCtually gOt maths de after sChool prOgramme.. lUcky we all requested to cancel~ hAis, but startin frOm next week everydAy will be haviN study prOgamme le.. will be like 2 hRs fOr every sUbject(><,).. siAn hAlf, like tAt wan study lOads of hOUrs le.. gOt to hang On there i sUpposed, fAster get into o level mOod is bEtter!! wEnt to wAtch natiOnal finals right after schOol.. hAha, we rUsh in time to wAtch the full mAtch + wArm up.. eh, firSt time see st. hilAs.. befOre tat hAve heard aLots of their pOsitive cOmments, todAy finAl see them le n the "yO yo"~ they are reAlly good~ me n ahbU like their bOndin, have team spirits, team wOrk n mOst importantly their unity.. like very clOse as brOthers mOre like jus team maTes.. =D i like tAt!! wAs feelin weiRd y one Of the ang mO kiO center nV play? sOme more sAw him sitted behind Us? it wAs a nIces mAtch afterall =).. st.hilas wOn 3-1.. i tink as lOng as did their best le have nO regrets~ i felt tat he play quite well although his first wArm up bAll is a flOater =x.. bTw, gOt to nOe that he is rEally flexibLe.. nO.10 dEfend reAlly nicess some more he very ping too.. lOls, throughtout e mAtch ahBu is like sUpportin st. hilas-_-".. then we was like "quarrelin".. nAhz, jUs fOr fUn nia.. we didn't stAy to wAtch the b`gAls mAtch.. did intend to bUt end up when they was warmin up.. we felt very negAtive(-), was sad of cause.. sOme mOre befOre tat, we are sitted in bEtween phs n JurOng.. we dUn feel gOod at all, regrets perhAps? hAis, dUnno la jUs dU have a goOd feelin.. whEn sAbRina gO ask mingwEi y we didnt play?! mingwEi jus aNswer in the wAy "whO cAll ur lOst to ngeE ann?!".. me n ahbu was behind him n Of cause we heard la-_-".. already sO "xin suAn" le, he like tat sAy. . . feel like cRyin Out~ bUt i didn't.. bUt ahBu nearly le, till nOw ahBu still blAMe herself n was very gUilty.. hAis, i hOpe tis should nOt go On~ cHeer up bA everyOne, we still gOt "sMb alumni".. after tat, went hOme n sTay at hOme all dAy le.. nO plAn as mOst of e gAls gO clubbin, i decide nOt to go~ =p sorry ahbU, haVe fUn~ -_-" stAy at hOMe dAmn bOred + the gastric problem.. lOOkin fOrwards to trAinins~ seein e fiNals mOtivated mOst of us to tRaIn better.. sO let's wOrk hArd~ =D JiayOu!! nOw the nAtional rOund finish le, reAlly wOnderin nOw'-'.. over?

ultraman agAin~ 

my dAy..

-_-" todAy gOt punish for not bringin pE shirt for e life run.. lOls, i reAlly fOrget.. lUcky ahbU also nv bRings.. hAha, gOt team wOrk sia =P.. arGh~ my gastric pAin is bAck.. i hAte tat man!! cannot concentrate on pOa lesson cAuse really nOt feelin well.. bUt still need tO rUn at recEss as a punishment.. tOday, vbAll gAls "stUdy dAy" again.. haha, lOve the times we spent together rEally.. in cOurt or nOt, there will surely be fUn n lOads of lAughter.. haha, reAlly fUn pAls tO be with.. kae, nOw the fOur of us decide to gO for the selection le.. hOpe everything will be fine.. after tat went to play bAsketbAll at 404.. wasn't really enjoyin cAuse weArin unifOrm, dun feel comfortable.. n i deprOve lOads i gUess sO ba.. lOls, bUt now vOlleyball is the mOst important le ba.. =P sAw ah piAo they all today n play wit them.. fUn after all, he always will give that fAce.. buAy tAhan, so i always call him "sAi".. lOls, but tat's e wAy we cOmmunicate.. uSed tO it le(><,).. haha, jOkin afterall.. tMl dAba+viOlents gAls mAyb gOin cLubbin.. haha, i dUn tink i m gOin.. dUnno y, i dUn reAlly tink we shOuld gO at tis Age.. n i sOrt of scare tO gO, hAve nO goOd impressiOn on "clubbin" stUffs ba.. see hOw tMl bA.. haha, sUre gOin to see e nATional finAl.. i sUpportin angmOkio =p.. nAhz, jus hOpe tat they will create "histOry" agAin? the "black hOrse" so cAll.. =)JiayOu!! tAt's my dAy.. *anyway i tink i have given up le.. tis time rOund i m quite sUre.. perhaps in e first place we are not suitable n i have hOld on lOng enough.. it's reAlly e time.. i hOpe him all e beSt..*

sUddenly fOund tis lOng lOst memories of mine.. shOuld i be bAck? hAis.. 

tRainins dAy!!

wAt a dAy tOday.. haPpy =)) gOt x-country trainin n go to e bOys vbAll trainin tOday.. i enjOy my dAy after all.. x-cOuntry nearly sprained my ankle.. lucky me~ run 3.8km today, tink i m used to it le.. always run lOng lOng distance n 3.8km is e shortest we have le.. -_-" use 9.15min to finish a 1.9km.. tink i got to jiayOu le.. next wEd!! yep, after tat go to e bOys vball trainin, but i nv bring my vball stuffs(><,).. "ling si" decide to go so jus go n play+train lo.. some of our old bOys come bAck n got 2 outsiders.. all veRy friendly n i enjoyed the gAme throughout.. =D will be gOin to their trainins again if cAn.. -_-" i sOrt of losin e tOuch for vbAll le, gOtta bUck up bA~ lUcky near the eNd of e trAinin my tOuch is better le.. reAlly nOt used to it cAuse used to touch vball every two dAys, and nOw it's like once in a week.. sO mAyb will deprove abit at leAst ba.. No gYm wOrk sOme mOre.. bUt e pAssiOn remain =P.. tMl gotta be a fRee frOm ccAs daY fOr me.. yEap, caN rEst~ dunno y i seEn tO sCare x-cOuntry trAinin rEcently, or perhaps i dislike it bA.. gOin to stepped dOwn once i finish e nATional rAce, dun tink i will be tRainin fOr e jUne nATional trAcks.. my pAssiOn fOr rUnnin is reAlly gOne~ gOt to admit it la.. bTw, me n ahbU already decided tO gO fOr e selectiOn.. cAuse neither one of us wAn tO give up on vBall.. tink lishan n sAbrina will be gOin too.. hOpe we can dO it ba.. tRyin to train my first bAll n defends bAck le.. will wOrk hArd towards it ba =)).. hAis, heard frOm jUniors tAt cOach mayb nOt teachin sMb anymOre liao ='(.. cAuse sChoOl dUn allowed cOach to trAin at nights, bUt if cOach will to sTAy he cAn only trAin us at night.. -_-" tRainin hAve always be in night from the very beginnin-5 yrs agO.. n jUs becOs new principal new scedules? hOpe cOach will cOntinue to teach "sMb".. tAt's my dAy, a gReat oNe!! =D..

like e atmosphere of the pictUre.. stArs everywhere.. cAn i be grAnt a wish?  

study~ study n stuDy!!

=)free from ccAs dAy.. hAis but tml havin time trAil again le -_-".. got to get throught it.. yEp, today study together wit lishAn, ahBu, sAbrina n Jiayi.. i Love tat~ at least in tis wAy we remAin in cOntact.. tis is a mOre effective wAy of stUdyin i tink so.. from 3.30pm study all e wAy to around 7.30 man.. lOls, was dAmn tired.. mAyb becOs ytd nv sleep well some more tOday e amOunt of homewOrks.. (nn')dAmn lOads.. lUcky mAnage tO finish all except Chemistry.. lOls, jus cannot uNderstAnd it at all n it aways pull my overall gRade dOwn.. gOt tO wOrk hArder fOr tAt le i suPposed? k, will try ba.. eh, yTd 2am plUs then slp nOw my eye bAg -_-" . . . o level chinese is cOmin my wAy le, felt e stress cOmin up.. hOpe tO do well bA, JiayOu.. same tO all my fRiend =D.. i reAlly need time to sOrt out my feelin nOw.. issit a cRush? hAiyo~ let it be.. tiRed~ tAt's my dAy e 5th.. =)) **btw, i got my vbAll b`gAl photo tAken lAst yr when we won in yOuth cUp le.. plus when i sec 1 jus jOin vball de photo.. hAppy!! lOls, but i reAlly cHange alOt bA? everyone in vBall shOuld nOe =p.. nOw havin vbAll gatherin in msn, fun =D.. lOve u gals..

stRess..

anOther dAy withOut gOod food-_-".. gOin tO stArve agAin? reAlly hungry tOday.. viOlents gAls budget sAvin wAsn't rEally useful i supposed? they eAt bread with hAm but i only eAt bread.. they eat cereals wit milk n i only eAt cereals.. sOrry but i nOe i m vEry fUssy bOut fOod =p.. i swear i m gOin reCess tml, dEsire fOr a goOd mEal at leAst!! tOday have x-Country trAinin.. the trainins is mUch better le, at least we really got "Train".. =)tAt's gReat!! ya, nOt time trAil agAin but we did rUn 3.8km lo.. next week nAtional x-cOuntry stArt liao 13th apRil, hAis wAsn't very cOnfident.. bUt~ i will dO my beSt i pRomise =D.. hOpe cAn reach my aims ba.. JiayOu!! tis fRi is e nAtional finAl liao~ gOin to see, lOokin fOrward it mAn.. i rEally gOt a "cRush" on him? oh my gOd(><,).. i m reAlly wOnderin nOw.. argh~ bUt no big dEal.. all e beSt tO all my fRiend =).. i miss my vBall mUch'-'..

ultraman!! e bEst!! 

wAt a dAy..

wEnt to orchard wit ahbU to buy cARds n some lil stuffs for my team mates.. jus a little gift n some wOrds we wanted to sAy tO them.. i reAlly missed tRainin, tOday went baCk however the atmosphere is sO weiRd.. hAis, we nOe cOach is disappointed wit us n also c`gAls.. we oUrselves have lOads of regrets i admit.. bUt it's all over le, can only sAy we r reAlly sOrry.. "dUi bU qi".. frOm wat cOach sAy tOday, really felt so bAd n guilty.. y didn't we wOrk harder? hais, my c gals also not dOin well.. yes, they did get tO tOp 4 but they lOse to phs in semi finAl so they cAn only be in 3rd or 4th.. y PHS again? cOach is damn angry i supposed cAuse he dOte tis bAtch of c`gAls alOt but they lOst to PHS again~ plus jUrong lOse to cedar, cOach sAid tis is e first time his c`gAls group nv gEt intO the finAl.. frOm tis nOe tat cOach is rEally disappointe ba? -_-" hOpe MY C`Gals win jUrong n get 3rd at least ba? goOd lucks to ur =D, jiayOu.. tOday write post card to all my ex-teamates.. missed them real mUch, e trainin, e little quarrel, basically everything~ really need to start gettin used to not trainin on tue, thurs liao.. but i still have to wOrk hard for the natiOnal x-cOuntry man~ i dOubt i have e mOod.. hAi, i will still try ba.. nOw i m thinkin whether shOuld i gO for the selection fOr cOmbined sChool.. when heard from wat huijUn sAy, wAs interested cAuse dUn wan to give uP on vbAll.. n hOpe to acheive a gReater height of vBall.. goin for the selection is a better alternative.. bUt cOach todAy nv ever tAlk to me about it, jus to lishAn n ahbU.. it's like my 5 yrs cOach dun ever lOok up on me n should i really go for a try? the combined cOach really gan de qi wO? =( hAi, was a great drOp of my moRal n no confidence for e selection lo.. =( so should i? i m thinkin.. today sms wit him, was actually happy he sms me =p.. i make thing clear le, thankss for tellin me all tis.. at least i noe le, now i clearly noe where i stand.. was ok u dunno wat u feel for me, was disappointed but i need to get over it soon.. real soon.. i believe we really can be only be friend liao.. i decided to continue my vbAll le.. my promise to u can nv be fuifill liao, cause i need to give up since u like another one le.. nOe there is nO point wAitin.. tat's my dAy..

April fOol 2005..

wAt a bOrin dAy -_-".. but today no sCh~ yeAp! hAis, mus go tO school fOr speech dAy.. wAs lAzy la, bUt happy afterall.. after tat, gO home lo.. =( dun feel like playin bball, still tinkin bOut vBall.. need sOme time to get over it bA.. tOday he mSg me, askin bOut e mAtch.. was sUrprised ba cause ytd sms him, he only reply once.. was actually disappointed by his hark cAre attitude.. cAnt he jus give me a little support? i simply hAte tat!! i already decided to give up ytd le, i noe we cant really be baCk.. so i will try to give up, i will try.. cOme to tink of it, today is april fOol.. the dAy me n him actually started to become better lAst yr.. bUt it's nO longer special le.. i m determined tis time.. only vball n jus vball.. tat's all for today'-'..

me n ahbU agAin.. still as beSt~ =) 

Our lAst mAtch, a mEmorable dAte..

Today is our match vs pHs, lOokin fOrward it.. we chAnged our formation against them, in a sense ahbu will be e first to serve no mAtter wat.. =) hOpe everyone do well, cause tis is a real important match.. if lOse, percentage of out of tOp 4 is high.. hAis, we lOse 2-0.. First sEt 14-25, second set 15-25.. all cRied, is tis fAted? y we lOse to ngee ann.. ahbU was damn sad today cause she nOt on form.. gAl, u gOtta cheer up kae.. lishan n kAini pLayed well esp lisHan.. it's really a waste, tis yr sMb b`gAl can sAy is quite goOd.. we wOn cEdar but they are able to get in y cAnt we? reAlly felt wasted, hais.. see lishan, kaini n ahbu cried today.. i felt super duper sAd ='(.. out of e main 6, 5 of us is last yr le.. hais, it's like our last match for our secondary life after all those yr in vball.. really very she bu de, i missed the lOads Of trainin.. my cOach, my teAcher n most importantly my team mates with me all tis while.. n *ahbU*, she is really my best team mate ever.. i m thinkin from seC 1 till nOw, reAlly great havin u as my team mate!! i dOubt i will forget u in my whOle Life.. the support u give me, the listenin ear u lent me n pei he me all tis while.. all remain in my mind.. n i promise we will still remain as team mate after we go pOly Or Jc.. lEt's wOrk hArd for tis aims.. i will not forget [lishan, kAini n sAb].. ur are all my greatest team mates fOreva.. the memories ur give me is all so unforgetable.. be it a goOd one or bAd one.. i will never fOrget.. urs endless support n encouragement have brought me here for who i m.. really thankss.. ='( wO hAo she bU de ni men~ never forget the trainings we have together, how we build up our team spirits n team wOrks.. the little quarrels tat bRought us ever cLoser n mOre united.. sincerely, ur r the best!! ni men ye bu yao wang ji mAyi!! 31th of mAtch will always reamin as a memorable dAte in my heart.. but prOmise to gO back to trainings every sAt kae.. Our "sEmbawAng alumni".. nv fOrget tis, all my team mates.. all e best in everything yOur dO.. =) tHankss fOr everything..

mE n her.. =))

this is me n ahBu.. my bestie team mates cUm fRen!! nV fOrget yA =)..